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Yes, dreams, do come true. I guess that is what I have to say about this whole process. I can finally say I am going to grad school and getting a "doctorate." Even though it's not a PhD like I always wanted, I hope this will be sufficient. I think this will make me happy.
I am pretty much ready to go. I have all my loans taken care of and I just have one letter to mail off today. I haven't received my dissection kit yet, but I should get it today. Then I will have everything I need to start class right away. I have all the books I will need so far and the rest I will ship to my apartment. I also have one suitcase packed to the brim with the textbooks. I think I'm going to take a few out and move it to the duffel bag so it's not at exactly 50 pounds. I am going to bring my multi-function printer on the plane with me as a carry-on. I have no choice! I won't leave that and have to pay $$$ for a crappier printer. I like that one so it's coming with me. Then I will just bring a smaller tote bag with my computer and a change of clothes in case they lose my luggage. I also have to pack up the duffel bag and a few boxes and I will be ready to go.
I know that I am getting nervous because I haven't slept well for a few days now. There are so many new things happening at once: Separating from my husband and cat, living in a new apartment, living in another country, going to grad school that is also medical school, taking out government loans, and being in a place that I have never been to before where I know absolutely no one. I think it's fair to say that it is at least moderately stressful. I think everything will be okay since it's a modern island with modern amenities. I am not sure if I would be as calm if I was going to Ross on Dominica. I think the reason so many people go to Ross is because of the name. I think people want to go to a school that sounds "real" and doesn't have the words "Caribbean" in it. Me, I don't care about that. I would rather be in a place that can help me if something goes wrong. No one is going to care if my school says "Caribbean" in it. If they do, they can go somewhere else.
Because I've not been able to sleep well, I am very tired. I am not sure how much packing I will be able to do, but I will have to try. I also have to pay some bills (darn) and buy some stuff (yeah) today. I've kept all my boxes from my gifts and hope that will be enough for my stuff. Sometimes I think I am bringing too much, but then I realize that knowing me, if I don't have a specific item, I will obsess about it forever. So I am going to bring all the things that I will need that may not be on St. Maarten. That way, I have no distractions. I can focus hard on school and do well.
Since I will miss TJ's birthday, I am going to make a cake for him before I leave. I hope that will be okay. I may order him a gift from Amazon when I get on the island so we will see. I don't know what to get him though. Maybe I will get him something from SXM. Hm.
Well I am very tired! Im falling asleep as I type! I don't know how this will work out today doing these chores. I am glad I took down the tree yesterday and put away all the Christmas stuff. I wouldn't be able to do all that today. Well, I guess I better get started. YAWN!
When I first was going for this whole med school thing, I learned that UA was taking up to 25% out of state people. Then, after I applied, they decided to take up to 50%. This means that they WILL take 50%. So when I learned about that, I knew I wasn't going to get in at UA because I wont be paying a premium to the school as an out of state student. TJ said that I still had a chance. I thought that my chance was 0. So he bet me $5000 that I would get into UA. Even though UA-Tuc was my top choice, they had two campuses. The original bet was just "UA" so I extended it to both campuses. So far, he's halfway lost. I am waiting to not get an interview from PHX and I win! Well, yesterday, I got this email from UA-PHX:
Hello,
The University of Arizona College of Medicine-Phoenix Office of Admissions and Recruitment is impressed with your dedication and commitment to a future in medicine.
Our final interview spots will be filled by January 20, 2012.
If you are selected to interview, a separate email will be sent.
If you are no longer interested in being considered as an applicant for the entering class of 2012, please notify our office by email with your decision.
Continue to stay engaged and active in your pursuit of medical education. We hope to be in touch soon.
Please feel free to email with any questions or concerns.
Sincerely,
Office of Admissions and Recruitment
The University of Arizona
College of Medicine-Phoenix
550 East Van Buren Street
Phoenix, Arizona 85004
Office: (602) 827-2005
Fax: (602) 827-2212
Email: COMPHX-admissions@email.arizona.edu
TJ has about a month left, and I win!
Anyway, this email is very stupid. They are impressed by what? If they were so impressed they would interview me. What else is stupid is that they want ME to email THEM if I don't want to be considered. Huh? I paid my fees, you better reject me. That is one thing I don't understand about some med school hopefuls. They voluntarily withdraw their OWN application because they think they wont get in anyway. First of all, why did you apply if you thought you wouldn't get in? Second, if you PAID MONEY for an application, why are you withdrawing it? Let them do the work and reject you. If you are that scared of rejection, you need to work a couple of jobs before you start this ridiculous process.
So after reading that email, I became SUPER excited about taking the opportunity at AUC. Now, I am starting medical school, and I couldn't be happier. Screw University of Arizona. Honestly, I hope this whole taking out of state people backfires on them and they have a budget problem in a few years. I sound bitter? Of COURSE I am, duh! I want to live here, but I can't because that stupid school is in control of everything. You know, if I open up a medical school, maybe I will just open it up in Arizona instead. Yes, I know that sounds outlandish. It is. But it's nice to dream about people's demises.
Well, it's nine days until SXM. I am now rip roaring and ready to go. Today I am going to finish up my financial and send it in. Then Im going to wrap up my books and pack my kitchen items and food. Hooray!
Good Lord! I spent ALL day yesterday ordering books and crap for school. I took so long because of the cost. I kept saying "Just hit the 'spend' button already!!!!" But I couldn't do it until I figured out the lowest cost. And I found it, so now I am comfortable with everything. I didn't spend that much after all. I spent about $400 on books and I will Fedex them to my address before I leave.
I still haven't ordered the lab coat yet. I am seeing that you need to wear it in anatomy lab, so maybe I will order the one with my name on it after lab so I don't have guts all over it. I will just buy one at school and then order me a new one when I get there so it will be ready for next semester. Maybe I can use the old one for cooking? (eek!)
My deposit was also confirmed! Hooray! So I am all set to become a resident of St. Maarten. That sounds pretty crazy! It also sounds really cool too! How many people, who are not in the military, get to live overseas? I must say, this is going to be an experience. I am still scared I am going to fail, but like I said, I would think that no matter what school I went to. I thought I would fail ochem, and look how that turned out. I just have to remember that I already took anatomy, physiology, microbiology, half of biochemistry, and can do math well enough! I think I should be okay, no?
I was also approved for my first ever (government) loan! It's funny how fast they throw money at you when you want to be a doctor, but there is no money if you want to be a pilot! Ha! Well, I'll take this too! I've never took a loan out in my life, except credit cards. I guess that is why it took me FOREVER to finish the bachelor degree. The Pay-as-you-go program is a very slow deal.
I did NOT get to wash my hair yesterday, which is good because I chopped up about four gallons of ONIONS yesterday so that TJ can cook his food easier. Right now I am trying to get rid of the smell in the house. It will be worth it though... right? Well, either way, he should have enough onions to last until I come back. I think next time I will take my own advice and just buy pre-chopped onions.
So today is going to be a bit easier. I have to wash and iron some clothes, make a cake or something, re-pot the poinsettias (no I didn't get to that yesterday either), buy a few more things from the store, and pack up my bag with my food and kitchen supplies. That bag alone is about fifty pounds! I am still deciding if I am going to ship the duffel bags to allow myself to take a bookbag or ship the bookbag and take the heaviest duffel... blah blah it goes on and on.
No kitty kat pictures today, I need to rest a bit!
I am ALMOST done with all my paperwork! I sent off my hard copies yesterday. Today I can try to send in my financial aid stuff. I still haven't heard back about the transfer... that's making me nervous! Where did I send my money?? IEEEE!
Anyway, I only have a few more things to do and then I am set to pack! Wow, can you believe I will be leaving in 11 days?? I can't.
I also have to go to the airport and see if my suitcase will fit in the overhead. I think it will, but Im not sure. I think they have a "sizer" at the airport to see if your bag will fit. Well, I know JetBlue does. Not so sure about any other airline. I am not sure when I will be able to do that though. I have been so busy and I would have to go with TJ so he can wait for me in the car. Ugh. Little by little, I am getting there.
Okay, just a "few" more chores today and I can rest a bit. I really need to wash my hair!!!
It's funny how much more comfortable I am about going to AUC. At first, I was pretty scared. Now, I'm starting to get excited about finally getting this started.
This weekend was filled with tasks. And I am not done yet! I went and got my HIV results (negative in case you are curious), then I got mt TB test, my TDAP, and my flu shot all in one day. I had to lie down twice because all the shots were making me nauseous. I have never had a flu shot before and it was not pleasant. My arm was sore and I actually felt kinda sick. The next day, my other arm was sore from the TDAP and I felt like I was "getting over" some bad cold or flu. I was weak, my muscles hurt, my neck was cramped, and my lymph nodes in my groin especially were hurting all day. I had to drink two shots of whiskey to feel better. Yikes! Sunday I felt better, and only my TDAP arm was sore. Today I feel fine, but my TDAP arm is still a little sore. But I was expecting that so whatever.
