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:: 3.24.2007 ::

Put Back The Archives

Ever since Blogger "upgraded" I lost my archive links. Well, Im not going to upgrade my blog "just because" so I had to do quite a bit of searching to get the archives back up. I think compact style is better than that long list, eh? Well, I think Im going to bed.

Or am I going to play tetris???? ;P

:: Jane Dee 11:43:00 PM [+] ::
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Still In Class Somehow

Okay so Im still in class... but I am not sure what that means. Im pretty sure I passed my backing final. I did hit two cones on my parallel park.. I didnt hit any when I was doing the jackknife parallel park and that was the first day I attempted it. I am assuming I passed... why would I still be in here if I didnt? Well, whatever it means, it's over and I was finally able to relax.

The next morning (after the final) I was so exhausted from the day before that I either had no salt or sugar left in my blood because I was dizzy as hell, could barely stand, could barely talk and was extremely nauseous. So after almost and hour of feeling woosy, I made myself throw up, and it worked. I felt better enough to drive to work and just kept eating once the coffee relaxed my stomach. I brough a big bag of pretzels with me then, because we were on our city/rural drive, we stopped at a QT and I bought and ate a banana, donut, and twix bar in about 56 seconds. My instructor was looking at me with a weird face. Oh well. Then later I ate at burger king, then when I got home. Besides my yucky beginning, I did well on the city driving and my shifting ability made me feel better about my driving.

Yesterday was our overnight drive. We started our day at 1am and I was so happy because I knew that I wouldnt be tired for once! We drove towards Tucson and when we came back, we stopped at a Love's for breakfast. I had the buffet (cant pass up all you can eat eggs and bacon) and it was pretty good. Then as we were driving back, I fell asleep a bit, and my instructor was staring at me and when I woke up he said "You were caught!" so I said "SO! Everyone else was snoozin when I was drivin!"

So Im not sure where we're going next week, but I have to study for my pre-trip, post-trip, brake test, couple/uncouple final. I need to make sure I get a good score.

I guess that is all for now. Its good now that I feel better and my stomach isnt in knots.

The other instructor for this class has been taking pictures of us and he said he'd email them to me. hehehe, I have to see these pics!

:: Jane Dee 8:36:00 PM [+] ::
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The Worst Class A Driver Ever

Its already been a week of training and tomorrow is the backing final and I am scared out of my mind that I will fail because I havent been able to do the serpentine all that great and I screwed up on the parallel park today. I dont want to fail because I dont want to have come all this way just to downgrade to a courier and I don't want to look stupid because I have a Class A already. Naturally, everyone will assume I should ace it. Well, driving a truck is hard. Let me tell you, school was easier. Maybe not differential equations or the theory of calculus but the rest of it was easier. Maybe you dont quite understand what this all means to me?

This shit means everything! For once in my life I found something I want to do and here I am screwing it up. I just hope that if I fail, I can get a road test in a straight truck and still keep my route. I don't know if that is the case though but we'll see.

To explain how anxious and scared I was today about tomorrow (and after learning we had to start coupling/uncoupling tomorrow and thenafter (is that a word?), my heart was beating so fast and I started to have to control my breathing.. no, not an asthma attack, but pure anxiety. All day I was so nervous and scared that when I saw my instructor's cigarettes, I kept saying I was going to take one... and then he gave me one and a light too... I was in heaven. SO now you know... I was so anxious and out of control that I NEEDED a cigarette. Boy was it good for a Marlboro. And I hate Marlboros. But it was divine. I was finally able to digest my lunch. I relaxed. I was actually okay for the rest of the day.

Pathetic huh?

Well, not if you were in my shoes. I mean, the pressure is really on me... Im sure a lot is expected of me because of my fancy license and all those damn endorsements. (yeah I have all the truck ones, hazmat, tanker, doubles/triples, passenger) So naturally everyone is going to think I can drive! This sucks. I dont want anyone to laugh at me. Im doing the absolute best I can, honest.

