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So I guess it is official, I am now a CNA. Again. Like before, I probably will not ever BE a CNA. At this point, I am using it to give me some advantage at school, whatever that may be. I already paid for the classes I am going to take in the summer, so I hope that goes well.
Today is day 2 of orientation. Yesterday was okay. Nothing exciting, just the usual orientation stuff.
Wow! yesterday I did a complete run through of all the skills and then some! I was working for over seven hours. I was tired! I think I still am. Today I am just going to mentally go over some stuff, do practice exams, go over technical stuff, write down questions to ask, and prepare my stuff for tomorrow.
I forgot to pay the school bill yesterday so I hope to remember later today because that system doesn't open until 6am. I am kind of scared to pay because I am scared to take so many credits in the summer. I just hope that I am not screwing myself! I need to get As across the board.
Then all next week I have to get some stuff done that I was putting off like getting oil changes and tires. The tires for my Jeep aren't cheap AND I have to special order them. Oh well. I want to try to stick to Falken brand. If not, that's okay. I will just have ugly mismatched tires, ha ha.
I was thinking that I should save money to purchase a diesel car. I would rather have a diesel jeep, but we shall see. For now, I am looking a Volkswagon diesel cars. The cars would get better miles per gallon anyways.
Well, I am going to get started on my stuff. I am definitely going to take it easy today!
Yesterday's practice went well. I am not sure if I want to go again today, but I will if I can go much earlier. I think if I go today and we can do all the skills, or most of them, I can come home and do a few more with TJ. Then tomorrow I will only read the book and notes and go over some technical stuff. I have to get my stuff ready too, so I don't want to waste too much time doing skills. I think I am going to do well, so there is no need to go crazy.
Later today I am going to pay for the classes. I am kind of nervous taking a year of chem in one summer! Well I hope it goes well. It is all online, even the labs. This will be very strange for me. However, I want to have the best grades I can for that program. I thought about retaking the chem for med school, but they don't allow online classes. I'd have to suffer a whole year of chem for an actual year. Ochem was enough torture. I think my nutrition class will be interesting. I hope it's not going to be be too hard. I don't want to refuse work, but I will see how it goes.
Yesterday I also got my TB read. No TB, of course! I don't have anything else to do with prep this week. Next week is my orientation. Once I get settled into that, I will look at jobs for CNA. I am thinking about working through an agency and just do on call type stuff. I was wondering if I could work at SHC as a CNA while being a dishwasher? I don't know. Maybe. I will see how many hours I get at this job first. If I actually do only get part time hours, even though the manager said I could get full time hours, then I will inquire about CNA at the hospital. If I get lots of hours, I will just go through an agency.
I read on the UA website that they are changing the admissions deadline for this program to October after the next one. That is good! That means I get two shots at applying in one year, next year. I think it would clash with any chance of me going to do that LPN program, and probably any RN program at some school. I feel so weird for writing these words, but I guess I am out of guesses, whatever that means.
This is and has already been a busy week. First, I had my physical yesterday, or should I say "pee test." I hope I passed! Ha ha! Anyway, I also had ANOTHER TB test. I go back to get that read tomorrow, so I think I may meet up with a classmate to practice skills at the school. Then maybe do some more when I get home with TJ. Today I was just going to pay some bills and wait for my vacuum to be delivered. I ordered a new one from amazon so I hope it doesn't come broken. I really need to vacuum this place up!
I also got back my tax return! I was pleasantly surprised that I got back so much because I went to AUC. I had to mail my taxes in because the form the school gives you does not have a tax ID for them. But if you mail it in, it works! Now I can use that money to pay for my chem classes and get some tires for the Jeep. I think I need new brake shoes too. It feels crunchy when I brake. I will have to check that out.
Other than that, I have been hangin' in there. Some days I feel crappy and some days I have some energy. I wish I had the energy like I used to, but those days are in the past. Nowadays I am just a general pessimist-slash-realist. Maybe I will come around someday.
I got the job! HA HA! Just after I was all mad about not getting it! I got the call yesterday. I start on the 22nd. How wonderful! I hope there are a lot of hours. I will work as much as I can.
I also scheduled my CNA exam. I go next Saturday. I practiced all day today with TJ on my skills. He played a resident well. I am going to do four skills in 30 minutes (or is it 35 minutes?) tomorrow. I will do that until I get through them all. Then the rest of the week I will do four skills a day when TJ comes home. I hope he is up for the challenge!