This morning, I scanned in my "Technical Standards" form and emailed it to my coordinator because its due today. I am also hoping I can schedule my flight today. I have to hear back from them first. I am also expecting to hear back from my new landlord! That's right, I also wired in my security deposit on my new apartment in St. Maarten. Isn't that crazy? I can't believe I am going to live in another country! It's kind of exciting and scary at the same time. I chose AUC because it has the best island. Thousands of tourists some there all year. I will never be alone!
What's even crazier is that this is my last week in the United States! I will be flying to SXM sometime next week. UGH! When I say that, my stomach kinda gets queasy. I know TJ is still sad about me leaving, and I am too, but I think he is coming to grips with this reality. We just have to take it one day at a time. I told him we will talk everyday online. I also plan on writing a little paragraph everyday in a special notebook for him. It will be a cool keepsake once I am off this island recording our time (and only time I hope) apart. Of course, I will upload pictures and such on this blog and my webpage.
Right now I am contemplating whether or not I should order my AUC lab coat now or when I get there? I am not sure if I will have a chance to embroider it and if I will have to pay more over there because of the international shipping. Hm. Well, I have some time to decide.
I also decided in the fate of the GMAT. I AM going to take it. I am going to lightly study for it when I am in SXM and I will schedule to take it during my break in April. All I have to do is get above a 500 and I can apply to Quinnipiac. If I decide to not go to QU, I can wait to take it again and apply after my residency. There is an MBA program at the University of Tennessee that offers and accelerated one year MBA to physicians only (kind of like an EMBA). The best part? NO GMAT REQUIRED! HA! So now I just have to decide if I want the MBA from QU or UTenn. Each has their advantages and disadvantages, so I will see what I will do after I take the GMAT. One downside: I have to take the GMAT books with me! Oh well.
Today I am going to make copies of some vital info for TJ and do some chores. I have a couple of plants I need to re-pot. Oh and now I just remembered that I have to buy two big pots. Hm. I guess I can do that today. I also have to mail in all of my hard copies of my info for enrollment. I also have to try out my new folding bike. If the extra bag fees aren't too bad, I just may bring it this time instead of next since next time, I am going to bring Meux Meux! Awwww! I hope she doesn't miss me too much when I am gone for a few months.
Here I am, on the payments page, all my info filled out, but yet I can't hit submit and send my payment to AUC. Im frozen! ARGH! And not because I don't put the heat on. It's because I am frightened that I am making a bad decision.
But what other choice is better? Even if Meharry gets back to me, I would have already started at AUC since I wanted to start in May. I know no one is going to interview me, so who cares? I would only be prolonging the inevitable.
I just have to keep saying "Urbana" or "KIrksville" and I think I can get my wits about me.
Okay, here I go..................
I DID IT. I AM OFFICIALLY GOING TO AUC! Uh oh, I feel sick...
Today I am going to pay my deposits. I am scared and I am reluctant. To keep my sanity, I just keep telling myself this would be the same as if I was accepted to Urbana or Kirksville. I'd be placing deposits and moving far away from TJ. The difference is that where Im moving is a happenin' island where thousands of tourists go. That makes it a little better!
Right now, I am copying my medical records and lab reports. If I have time today, I will try to get my vaccinations and health certificate filled out. Of course, I have to come back anyway because I also need a TB test. So I can get most filled out today and then come back and finish it.
I was thinking about going right now, before the sun comes up, to the Tumbleweed tree in Chandler to take a picture. However, I think I will do that with TJ... and maybe Meux Meux tomorrow instead so I have a nice picture to take with me when I leave
Its been a tough day. All day Ive been worked up about all the money I am going to have to spend to get set up at AUC. I mean, I DID save enough for all this, but its very hard to part with my money. All I keep thinking about is how I am going to fail. Which makes no sense since I took anatomy and physiology before and all kinds of crazy classes and Ive always done well. I guess my main problem is that if I fail, it will be a very expensive mistake.
Today I ordered an old (2007) copy of the First Aid book. I was going to buy the 2011 version, but the 2012 one is coming out in January so I decided to get an old copy for fifty cents and start off with that one. If I like it and think it's useful, I can get the 2012 or 2013 one later. I going to order some other textbooks from Amazon before I leave, as soon as I get my wits about me. I didn't want to order anything yet because I am afraid that maybe I will change my mind and not do this med school thing after all. Could that be possible?
I am not sure if that is possible, but I must continue to think positive or else I will just give up. I have to think of all the adversity that I have had in my life prior to this moment and see that this is a better problem to have. I also can think of it this way: If I had applied to and was accepted to, say, AT Still in Missouri, I would putting down a large deposit and finding a place to live right now, just as I am doing for AUC. Right?
So tomorrow I hope to get back on track of finishing my application stuff. I have to go and get my HIV test and a "Letter of Good Standing" from the police station. I have a feeling I will have difficulty with that letter, but we will see. I think I may also get Meux Meux vaccinated for rabies so I can take her next semester. I also need to write to my coordinator about my plane ticket. I need to know how much baggage I can bring with me and if they are going to set it up or if they will reimburse me. I am still going to try and keep it to three duffle bags for checked luggage, but if they will pay for it, maybe I can bring one more bag. I was assuming I would be paying the bag fees anyway, so if they paid that would be awesome!
I am feeling a bit better now that I have all day to stew. I am HOPING that I can pull through! What am I going to do? Reapply? HA HA HA HA! Riiiight!
So I guess I am going to AUC. Not too surprised. I am slightly worried that I am jumping the gun given that "everyone" thinks its stupid to go to Caribbean school before all is said and done with US schools. I say "oh well!" If I wait until all is said and done, I will be going to AUC in September anyway. I really don't think I'm going to get in anywhere. I will be surprised if I get an interview invite somehwere once I start, but even if I went, I would assume that I would get rejected anyway.
I have put so much thought into this and I really think this is the right thing to do. I may even be able to secure an apartment instead of a dorm! I have to discuss it with TJ, but I think I will take the apartment. It will work out to cost less and they allow cats and they have internet included. I don't care for TV or air conditioning. I can handle it. It doesn't get as hot there as Arizona, so that will be okay. It will be like New York. I will have to see how to get my cat ready to go if I get this apartment though. Anyway, I think this is the right thing to do. I have the chance to FINISH EARLY. I can make up for a year I lost trying to figure out what to do. Of course I am scared and of course I think I can fail. But I would think that no matter what school I went to.
The other benefit to the Caribbean is that TJ can transfer much easier and we will have a place to stay (for almost nothing!) in NY. If I go to school in BFE, he may wind up never transferring to where I am anyway! That would suck.
I just keep saying to myself that if I study hard enough, I can pass just like anyone else. I am hoping all goes well!
Today I find out what the "decision on my file" is. I assume it's an acceptance, but I guess it can be anything. I am scared to find out. I am beginning to worry about all kinds of things: Will I pass? Will TJ and I be alright separated like this? Will he be able to transfer? Will I graduate early? Will I score well? Will I get a residency?
I kept telling TJ that this will be a $20,000 exploration. I don't know if I will pass the first semester and if I don't that is about how much I should be out. I guess its not too high of a price to pay to try graduate school.
I also received my MCB textbook and workbook. It seems really interesting. I want to begin reading it today. I skimmed over some of it already and it seems to be a mixtures of biology, chemistry, organic chemistry, and biochemistry. I'm also trying to decide which books to bring with me. I want to bring quite a few for reference. I wonder if it will make me go over the fifty pound limit for checked luggage. I don't want to pay extra fees for textbooks. I also could ship my books. We'll see.
I have so much to do in such little time! This week, I have to get all my immunizations and whatnot. I also have to prepare for Christmas. Ive been keeping a pretty good schedule so far. I pretty much bought everything that I need for school in the Caribbean. I just have to buy spices and I think that should cover everything. I am actually getting sick of shopping! I also have to make sure I have enough school supplies. I don't know if I will do that today. Today I have to ship off the presents, make a list of all the places I buy the groceries and stuff for TJ, and make instruction sheets for taking care of the plants and the birds. This week I have to start on my MCB book, test out my folding bike and see if it works, and see about painting the bathrooms. I had bought paint because I thought I would leave in April, but maybe not. So when I find out today when I start, I will have a better idea of what to do this week.
Oh my God... I just looked at the calendar and if I start in January, I only have a little over two weeks left here!! Come Christmas, I will be freaking out! Im sure everyone before me felt the same way, but this is new to me. Will I be able to do it? Who knows???
Btw, I hate this new blogger interface. IT SUCKS! Now they DEMAND that I use google chrome. They also keep ruining my HTML code when I want to check my speling. WHAT?
Okay now I wait for the call or call them. I will post the results!
But I didn't hear it! Damm! I called back but I must have missed him. Oh well. I guess he will call back Monday. I hope this means I am accepted! That would be awesome. If I am accepted, I will do everything I can to graduate early. Just imagine, this could be said and done in SIX years instead of SEVEN!
I am getting closer to this med school thing! Whoo Hoo!
So yesterday, TJ and I were busy wrapping most of the Christmas presents. We didn't even finish, but I don't have much left thankfully. I still have to ship them though. Fedex Ground, you know it!