Well, since Ive never done one here is Lou's meme thingy

1. Can you cook?
yes
2. What was your dream growing up?
to be a figure skater.. then a baker... then everything got screwed up.
3. What talent do you wish you had?
mathematical ability.... or good vision and a few more inches so I could have been a pilot.
4. Favorite place?
probably the Grand Canyon, but Montauk/Long Island is pretty much tied... then there is Maine.
5. Favorite vegetable?
cabbagge of course.
6. What was the last book you read?
Does my Tractor-Trailor training manual count?
7. What zodiac sign are you?
sagittarius
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
yes
9. Worst Habit?
trichotillomania is not a habit, but close enough
10. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal?
DEWEY? yes
11. What is your favorite sport?
bike ridin'... but if driving counts as a sport then drivin'
12. Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
what a stu- I mean, great question!
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
say 'ok, hoist me up'
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
ive blocked it out of my conscious memory
15. Tell me one weird fact about you.
uhhhhhhh..... i cant do artithmetic with more than two numbers in my head
16. Do you have any pets?
well, now I only have a cat and dried prehistoric shrimp eggs, but I had a bunch of birds
17. Do you know how to do the Macarena?
hell no
18. What time is it where you are now?
8:10pm (MST but without daylight savings time)
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
i never understood the purpose of clowns
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
my eyes would be green or blue... anything but brown!
21. Would you be my partner in crime or my conscience?
huhhh??
22. What color eyes do you have?
see Q.20
23. Ever been arrested?
no
24. Bottle or Draft?
beer sucks... generally speaking
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
pfft! that's it? Dang that wouldnt even payoff a year of grad school! But i suppose id put it in a CD and think about it.
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
i fancy chewing gum
27. What's your favorite bar to hang at?
i dont go to bars
28. Do you believe in ghosts?
i think they do exist, but I dont think they appear as much as people claim
29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
See Q.11, but since gas is expensive and i left my bike in Brooklyn, right now my favorite thing to do is daydream whilst listening to muzak
30. Do you swear a lot?
ive cut down significantly
31. Biggest pet peeve?
i was never clear on what a pet peeve really is, so i dunno
32. Biggest success?
graduating from hell
33. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
fluid
34. In one word, how would you describe me?
undulate

well, I guess its time to practice my truck maneuvers (sp?)

Wish me luck....

:: Jane Dee 7:19:00 PM [+] ::
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The Eve Of Boredom

Im so bored.

Its the weekend and I am very bored. I absolutely hate having to resort to watching TV. I walked over to the mall nearby and it was soooooo lame. I sorely miss the malls on Long Island. At least everyone dressed up.

UGHHHH!!!!

:: Jane Dee 7:58:00 PM [+] ::
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Oh Looky, I Updated Something

I updated my facepaint. Hurrah!!

:: Jane Dee 10:23:00 PM [+] ::
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Not The Same Without Oil

There is definately a difference in making those hashy things when fried in oil or "fried" in a non-stick. I did both to see if they looked or tasted and different and oil is the differentiating factor. The oil makes them take on an undulate shape so as to separate them from pancakes. The oil also gives them a "snack" flavor, not something to be devoured with syrup. The oil also doesnt make the sides perfectly brown like a pancake. It gives them a rugged, multicolored face, with peaks and valleys colored black, brown, gold, and yellow. The oil makes a much more attractive hashy.

Id upload a picture, but Im too lazy right now. Maybe in a bit when I feel like updating my "facepaint" after a year.

:: Jane Dee 5:31:00 PM [+] ::
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I Know What I Can Do

I can use up all my milk before it expires by making little fried thingies my mother used to make called "hash." Its basically the same recipie as a pancake except no soda and a lil more salt.

cool.

:: Jane Dee 4:36:00 PM [+] ::
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Waiting For The Dryer

I just had breakfast/lunch and I am soooo sleepy now... I am doing laundry and I am up to drying them. Not sure how much time I have left... I will go down in a few minutes I guess.