Well, I called HR at SHC and left a message. Of course no one got back to me. I will just forget it. They seem to have reposted the job anyway. Okay great! I guess nobody is good enough to be a dishwasher!
So as the days roll on without work, I sit here and wonder if TJ is taking offense to my perceived laziness. He said he is fine with me not working. He says I don't have to work if I don't want to. HA HA HA! Well, that may be okay with him, but it sure ain't okay with me! I feel like such a bum!
Today I am going to schedule my CNA exam. I think I am going to go to Thatcher, Arizona. That is the closest date they have. Some people in my class are going to wait until the end of May to take the exam at the school, but I mean really now, does it make a difference? Everything will be the same. You should be able to perform these tasks anywhere anyways. Well, I don't want to wait. I want to get this over with as fast as possible so I can work sooner. Of course, if I fail, that will make that process go faster as well.
I have been giving some thought as to what I am going to do. Some days I waffle between just doing the LPN and saving money or going for that masters. I would really like to have a master degree. I also like that the masters degree will open doors to PhD. Not that I am saying I am going to get one, but I like to at least have that door open. I think it would be awesome. That would be my life dream. I always wanted one of those. Maybe I can still get one? I guess we shall see, huh? My main goal is to try to find someplace that I like. I know it sucks that the masters is offered at UA, but I guess I will have to suck it up.
I am registered for the chem classes but I have not paid yet. I can do that in a couple of weeks. I am kind of nervous about taking so many credits in a semester but I think I can do it. It could mean that I get into the masters program!
Today I am taking the kitten to the vet to FINALLY get her spayed. She is one crazy kitty! In fact, I have to get ready to leave in a few mins. I will update later!
I have finished with the CNA class and the externship. What is weird about here in Arizona is that the test is so far off from the last day of class. In NY, I was able to take the test not more than two weeks after everything was said and done, and I was able to take it at my school. The earliest I can take the test at my school is at the end of May. I will just have to take it somewhere else. I am not going to wait that long for nothing. There are some appointments coming up next week, but one is way out by Safford. Well, if that is what is available, I will take it so I can get it over with.
I also fixed my blog. The columns were looking funny and I finally figured out how to fix it. It seems I had to add a column width to the command. What is weird is that it never needed it before? Maybe some Russian hacked into my blog trying to make it ugly? Probably not, but I fixed it.
I also went last week for an interview at Scottsdale Healthcare for a dishwasher. I was supposed to have a phone interview and then go and do a face-to-face interview. They forgot! I called and said they had better call me because I have to leave. Well, I got a call right as I was leaving. The HR Person said they had a calendar malfunction. Yeah right. She also said she would send me something to fill out about my references. Haven't got that yet. I drove all the way to the interview and then that manager said she would let me know by next Friday. That was this past Friday. I didn't hear anything. I'm not banking on it either. I was kind of suspicious because the manager kept asking "why I wanted to be a dishwasher" when I have a bachelor degree. Obviously it's an entry level position. What other reason do I need? I thought I wanted to work at SHC, but maybe I don't anymore. I mean what kind of crap is this? I answer everything awesome, and I still get the shaft. I'm either too inexperienced or "overqualified." I am too old or too young. I'm not a man. I'm not local. I'm not what anyone is ever looking for. Here in Arizona, no one really goes to college so they think a bachelor means you are a freakin' doctor. It's just a degree, it doesn't qualify me for anything. It's irrelevant. Not everyone goes to school to work in that field. Some people just go because they want to, such as myself. I am getting sick of this.
But I don't want to start on that shit now. What I want to do is finish that CNA certificate and get going on summer classes. I KNOW I said I wasn't going to take anymore undergrad classes, but I am just taking one class that is required for that master program and I am retaking the whole year of chemistry. In one summer. YUP. I got permission. I want to have all A's. If I retake chem, I can have a perfect average for this master program and that should help me get in. If I don't get in, I am not sure what I am going to do next. That is still up in the air. If I don't get a job soon, I can prob count out business school!
But for me, everything has been crappy. This year has not been the best for sure. Last year sucked balls too! I have no idea why my life just can't settle down already but I guess that is just how it is. Well, all I can do is keep pressing on and trying to make something happen.
Here is a song I keep singing so I can manage my days.