Today I have a "well woman" appointment. I am hoping that my practitioner can write my prescription so I can get the whole year's worth, or at least six months of my prescription. That way I can just bring it with me to St. Maarten.
After my appointment, I am going to return an appliance I bought during the Black Friday madness because everyone has a gift already. Then I am going to buy some powdered milk and eggs and other things for my "trip." Yes, I assume I am going to AUC and nowhere else. I also have to start making lists and showing TJ how to use instant messenger, make bread, etc.
Tj seems to be taking it alright. Sometimes he seems happy and then other times he seems sad about the whole AUC thing. I guess I feel the same way too. I don't really want to be isolated for a year and a half, but what other options are there? Apply again and again? Take the MCAT again hoping to get a 40? No thanks. I'm getting too old to keep waiting for stuff to happen, I need to take action now. I think it will be over before I know it. I think it will be harder living in NY again than living alone in St. Maarten!
Well, I haven't heard back from AUC yet, so there is still a possibility of starting in May anyway. I don't think it will make the transition easier, but I guess it would give us more time to get used to this crazy idea.
Next week Im going to get all my blood tests and vaccinations done. I should hear from them by then I hope. I could also hear from another school. HA! Yeah well, I guess we'll see (not).
:: Jane Dee 5:43:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 12.01.2011 ::
Shocking News...
I got a call from AUC asking me if I wanted to squeeze into the January semester. At first, I thought no but after some thought...
First, I am not scheduled for any interviews as of now. I am on only one waitlist and it's for an HBC-type school that will only take me if they need a whitey in the class. If they do take me, I MAY get accepted in March or April, but most likely after May 15 when waitlists start moving. As of now, Im shooting for the May semester, which will mean I may miss some waitlist offers anyway.
Second, entering in January will give me the opportunity to apply for the previous year match. Im not saying this will happen, but I have a chance to if I do everything right and keep up with paperwork. It will mean that I probably cant do the observership at SHC, but it wouldn't exclude me from getting a residency.
Third, they offered to pay my plane ticket! Thats a savings of $800! because of that, I may just buy two or three large duffel bags and try to fit all my stuff as a checked luggage instead of shipping it Fedex. I do plan to buy a folding bike and shipping that unless there are no baggage restrictions on the plane.
So for a couple of days I have been contemplating whether or not I should scrap the US schools and just go ahead with AUC. And start in less than a month! What else is cool is that by the time I would start in the US, I would already be finished with two semester (1 year) of med school! That makes it more tempting.
Of course, the naysayers will say that its Caribbean school and that I should exhaust my US options first. I would but you know, Im 31 and I aint getting any younger! In med school years Im like 50 year old! If I actually have the chance to start now, AND finish early, exhausting all my options is less than ideal. More ideal for someone who is 23.
Of course, I would have an extremely busy month ahead of me if I choose to take the offer. Everyday would be something to do. To doctor visits, notarizing papers, packing figuring out the logistics, etc, this month will go by so fast. Before I know it, I will be at AUC. And let's not forget how much I'm going to hate being separated from TJ!!!
Right now, I am wondering if I should buy this folding bike to take with me to AUC. Of course, if I buy this bike, that means Im probably going in January. (unless I stick with May and are rejected from all US schools!)
I just ordered some old MCB books from Amazon! I hope that I will understand them... I am hoping to get aquainted with this subject before med school starts.
I haven't heard from AUC yet. They have alot more time to give me an answer. I hope I get a "yes, accepted." If Im not accepted, I will have to consider Ross and Saba. Probably Saba first.
No other news! have to make dinner soon...
:: Jane Dee 3:49:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.21.2011 ::
New Week!
Now that I have completed my shopping and have Thanksgiving dinner in order, I can FINALLY focus on that GMAT.
The first order of business is creating some kind of schedule. Perhaps I should study about five hours a day and take weekends off? I can get up have coffee, read the news, then get started at about 0600. Take a break with breakfast at 1000. Or maybe start at 0500 and end at 1000 with breakfast. Hm. Hmmm. I guess I can try the 0500 one first. I don't know if it will work because I don't like studying in the dark. Okay so that sounds like a good preliminary plan.
I guess during my five hours, I will just go through each topic on the GMAT syllabus. Kinda like the MCAT. Except this should be a little bit easier. I think. Anyway, there are about 41 subtopics covered on the GMAT within the four broad topics of arithmetic, algebra, geometry, and "word problems." ("Word problems" aren't math, but I guess they have a lot of wordy math problems) I had already started some review, so I guess I will pick up where I left off.
I also want to review my bchem stuff. I'm not sure how I will throw that in, but I would like to do that as well. Maybe I can do a couple of hours after breakfast? Maybe something like that. We'll see. Bchem isn't my top priority, but I want to try to get it in.
I also attended the Ross University seminar in Scottsdale this past Saturday. The snacks were WAY better since they were in a better hotel (last time they were in Phoenix). The main speaker was talking way too much about other things, that I had to cut it short because I had an eye exam. I did get to ask another speaker, who happens to do the interviews, about my 13 year old prerequisites. She said that it depends on the application. I couldn't get a straight answer about being MERPed or not, so I said I would email her. I don't supposed I will get a straight answer because I will have to pay for the application fee, so I am not sure I will email her. I will wait until AUC gets back to me. I wonder how much longer they will take? I think it may be almost two weeks now. Is this a bad sign? Who knows. The rep did say they would probably take a month. Oh well.
So I guess I am off to start my schedule? I also have to go to Walmart (groan) to check med prices. UGH! If there is one thing I hate, it's going to Walmart Pharmacy. Booo! Oh well. See ya.
:: Jane Dee 6:59:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 11.18.2011 ::
Workin' On It!
Well, I didn't have enough time to schedule my GMAT stuff. UGH! Everything is taking forever. Well, I DID finish ALL of the Christmas shopping (!!) and I bought everything I need to decorate this year. And I think I even have everything for Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner!! So at least that is all done.
The things I have left to do are wrapping the gifts and figuring out the dinners. I think for Thanksgiving we are going to have a Tofurky, fresh mashed potatoes, homemade gravy (vegan), pumpkin pie (made from scratch and vegan of course), rice (for me), bacon (for me), probably fresh apple and pear juice (I have a juicer), and maybe salsa (for me to eat with my rice and bacon, family tradition, ha!), but I'd have to buy some tomatoes.
Today is my next to last day at the hospital. I guess Im excited that this means Im close to getting into med school, but it also means that Im that much closer to going to the Caribbean. It also means I have a lot of studying to do for the GMAT. I should be able to put something together today for my gmat schedule. I don't have much left on my "To-Do" list. Im trying to buy everything I need for next month this month so that we can get the starter on the Acura fixed next month in case it costs a million dollars. Well, I think it's the starter.
So next week is all the Black Friday excitement, most of which I don't participate in because I don't want to get trampled to death for a $400 Emerson TV. Im only going to Michaels's so I can get some beads and stuff. Yeah I know I probably won't have time to do any beading once Im shipped off, but I can always keep the beads for later. Even if its much later.
Well, I guess I have to contemplate gifts later, time to go!
:: Jane Dee 6:05:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 11.17.2011 ::
Painfully Clean
Well yesterday I spent literally hours cleaning out this corner of the kitchen. It was covered in dust that smelled like crappy cat litter. Although Im glad that it's clean, my shoulders, arms and fingers hurt from all the scrubbing. And Im still not 100% finished with what I wanted to do! I had no idea it would take me over six hours. I even had TJ help me when he came home from work. Sigh. Well, at least I can use that corner again. This is step one crossed off my "Thing to do before I head to the Caribbean" list.
Next up is painting the bathrooms. I even bought a nice folding ladder yesterday from Ace Hardware. It was on sale too! I guess the bathrooms upstairs will be a beige-ish color and I will trim my bathroom in some kind of red color. I will pick a blueish color for TJ's bathroom later on. I think I will fix everything except the electric sockets upstairs first, then move to the downstairs. Then the outside.
I still have more spending to do this month (ARGH!). I forgot I needed coffee and such. Well, hopefully, it won't be as much as last month.
I want more coffee... I better order some before I drink it all!
:: Jane Dee 5:17:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 11.14.2011 ::
New Week, Yeah!
So this week I am going to start on my GMAT studies. I am also contemplating resigning from SHC. I already contacted the graduate medical education contact person and got only very little information about the residency program. I also learned that there is no more pre-match. Not likely that matters much, but it was a nice option. Anyway, I was thinking about leaving SHC so I can study hard for the GMAT and get some housework done before I am shipped off to the Caribbean (because that is my most likely ending).
I am going to take the GMAT in late March most likely, so that gives me about four months to study. That should be long enough. I also want to do things around the house, like paint the bathrooms, living room, and the outside of the house. I also want to install gutters and plant some oleanders in the front and install an irrigation system for them. I also want to plant oleanders in the back and lay down some rocks or mulch. I may also have to travel back to NY to clean out and fix the basement after my sister takes out her old stuff. If I go to the Caribbean, I will stay in the basement during the clinical part of the program. The basement needs insulation and I think I will install drywall instead of that old wood paneling, HA!
So you can see there is a lot to do. I am just not sure the $12 in fuel I spend driving there is worth it anymore. I will think about it some more before I make my final decision.
In any case, I am almost done with my Christmas shopping! Yippee! Today I am going out to see if I can get all but one gift done. If I get lucky, maybe I can get it all done. This year, I will actually have a tree to put up (remember I bought that huge tree at discount??) and I will have to put weights on the bottom so my cat doesnt knock it over when she climbs in it. I know she will.
Currently, I am staying positive about med school. I have no problems with Caribbean school and I think its a great way to get to your goal. I read that someone said that if they knew that their doctor was a Caribbean grad, they wouldn't see them anymore. Good! I wouldn't want to have them as a customer. I don't want to give discounts to an unappreciative person. If they want to pay $260 for a "physical," be my guest. In fact, because of what he said, I think that I will boldly display that "I am a Caribbean grad; take your business elsewhere if this bothers you." on my signage, webpage, door, whatever. I think that should get the message across.
Well, I should stop typing and order my moisturizers, then buy those gifts.
:: Jane Dee 7:18:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 11.09.2011 ::
Time To Move On!
Okay I think I'm ready to move on, or actually, back to what I was doing. It's been about a week since my "waitlist" status, and I think I am ready to move on and get back to focusing on AUC, GMAT, and my husband.
I have many chores to do around the house. I have to paint my bathroom, paint the garage door, and probably the house, I have to buy a shipping crate and figure out how I am going to ship my stuff, I have to get accepted to AUC too. I missed a phone call from my regional rep at AUC last night. Well, at least he didn't forget about me. I should be complete by now. I even called City College and KCC to see if they sent the transcripts. The only one I am unsure of is St. John's but they are always fast in sending the transcripts, so Im not too worried about them.
Ive also learned that there is no more "pre-match" for IMGs. Not that I was banking on pre-matching since most if not all of the programs I desired were through ERAS (?) only. I only wanted pre-match to save me lots of money, ha! Now I HAVE to pay to get matched. Well, there are, presumably, going to be a very select few not-so-great hospitals that will probably not participate in the match at all, but you can't look up who that is right now on FREIDA because this hasn't took effect yet. So sometime during my med school stint, I will look up who still pre-matches and keep them in mind. I just have to score as high as possible on all of my steps to get a good choice in residencies. I guess it helps I want to go into family medicine. It seems no one wants to be their own boss anymore...?
In any case, I am going to do some grocery shopping today, then try to clear my head and make some kind of study schedule for the GMAT. I don't have much time left for that. I still have to do well on that test so I can't let all this med school madness thwart my studying for that test!
:: Jane Dee 6:12:00 AM [+] ::
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Despite my recent bad news, I must remember that I must stay positive in order to get where I want to be. I do understand that it will be hard to move away, but if it benefits my family, I think its worth it.
Before this whole Meharry surprise, I was beginning to mentally adjust to the idea of Caribbean school. Now, it seems like I have to adjust all over again. Well, I don't have much choice, so I better start adjusting my attitude. I won't be able to do well if I mope around like a whiny crybaby.
Ross U is coming to my town in a couple of weeks, so I signed up for that. I want to ask them some questions, in case I don't get accepted to AUC. I am hoping I get into AUC, but you never know what will happen. I thought that if I didn't get into AUC, I would rather go to Saba than Ross, even if I have to take out private loans.
So here are some things Ive learned from this application process:
1)Applying early only helps if you are average or above. If one of your stats is below average, like I have, you will not be interviewed early if at all (I have yet to see if I get late interviews).
2)The military wants you to have at least a 28 MCAT. They will make you write a statement if you want to proceed with a lower score. They do not say this on their website.
3)The University of Arizona does not know what they are doing right now. If you are a resident and do not have at least a 29, you will not get the automatic invite anymore. You may not even interview. You may also be rejected right away. You are now useless to them since you only pay in-state tuition.
4)It hurts your application to be "old" (probably over 27)
5)It hurts your application to have community college credits.
6)It hurts your application to openly say you want to go into primary care.
That's all I got on that for now.
Today will be a new day for me. I hope to get my mind back on track. I thought I would be planning yesterday, but you know how that goes. So hopefully, I will do that today. I am also thinking about getting a part time job. Something to pass the time and help me save for Caribbean school. We'll see. Today Im going to buy a cheese grater. I was going to buy something at Coach Factory, but I just couldn't bring myself to go. Is there something really wrong with me? I mean I was waiting so long for that store to open, and now I don't even want to go. Oh well. Probably better if I save my money anyways.
Well, the sun is up. Maybe I should go and do something useful.
:: Jane Dee 5:36:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 11.02.2011 ::
Waitlisted!
Well, I got the dreaded "thank you, but you're waitlisted" email from Meharry. Sigh. That school was one of my best shots as well. Here is what it said:
Dear Interviewee
I congratulate you for completing the Interview Process for admissions to Meharry Medical College -- especially since we have so many applicants for the entering class. The Admissions Committee for the School of Medicine has recommended that your name be placed on our Wait List for this upcoming year. We are still in the process of reviewing other eligible applicants.
You should be notified on or before June 15th if you are selected for admission. If you are not officially notified that you have been offered a place in the 2012 entering class by this date, it will be necessary for you to reapply for admission in a future entering class.
In the meantime, I wish you every success in your quest for admission into the medical profession. Thank you for your continued interest in Meharry.
Sincerely, Allen D. Mosley, M.S. Director Admissions and Recruitment
So basically, I'm not accepted. I'm a "wait to be rejected" like everywhere else.
I guess I knew coming into this whole thing I had almost no chance of getting in anywhere. I didn't even want to go through with this AMCAS stuff; I just wanted to apply to Caribbean school. However, my husband really wanted me to "try." Well, here I am, trying to get a rejection in a timely manner.
Since Meharry was my next best shot, my only shot left is Kansas. And I really don't think I have a shot with them. They take an extremely limited number of out of state people and given my age and MCAT score, I'm not hot on anyone's list.
So on to Plan B. We all know what that is: AUC. Now don't get me wrong, I do not think I am golden for AUC. Given how competitive everything is getting, I fully assume the worst for AUC. I am holding off on applying to Ross only because I would rather go to AUC. In any case, I've already started my application at AUC and I emailed my coordinator earlier today to see what else needs to get sent in. I think he had said my transcripts weren't all in, but they should be by now! I will check to see if my checks have cleared when I ordered my transcripts.
Sometimes, I think "You're jumping the gun! If you get a late acceptance but start AUC in May, you're screwed!" Am I? I'm not sure. I mean, if I have no interviews by January, and my only waitlist is Meharry, I'd say I will have all the facts to start AUC in May. As of now, I am going to assume the only interview invite I may get is from Kansas. Remember, I applied June 1, 2011, right when it opened. I was verified the NEXT DAY. It is NOVEMBER and I only had ONE interview and no other invites. Every school I applied to has rolling admissions. If you think I am going to think for one second that I have some kind of shot as of now, you must think Im crazy! Furthermore, if I get an interview invite after January that is not Kansas, I would assume that I am interviewing for a waitlist spot, if that. Therefore, I am not so sure I would "jump" at a "chance" to interview at a school other than UA-PHX and KU because the rest are very far away and cost too much or are not seriously considering me anyway. Not that I think UA-PHX would be seriously considering me, but they are right here so I won't be spending too much anyway.
Then there is the letter of intent or the "please reconsider me" letter. At first, I thought it would be a good idea to send the "reconsider me dammit" letter to Tucson, but you know, it just doesn't seem worth it. What will they reconsider? I have nothing new to add. I've done all my pre-requisites. I've taken almost every math and science course possible, even electrical engineering! I don't have any research, I can't get any research, I don't even go to a university. And you can't say "well, take graduate courses!" because if I'm taking graduate courses, then I'm training for a job, not trying to get into yet another school. My only recourse is to send a letter of interest/intent to Meharry once it gets closer to them considering the waitlist people. Until then, there is nothing I can do except say Im studying for the GMAT. And since this is medical school, they dont care about that!
It is safe to say I am sad that I (most likley) will have to separate from my husband and live in a foreign country for a while. I'm also sad that I may have to live with my mother again if I do my rotations in NY! I know there will be a fight for me to get the basement apartment and a parking spot in the garage. I would love to live on my own, but it's so expensive there. And living with her is so convenient and could make up for having to spend so much on an apartment in St. Martin.
Of course, I could keep up false hope and "wait and see" if I get in somewhere in the US. The problem is that I am too old for playing games. I need to get this show on the road before I lose my drive. I wish it could have worked out for Tucson, but that is too bad.
I guess a bright side is that NOW I can focus on my GMAT studies and get that test over with in March or so. If that is a bright side. I am also considering getting started in bchem for real. I know most people will say don't pre-study but whatever. I need to be acquainted with bchem topics seeing that may be the hardest class. I did take an intro course this spring, but that was an intro course. It was basically the last few chapters of my ochem book. I have a bchem book that is used at Johns Hopkins, so that should suffice. Anyway, I will consider that once I discuss my options with the husband.
Of course, now I don't know what MBA program I'm going to go into either. I think I have the LORs I need for Quinnipiac. Should I just apply there? I can take one class and then not take one for four years or something. Or should I just wait? I have no idea. All I know is that I need to take the GMAT before it changes and get into a program from then until that GMAT expires.
So as of now, Im not in a good mood. Im hungry too. I guess I will use today to start planning my Caribbean future and my GMAT study schedule. Maybe I should get a part time job? Then I can save some money for the trip to St. Martin!
Ha ha. That was supposed to be funny...
:: Jane Dee 8:24:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 11.01.2011 ::
Waitin'
Well, it's been a little over a week and I haven't heard back yet from Meharry. Not that I am expecting to though. It would be nice if I did, but I am not expecting it.
So it's been hard to sit around and wait here. I should be studying for the GMAT, but I just can't! I was so excited to get an interview that I can't even focus. I haven't been to the hospital in two weeks either. I will go back this week, but I was just so exhausted/anxious that I wouldn't have been well going there.
I guess if I am rejected, I will go ahead and finish the application for Caribbean school. I put that on hold in case Meharry took me so I wouldn't have to spend $1600 on a deposit to nowhere. If I don't get into Meharry, we are back to square one and I will not anticipate an acceptance to a US school. That would be too bad because I would also have to wait to buy a new office chair.
I guess I would be pretty sad if I was rejected. I think I would have to plead my case to them. Well, here is hoping for the best.
As of now I am not working on the GMAT. I am just reading books. Like I said, it has been very hard to focus.
:: Jane Dee 5:46:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 10.20.2011 ::
Not Done But What Else?
Well I spent all day trying to figure out answers to questions. I think I have answers to all the complicated ones and Im pretty sure I can come up with answers to the easier ones. Im so nervous! Of course, TJ's brother and family has to be in town on this stressful day, but maybe its a good distracter.
Anyway, Im going to do laundry, then pack. At least I get to go to the Coach store tomorrow! And I have a coupon! I will make sure I take lots of pictures!
Now I know why everyone in Arizona wears sandals all year. Apparently, my three hours of sunning only helped a little bit. Its not as stark of a difference, as it did a little bit, but its still noticeable. I will try again today. I am just tired of sweating in the sun.
So yesterday I made rajmah beans and rice. Yum! I am always up for a new way to eat beans.
Today Im going to focus on crafting answers to difficult interview questions. I am also going to see if I have time to put together my interview packet.
I guess I better get started!!
:: Jane Dee 6:06:00 AM [+] ::
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Good book. I knew most of the tips already, but the phrasing of answers was very helpful. Get this book if you need to know how to phrase answers to certain interview questions or how to phrase your resume. This book gives some tips on etiquette, but it is not comprehensive.
But now it's too late for notes. I will do that tomorrow. I am not sure if I got tanned or burned either. I guess I will see tomorrow. If not, I will just buy the bronzer stick.
I am going to make dinner. Some kind of Indian rice and beans/lentils.
:: Jane Dee 5:38:00 PM [+] ::
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Need To Tan
So Ive finished figuring out my makeup and clothes. Now I need to tan out my feet. I went to Walgreens to see what kind of magic makeup can be used in case it doesn't work out today. They have some kind of bronzer stick available that I can buy before I leave.
Well, I checked my email and nothing new to report. So I guess it's time to eat and then tan. While I am tanning (or actually, I may have to burn my skin), I will be finishing up reading my MBA interview tactics. Then when I am done burning myself I can work on that.
I was successful in securing a burgundy/crimson shirt that would go with my suit. In fact, I found two of them. One is a traditional button down and the other is more of a tank top. I bought the tank in case it is too hot to wear the long sleeved shirt. I actually found it at Dress Barn and Van Heusen (?). I've never shopped at these stores in my life, but I was desperate. The "real" stores didn't have anything! I got the button down for $20 and the tank for $10. Not bad.
Ive been trying to even out my farmer tan on my feet, but it doesn't seem like Im gaining ground. I'm going to keep trying, but it seems like I have to stay out longer. I don't want to do that because its still hot outside! I guess I will have to. I guess I can make my interview notes while I'm roasting, but if I stay out longer than 20 minutes, I will have to put sunblock on. If I do that, then I will have to be outside for an hour maybe. Maybe I should just burn the skin a bit like I used to do to start my tan. It will turn brown the next day. Hm. The problem is that if it doesn't, then my feet will hurt. BUT I have until Monday to heal. Hmm. I think I will have to try to do that then. This is taking too long and my legs are so much darker than my feet! If not then I have to wear makeup on my feet. Or buy opaque stockings?
Ive also been wearing my heels. Ive figured out how to get them to stop hurting with cotton balls. Im still deciding if I should wear them to the store today. I will have to wear pants so I don't look really stupid.
I also have to begin figuring out my makeup! I don't know how Im going to look yet. I guess I will have to do that when I come back from the store. Then I have to wash my new shirts, iron them, iron my suit, pot my oleanders, work on my interview answers, and pick my makeup and hair. Too much to do! IEE!
Okay it's store time!
:: Jane Dee 6:28:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 10.17.2011 ::
Need An Interview Shirt
Today I am heading for Anthem to find a burgundy shirt to match my suit for the interview. I am very nervous and excited about this! I keep saying "I'm so close!" I really hope this interview works out for me.
I was going over MBA-style interview tactics for my interview. I hope that I will sound polished and coherent. When I come back, I'm going to continue crafting well-versed answers to common difficult interview questions. From what I've read, Meharry asks you things from your personal statement and activities and so on. So, I assume it will be best to "study" my answers and know my application inside and out. I want to have this completed, and possibly recorded before I go so I can listen to it in the car as I drive.
Other than that, there is no new news. No one else has called me for an interview (big surprise). I don't expect to hear anything for a while. Unless it's a rejection. I have a feeling UA-PHX will reject me as well. Im just not sure if it will be before or after the interview.
My application is still pending at AUC. I haven't sent in my background check form yet. I will wait until I hear back from Meharry before I send that in. If they accept me, then I won't have to pay the seat fee for nothing. That would cost $1600.
Well, I pray hard everyday!
:: Jane Dee 5:53:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 10.13.2011 ::
Rejected!
From Tucson! What assholes. I knew they were going to reject me. With their new bullshit out of state policy, I was bound for the round filing cabinet. Here is what they said:
Dear Applicant:
Thank you for your interest in The University of Arizona College of Medicine Tucson Campus.
We have been fortunate to attract a large number of highly qualified candidates for our limited number of seats this year. The number of such candidates precludes the ability to invite all applicants to interview. After a complete review of your 2012 AMCAS application, we sincerely regret to inform you that we are unable to consider you further.
We hope that by notifying you of our decision at this time, you will be able to direct your efforts toward those schools where your opportunities are more favorable. We wish you the best of luck with your educational career.
Sincerely, University of Arizona College of Medicine Admissions Office Tucson Campus
Here is what I have to say: F**k you, Tucson! Even if I have to go to Caribbean school, I will make it, and I will smite you. And you know what else? I just may move out of Arizona! Apparently, I'm not needed around here. Well, then I guess some other state will like my tax dollars!
What is most annoying is that only a few years ago, they were taking people with 4 as a subscore on their MCAT. I clearly am much higher than their phony "cutoffs" and only one point lower than their phony "auto-invite." From what I saw on the message boards, people with high MCATs and GPAs were NOT OFFERED interviews. So what is this fake "auto-invite" bullshit? Please Tucson, you can't fool me. You are in so much financial trouble that you will screw over med school hopefuls, your state, your city, and on and on, just so you can keep the lights on. I will gladly graduate from Caribbean school over your school. Too much hypocrisy and bullshit. At least Caribbean schools SAY they are FOR PROFIT!
Now that I am done with my rant, I am back to making cheese.
:: Jane Dee 11:45:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 10.12.2011 ::
Cars Cost Too Much
Sheesh! I thought this month would go easier on my wallet! I was excited that I finished paying up for everything I needed. So I thought it would be a good time to get that hub seal on the Jeep fixed finally. Well, I guess it needs more than a new seal! It needs a new seal, new bearings (and that means it needs to be "machined") and new brake shoes (cuz they are low and have all this axle grease all over them), and more seals (cuz its leaking all over the brakes), and the oil change. It's supposedly going to cost almost $700! Good grief...
So I ain't going to buy anything else this month, except the shirt for my interview, if I find one, and a small camera case at the new Coach store. There is plenty of food in the house, so we will have to make due with whatever we have left. This is because I need the $350 to drive to Nashville and back! At least I can put this charge on my spiffy hotel card and get points for hotel rooms. This card allowed me to get three free nights in Nashville! Neat huh? I'd put it on my Amex, but I may need the rooms soon.
Well, I did buy the Jeep knowing that I was going to keep it and repair it as it got old. So far, I've only had to replace the fuel injector and that was because of the crappy Canadian fuel. Other than that, it's been good!
Today I am going over information about Meharry and coming up with questions to ask. Then I will go over some questions they may ask me. Hopefully, TJ will come home early so he can drive me to get the jeep. I guess his bumper will have to wait, heh heh, whoops! I still feel bad I scratched it, but its nothing serious. It just looks stupid. I'll fix it later! I only allow one big expense a month. My Indian cookbooks will have to wait too, sigh.
I'm sooooo excited about my interview! I really hope I get accepted! This would be most awesome!
:: Jane Dee 9:16:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 10.10.2011 ::
Excited!
I had a great weekend knowing that I actually have an interview! I am flabbergasted, to say the least. I stayed up at night thinking about why they called me for an interview, what does it mean, are they for real, are they just pulling my leg (like Fedex) and aren't really considering me, and do they already want me?
Of course, I also stayed up thinking about how awesome it will be to go to Nashville! I ran out and took the MSAR out of the library (I don't think I can wait until Friday to see the newest one so Im going to drive to the library again today) to try and "decipher" the stats behind my interview. Apparently, Meharry interviews only about 20% of all applicants, and accepts about 23% of interviewees. Those are pretty good statistics! Of course, these facts are from the 2008 - 2009 MSAR. Im going to the library later to look at a newer book.
I will be so excited if they accept me! I will send my deposit back the same day I get the letter. I will consider Fedex Priority Overnight. I will also withdraw from four schools if I am accepted. I won't say which, yet.
Although I have already started my application at AUC, I will wait a bit to send the rest of the information they need (background check, letters, etc.) That way, I can see if Meharry accepts me first. If they do, I will not finish my application at AUC. If they don't, I will continue my application.
So today I have been collecting some common questions at interviews and going over them verbally. I'm going to read up on some med stuff and see how I can apply that to my goals. Then later this week I guess I have to organize my resources and write out my goals, purposes, etc. Then I have to prepare my interview packets. This will have all the info I need to back up my interview stuffs. Yeah!
I've already booked my room in Nashville for three days. I will be there at least the day before so I can practice and get my clothes and hair ready. Then I can relax during my interview. After the interview, I can drive around town and see how much I like it, where I can live etc. Then I will leave the next day.
I really hope I get accepted there! I will faint. Or crap my pants.
Right now I have to buy some food and then go to the library. Then pay some bills? THEN start on my interview stuff. I hope?
THANK YOU LORD!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
:: Jane Dee 6:32:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 9.29.2011 ::
More Waitin'
With each passing day, I get more annoyed that I wasted all this money on stupid med school applications that I knew were useless. I may have to hang this over TJ's head for a while. Usually he has good ideas, but this time, he missed the mark. I know it's still September, but interview slots are filled at some schools into January already.
So all I think about is getting into AUC. I hope my math prof sent out the letter. I know that my manager sent it. And my ochem prof will send it tomorrow or something. My bchem will be sent today.
I applied for the May 2012 semester at AUC, and I know that is going to come FAST. I'm actually starting to get nervous. Firstly because I don't know if they will take me and secondly because Im going to be alone. It's kind of scary to think about!
Ugh! Anyway, I havent studied for the GMAT since. I wonder if Im going to restart that soon or wait until I hear back from AUC. Hmm.
Well, here is to another day!
:: Jane Dee 5:40:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 9.27.2011 ::
More Waiting
So here I am at SCC waiting for my ochem prof... I think she forgot about me. She does tend to be late for every meeting I have with her. Well, I hope she comes soon because she only has an hour of office time today.
Well, I finished my application for AUC. I just have to mail it out. Ive already sent a letter to my math prof and my ochem prof. I should meet with her tomorrow. Ive emailed my manager and my bchem prof. Ive already sent transcript requests for all of my schools as well. So I am hoping for the best with AUC since Tucson is just not going to work out.
Well, there is a small chance but who is going to count on that?
Ive applied for the MAY 2012 semester. It will be here before you know it so I am kind of starting to prepare now. If I get accepted, I have so many things to do! Find a shipping crate (plastic preferred), clean out the basement and garage of my mother's house (so I can live and park there when I do my rotations in NY), visit the island to see how to navigate and where to get an apartment, etc. It will be a busy few months. I'm not holding out for UA, so going to AUC is like going to any other out of state school. I also have to talk to the program director at SHC about their residency program. I want to see how she reacts to Caribbean school.
Ive been kind of sad that the reality is Caribbean school. Im really going to miss TJ! We haven't been separated for more than five days since we've met and that was only once! Im really going to have to find the strength to get it together. However, when Im depressed, I study better. So if Im depressed because Im so far away, I should do better in school! Odd, but true.
Well, the plan is to apply to AUC and get accepted. I will put in my deposit and see if I get ANYTHING by that "deadline" in March. Supposedly, if you are not accepted or on a waiting list by some date in March, you are going to be rejected. Many months later, but rejected. So I will know where I stand before I start class at AUC anyway. If by some miracle, I get in here, I will only lose my deposit. But since it's so risky to not apply now, I will lose $1600 for security. And if I don't get in anywhere in the U.S., then I'm already accepted to a med school and I can feel better.
So here's to the future!
:: Jane Dee 7:21:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 9.22.2011 ::
Half Rejected?
Well, Tucson finally decided to tell me:
Dear Applicant,
Thank you for your continued interest in the University of Arizona College of Medicine Tucson. We are unable to extend an interview invitation to you at this time. Your application is still under consideration and you may be invited for an interview at a later date.
We will notify you with any updates throughout the season.
Sincerely, Admissions Office University of Arizona College of Medicine
Riiiiight. And I crap out flowers every morning. What annoys me the most is that if I would have applied a couple of years earlier, I would have gotten in. Why? Because they only used to take Arizona residents. Now they allow up to 50% of the incoming class to be out of state. You know, it's so they can make money. Do they really believe that allowing out of state students is going to benefit Arizona? They aren't increasing the number of residency slots so everyone is going to go somewhere else.
Well, I have to remain positive. There are still other schools that haven't rejected me. I guess technically, Tucson hasn't rejected me, but what they are saying is that if after they interview everyone and a bunch of those accepted realize they don't want to spend four years in Arizona, then they will consider me. So, I have to remain positive and hope that my AUC application works out.
The other thing is that since I feel slighted by Arizona, do I want to practice here? We'd have to sell the house though. I also don't want to punish my community just because of some stupid school. I would like to pre-match somewhere, but I had thought about applying to a residency in Alaska. I'd have to apply somewhere TJ can transfer to. Maybe I will stay in NY? Not too sure now, but this definitely changes things.
Right now I am going over my AUC application. I am now thinking about starting in May like I originally wanted to. Since I'm practically out of the running at Tucson, what is the point of waiting if I'd have to go out of state anyway? I think TJ will be disappointed if I start in May, but the earlier I start, the faster I come back to the US!
Well, Im going to hope and pray for AUC to come through!
:: Jane Dee 11:56:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 9.21.2011 ::
AUC Essay
I just completed my first draft of my AUC essay. I am going to let TJ read it and see what he says. I am going to schedule an appointment with my ochem prof this Tuesday. Tomorrow I will send my math prof the stuff he needs to send the LOR. I already ordered a copy of all my transcripts to AUC. I also need to get the LORs from the bchem prof and my manager.
I hope this will be my last application. If AUC rejects me, I don't know what then. DO school? I would have to shadow a DO. Well, I guess we will see. The good thing about AUC is that they will let you know if you are accepted/rejected within a month. Now that's turnaround! I was hoping to have heard back from US schools by November, but what it looks like is if I hear back, it's probably for a rejection. I guess that is okay, but I would have wanted to be rejected earlier.
I still haven't heard from Tucson. At least I don't have to go crazy about the GMAT right now. Im aiming for March or April. I need to take it at the last minute to maximize the shelf life of the test. Then I can apply for a program during my fourth year or so. Then start during residency maybe.
Speaking of residency, I need to speak with the representative at SHC about their residency program soon. I want to ask if they pre-match. If they do, I will definitely sign up. Well, not now obviously, but when the time is right. Otherwise I will probably have to do my residency in New York. It's not my first choice but I guess I will have to do it.
Other than that, things are okay. A Coach store is opening up in Arizona finally in October and I am going to be there!! I can't wait. I ordered the new Cascada CD. And I'm making more Indian food since I need to vary dinner from all the soy we eat.
So that's stuff for now. Now I make dinner.
:: Jane Dee 4:31:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 9.19.2011 ::
Nausea And Not Much Else
Well, another day goes by and still no word from any schools. Tucson just started sending out interview invitations yesterday or so. I'm sure if I get one, it will be a long time from now. I really don't think I have a chance with any of these schools.
So today I started on my AUC application. Ive finished making the first draft of the list of work and school. Now I have to fit it on one page somehow. Im also going to order all of my transcripts (again) and have that done by tomorrow. I am also going to meet with my ochem professor about the LOR and giver her the gift Ive been holding for a while now. I think I will meet her either Thursday or next Tuesday. I will also send my math prof a heads up about this LOR and give him the address where to send it. I still have a couple of more LORs, but those are easier to send out.
Ive been nauseous again. Probably because I know Im going to go to the Caribbean (well, Im hoping they take me!) and that means I will be apart from my husband for quite a while! Two years? Four years, if he doesn't transfer! I am not sure Im ready for this, so Im going to apply to the September 2012 semester. That way, we can have plenty of time to adjust. What's funny is that the only school that is close by is Phoenix and I don't really want to go there! Id rather go to Tucson.
Sometimes, I wonder why TJ even bothered to push me into this. I know he claims its because Im always complaining that I have no career and that all my peers are better off, etc., but is there another reason? I wonder sometimes. Not that I think he is trying to get rid of me or anything, but hm.
As of now, I am looking at this whole application process as a very expensive trip to Las Vegas. I will just pretend that I went to Las Vegas and gambled away almost $2000 and won nothing. Although I probably would have had more fun in Vegas than filling out these applications, I have to think of this loss as something remotely useful.
Of course, if I won the lottery or hit it big in Vegas, I wouldn't be talking about med school. Id be talking about my next trip or cruise.
So here's wishing myself luck on my AUC application!
:: Jane Dee 4:08:00 PM [+] ::
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Thanks watered-down Italian fashion available at Target! Of course at the very same time I need to shop online at Target, Missoni has to be launching their "affordable" clothing and accessories line at Target literally crashing the website. I was FINALLY able to get on this morning! I'm not trying to buy Missoni, Im trying to buy SNAPWARE plastic storage crap. I am expecting my makeup to be delivered today and I need another storage bin. According to CBS news (at least in NYC), people were lined up outside Target for hours to get these products. Great. Right when I need storage bins, there will be a mob of people. Well, since almost all of the goods have sold out in one day, there may not be many people there after all.
Today was a day of polar opposites. It started okay: got up with TJ, make his breakfast, lunch, coffee, etc. Went online for a bit before my stint at SHC. Drive to the hospital back in to a spot and BAM! I backed into the concrete pillar! Oh Lord! I was so mad! I dented the bumper! And no it wasn't the Jeep (the pillar would have been the one dented) it was the ACURA! WAAAAAAHHH!!!!!!
Of course, or maybe luckily, it was super busy at the hospital. It kind of kept me distracted from the terrible thing I had done. I also had a scheduled lunch with a co-volunteer after the shift. I was hoping I wouldn't be too upset when that came around.
As a side note, we ate at Applebees and had this all you can eat soup and salad lunch special. I ordered the French onion soup and some shrimp salad combo and it was good! I was shocked!
Anyway, I felt better by the time I got there and I felt much better by the time I finished my lunch. I guess wounds are less intense after the fifth look. So, I go home and plan my weekend: do I study for the GMAT? Do I finish my application to AUC?
When I got home, I decontaminated myself and played with my makeup a bit to feel better. Then I noticed my phone had a message on it. It was Tucson calling me back about the dual degree! Well I called back and played phone tag once again. Eventually she called me back and told me that I DONT HAVE TO TAKE THE GMAT AT THIS POINT. You know what I said (inside)? WHOO-F#$%ING-HOO!!
And now I await TJ to come home and decide my verdict....
:: Jane Dee 2:56:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 9.08.2011 ::
I Can't Focus
Well today is a waste. I can't stop thinking about the aforementioned problems. I can't study today when I can't stop thinking about my application. I knew I shouldn't have applied to US schools. What a waste of money. TJ told me to! I should have just applied to AUC and been done with it. I guess there is a chance they wouldn't accept me either...
I am also annoyed about this MBA thing. I hate rushing my studies just to take it in October. For what? I wanted to take it in February or something. That's because the scores are only good for five years. And they are changing the test. So, if I take the test as late as possible, I can still use my study books and have five years to apply to b-school. I don't know why I am bothering with trying to take the test in October, just to apply to UA. They didn't even get back to me yet. And as I read, you can apply during your first or second year. I am not sure why they told me to apply now. So confusing. Maybe I should call them? Well, I just left a message. It seems if you call after they are open, no one answers.
Well, Im going to go and be confused now.
:: Jane Dee 3:08:00 PM [+] ::
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Plans and Bleach
Yesterday I was certainly fed up with all the Kaplan study aids. Today I am going to start on the Official Guides. I think I will start with the quantitative book because that is what I think I need to focus on.
Now the real questions are starting to percolate and I need some answers! The first one is "Why is everyone taking so long to get back to me?" I mean, I thought I would have been rejected by all but Tucson and I thought that I would have had an interview by now. But no. Therefore, I am not sure how useful applying early really is. Phoenix has not extended anything to me yet. Tucson hasn't gotten back to anyone yet so who knows. All of the other schools besides Morehouse have started interviews already, but I have not heard a thing. Yes, I am annoyed and worried. I am both annoyed and worried because I now have to reconsider my plans.
The first thing I have to consider is Caribbean school. I am going to apply soon and now I have to wonder if I should apply for May and risk a last minute acceptance at an American school or do I apply for September and graduate a little later and have a bigger class? I can only pick one semester because it costs $500 to move your accepted semester. I would rather start in May, but starting in September gives me more time to find an apartment and get settled in. If I start in May, I can't bring my cat either, ha!
The second thing to consider is what to do about the MBA. Do I just take the test in October as planned and apply to UA and Quinnipiac? The problem is that I haven't got an interview invite yet and I don't foresee one coming by the first round deadline at UA November 15. I don't want to spend another $100 applying to a school Im not going to go to if Im not accepted by the med portion. If I still take the test (and risk getting a mediocre grade because of the time constraints), should I apply to only Quinnipiac and start on the MBA while Im waiting for med schools to get back to me? The program at Quinnipiac has three starts a year, like AUC. I can start in January, May, and September. If I took the test in October, should I apply to UA and Quinnipiac and just start in May if I don't hear back from UA? Because unless I get accepted to UA, Im 99% going to go to Quinnipiac.
But, and this is a big but, if I start the QU MBA, I would only have a few months to get started on the MBA program and who knows when I would be able to complete the next classes. The reason I do like QU is that as of now, they do not have a time limit. That means I CAN start a class or two, then hold off until later, then finish it. Here is the problem: If Im just going to finish it much, much later, why not just apply much, much later? The dilemma with QU is that they may get rid of the no time limit thing. If I apply to a better school, I would have to go full-time or part-time, no online class. I can't and won't leave a medical job to do an MBA, and I don't know if I could do a part-time class.
I guess I will have to talk to the recruiter again about the time limits and such. I think it would be more advantageous to start the QU MBA in January, but Im not sure that is a good idea. However, if I start in May, I will definitely know if I was accepted to the UA MBA, and most likely the medical school.
Everything is so confusing! I wish I knew what was going on with the medical applications!
Now that I have wasted enough time lamenting all my woes, I need to study!
:: Jane Dee 8:53:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 9.06.2011 ::
Going Up?
So according to Kaplan, Im awesome at the GMAT. I just took their diagnostic quiz, and scored about a 640. HAHAHA! Yeah, Im sure it's over estimating my score. When I took the Kaplan MCAT, I got a 28, but wound up with a 26. So I will say that I will probably get a 600. That isn't bad, I'll take it!
So my worst two topics are data sufficiency and critical reasoning. I get max 2 wrong in the other sections. That is funny because my worst section in verbal originally was sentence correction! Whatever, who knows. All I know is that my verbal section is awesome and I have been getting very few wrong overall. I want to make my math section like that too! Phooey! Well, it seems almost all of my errors are in data sufficiency. My Princeton book offers extra work on that section so I hope it helps.
This diagnostic didn't have essays, but I think I am okay with essays. I will do the essays when I do the full length tests and essay practice separately. Im sure I will do well in that area.
Now that my ass hurts from sitting all day, I shall stand. What I really want to do is play with my makeup. But now I am tired. I actually should get dinner started. It's pretty late. Okay, 'till next time.
:: Jane Dee 5:30:00 PM [+] ::
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Not Quite
Well here I am getting all crazy about "studying now dammit!" and yet I realize today that given the lazy weekend, I forgot to make bread and buy some things for TJs lunch etc. Now I have chores to do while Im trying to study. Sigh. In any case, I am hoping that I get everything I need (I usually forget something) so I won't be interrupted this week.
I also have to write to my math prof to ask him to get ready to send the LOR to AUC. I am not applying yet, but I will let him know to have it ready. I think I will apply by the end of the month. I am also going to meet with my other professors to have them send a letter as well.
So today is the first day of interviews for Downstate and USU (I think). I haven't heard back from anyone yet. I wonder why they take their sweet ass time rejecting people.
I am also still thinking about my plans to go to a Caribbean school and a non-ranked b-school. I guess it wouldn't make much sense to go to a non-ranked (but accredited) b-school if that was your only school. I think that having the MD in conjunction with a non-ranked MBA is more useful than just a non-ranked MBA. But what the hell do I know? I am only drawing my conclusions because the MD definitely gives you a job. The MBA (especially non-ranked ones) won't. If I am to get the MD, the MBA will only help.
But you know, sometimes I wonder about the whole idea. Im sure most people will say its stupid etc etc. But why? If in the end, you can get to the same place, why not? Well, I am going to do it anyway. No one is going to convince me otherwise.
And now it's back to work. Even if I have to go to an unranked b-school, I want to do well on this GMAT!
:: Jane Dee 5:21:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 9.05.2011 ::
Wasted Weekend
That's it! after today, I have to focus on GMAT! I wasted two days waiting around for TJ's friends to come and go, all to do nothing. Boring! Not to mention a waste of time. Perhaps I am just anti-social, but I don't have much for conversation with anyone. It reminds me of when I would be dragged to my mother's friend's house and had to stay there for hours while I just stared at everyone and the fish tank. UGH!
Its annoying when people think that studying doesn't count for anything.
Anyway, I have improved my GMAT score about 40 points. Is that good? Who knows? Some days I feel that my future at a Caribbean school and an unranked b-school is not as cool, but whats the next option? To try for another three useless years applying to med school here? I don't think I'd get in anyway.
Well, enough complaining. I will play computer games or something.
:: Jane Dee 4:46:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 9.01.2011 ::
Canadians!
They are always searching for that essay prompt "successful politicians are motivated by...." Why is that one popular with them? Who knows.
What I DO know is that I am SUCKING at this Kaplan practice crap. I am scoring between 60% and 80% on the quantitative practice tests. WHAT?! Ugh!!!!!!
There aren't enough "exclamation points" to describe my frustration.
Im not sure about what to do about it. I guess I shouldn't flip out until I take a real GMAT practice test. THEN I will know how crappy Im scoring.
Ugh! Studying all day! Well, I think Im ready to take another practice test! Not that I want to, but I think I went over enough math to improve that section. Or maybe I should just do the quizzes on Kaplan first. Yes maybe that is better.
In other news, I am very excited because I get to buy new makeup! My eyeshadow is so freakin old that it doesn't apply correctly anymore. However, I only use creme eyeshadow, and Revlon doesn't make the huge palettes anymore. So Maybelline has a new line of creme eyeshadow and its very nice! Im going to use my Target gift certificate to buy almost all of the colors before they stop making them. I definitely need new eyeshadow!
Well, still no news from med schools! Boo! Oh well. I guess its Caribbean time!
:: Jane Dee 4:37:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 8.29.2011 ::
Focus On The GMAT
Today I finished going over the math knowledge for the GMAT in my Kaplan book. It seems I have the most work to do in probability, moving faster with fractions, rates and percents, memorizing geometric formulas, and to stop screwing up the numbers by reading too fast. I guess when I finish this entry, I can make some flash cards or scan my math books for the topics I need to work on and find examples.
When I finish going over the math, I will take another practice test. I have plenty online and on my Kaplan CD. Then I guess start working on the "real GMAT questions" in my official GMAT book.
I have no idea if I am going to be ready for October testing but Im keeping my fingers crossed!
I still haven't heard back from ANYONE (except Tulane), but Im most annoyed about UA not getting back to me yet. HUMPH! Well, I guess I have nothing to do buy wait!
I guess I better get a snack and get back to work!
:: Jane Dee 3:52:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 8.25.2011 ::
No News, Just Nausea
Everyday this week Ive had nausea. At first, I thought I had contracted that brain eating amoeba since I was near all kinds of warm bodies of water. Although I do not like to swim in lakes and rivers, I was near them. I did put my hand in the Niagara River, but I didn't pick my nose afterwards. Well, either I am going to die tomorrow or I didn't get the amoeba... or I did get it and my body destroyed it. In any case, I was nauseous again this morning and I think that this past month-long road trip has screwed up my sleep schedule so bad that I am nauseous when I wake up. No, I am not pregnant. I could also be nauseous from my monthly visitor, who is making quite a visit. Stupid beeyotch. So as uncomfortable as I am, I have to go to the hospital tomorrow (for volunteering, not death!) even though I probably won't feel that good.
I am also considering compiling my essays as a link on the sidebar. It seems most people come to this page looking for hints on those MCAT essay prompts. I guess I can make the search easier since I have an old Blogger format that makes searches screw up. Expect that link soon.
So other than heartburn, nausea, pain, fatigue, "burning veins", and headache, Im doing great! No interview invites yet.
Today I am going to work on GMAT some more. Then I will look at the application for Eller. I think I have to download a form to give to my recommenders.
:: Jane Dee 7:00:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 8.24.2011 ::
Secondaries Are Complete
No, I am not applying to Harvard. I know that would have been a funny joke but I finished emailing my questions to the Admissions Office. I asked:
"The first is the probability of receiving a secondary. If I applied through AMCAS, do I automatically get a secondary or is there a screening process? Yes
The second question is once I get a secondary and apply for the fee waiver, would I have to pay first, then get a refund or do I apply and then seek approval? You request the fee wavier during the submission of the application."
Well, okay. I guess my first question wasn't specific enough. After searching the "internet," I found that they give everyone a secondary. Do they screen them? Yes apparently they do, but afterwards. But that wasn't the question I was asking. I wanted to know if applicants were screened in order to get one. I guess I really am too stupid for HMS! Don't speak no English!
And the reply about the request fee waiver during submission is a bit fishy. I think it's my original theory: pay first, then they see if they will give you one. Of course I won't get one and then they will reject me anyway. So no thanks! I don't spend money on vagueness!
Other than that, I have no invitations yet. As with HMS, I am also too stupid for an interview. Sigh. Well, I hope AUC takes me! I will get started on that application soon.
Also, Ive been working on the GMAT. Ive also been falling asleep during my studies. I guess I need more coffee. Ugh!
Im beginning to think that I bought all those new clothes for naught...
:: Jane Dee 3:30:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 8.22.2011 ::
Crickets Chirping...
So no word yet from UA-PHX or UA-TUC! I'm beginning to become worried. Well, it is still quite early on. I did get an email from Meharry that I am squared away and I am now being forwarded for review. Well, I hope so!
Yesterday I spent most of the day feeling ill for some reason, but I woke up feeling better today. Yesterday I figured out most of my plans for GMAT studies and the rest of my plan for medical school. So it works like this:
GMAT STUFF:
-Aim to take the GMAT at the end of October for first round consideration (UA due November 15)
-Review math mostly, then essays, then verbal
-Take next GMAT practice test
-Review the test. If the scores are bad, review more.
-If scores are good or finished reviewing, take the GMAT Test #1
-Review as needed
-Alternate test and review as needed until week before test
-Take GMAT #2 the week before the test
-Review as needed until test day
So this will hopefully be accomplished by the end of October. Then, I have to worry about medical school stuff. These things include:
-Apply to AUC in September for May 2012 entry
-Write/Visit my professors to forward LORs to AUC
-Apply to Eller in September, but only if I get an interview from UA-TUC or UA-PHX
-If I don't get an interview from UA, I won't apply to Eller obviously
-I will apply to Quinnipiac after I get accepted to AUC. This will be plan C
-Plan B is get into a different med school/b-school combo
-If I am attending AUC, but I get off a waiting list in the US, I will transfer
Today, I will start on my math studies after I go food shopping. I hope this test goes better for me than the MCAT!
:: Jane Dee 4:06:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 8.21.2011 ::
Enjoy The Silence
Or not. I still haven't heard back from Phoenix! Wow! And here I thought that if you apply early, they interview you early. WRONG! Apply early and they will interview you whenever they want to.
In any case, it is getting close to the time to apply to Caribbean school! I guess I have to write to my teachers to tell them to send off those next set of letters. I'm not sure when I want to start. I was thinking in September or whatnot, but I don't want to be too far behind you know? But if I apply for May, then I may not have all the answers from the schools yet. Hmm. What to do.
Tomorrow I will get back to studying for the GMAT. Ive been putting that off because I was on a month long trip. I will post pictures soon!
So I guess it's back to sulking.
:: Jane Dee 8:01:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 8.18.2011 ::
No Luvin'
Nothing from UA-PHX yet? Bah humbug! Well, I will just keep on waitin'... and waitin'...
I also got an email from USU. Somehow, my application is complete now, even though I had sent that application on JUNE 20, 2011. Huh? I'm so annoyed.
So I guess the new game plan is to stick to the original plan! I will apply to AUC in a few weeks and see how that goes. I can't wait around forever!
:: Jane Dee 6:11:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 8.17.2011 ::
Waitin'
According to MDApplicants.com, UA-PHX has started sending out interview invites! I haven't gotten one yet! I hope it comes soon! I will be mad if I don't get one.
Today I am working on my final secondary, Meharry. I don't think Im actually going to apply to Harvard sooo, I think Im almost done with all my secondaries.
I'm still behind on my GMAT studies. Oh well.
Back to Meharry!
:: Jane Dee 12:39:00 PM [+] ::
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