So as I was saying yesterday, I have had this blog for a while. I was reading some of my old posts and all I can say is that I really had problems. I mean seriously, who goes to school as a distraction? Well, all the amount of cramming I did when I went back for nursing seems like a big waste of time. Let me just say this: what was I thinking?? I mean, I guess I couldnt assume that I would come out to Arizona to drive trucks, but why the hell did I do nursing? My best excuse was that I wanted to get a job asap after finishing so I could finally move away bu come on! Well, I guess I will never understand a lot of things I have done in my life.

BRB, laundry time.

Still not ready. hm. Anyway, today is pretty boring again. I woke up and washed my car at a wash place in Glendale. It was a lot better than the one I used the first time in Phoenix on Camelback. This place actually sprayed out soapy water. The asshole downstairs has been quiet all day. I wonder why. hm. I bought some plant food... yeah its boring here. Its a nice day though. I wish I could go drive or something but Im not sure how great that would be. There is this amusement park down the road from me. And a Sears... I don't like Sears though.

Well, better check on that laundry again...

wowwee, it was done... now I have to fold everything... wow, that was fun.

I guess I will stare out the window for a bit.

:: Jane Dee 2:40:00 PM [+] ::
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ITS MY 556th POST!

I just realized that Ive had this Blog for four years now (February 2003). Thats pretty amazing. I also realized that my webpage is now almost FIVE years old (April 2002). But I dont see the archives... where did they go? Well, I guess no one would want to read them but me anyway. And after reading some of my oldest blogs I also realized that my Tylenol pill holder is also four years old! My how time flies.

It all seems so far away because Im in a better situation in life now than I was in 2002/2003/2004. Those may in fact be the worse years of my life. So hurray Fedex for making it all better!! Therefore I fiercly defend my company. Look at me now! No more miserable, disoriented student! Im now a Ramp Transport Driver! I work with big planes! Yay!

Now I have to figure out what to do with school...
Will I get into business school or will I have to get a regular masters in some psychology crap? I guess I can think about it more when I settle in my job. Right now Im still in training. I start my truck training next week, so its more 0500 wake-ups for me. Yuck.

I think I already said that this "city" is boring. A lot of people here are ugly. No style either. I see a lot of mustangs but no cute guys drivin'. The best looking guy Ive seen is this giraffe at Fry's supermarket. He talks like he's from "the slope" though. He could be gay for all I know, but he's the best looking so far, and he aint even all that. If I had a picture of him, I'd show you so you can see what goes for "good-looking" around here and youd can see that this city is way below average in the looks department. They have way too many cracked-out looking 40 year old women wearing midriffs in broad daylight. Ew, come on! I dont need to see that. And everyone is so wrinkly because no one wears sunblock even though they live in a DESERT. Hellooooo! I bought cotton gloves to drive in so I dont get wrinkly from driving too much in the sun. But that is just me and I must look crazy for doing so.

Tomorrow I have to do laundry. The thing about laundry here is that they use DRYERS in the desert. LOL! What is wrong with everyone? How do you use a dryer when you get sunshine all day?? Oh lord. I bought a drying rack and strung up a line on my balcony. I cant put ALL my clothes in the dryer. I just dry the underwear and stuff. I hate the way clothes feel coming out of a dryer and they are so wrinkled! Eh. I guess im not cool, huh! LOL!

As you can see, not much going on. I dont want to drive anywhere because I need to save my gas for work.

Anything else??? Maybe I can work on my webpage? I dont know... my new "desk" is pretty uncomfortable.. we'll see.

Ok Im bored again. I think I will go to sleep.

:: Jane Dee 12:20:00 AM [+] ::
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Outta My Mind!

I am bored...

This retard that lives directly below me blasts his stupid death metal music and I squealed on him cuz it was shaking my floors and my dishes. So today when I come home, I hear his dumb shit again so instead of going ape shit on him, I just vent by wiping my car down a bit. He comes to his car a bit later (which is parked next to mine) and asks me "are you the one who told the building on me?" so I said "Who are you?" and it goes on from there. Apparently, he says hes sorry but then says he'll fight me and says that the Mexicans that lived here before me didnt mind. Uh huhhh whatever asshole! Just shut the hell up. So in any case, I was thinking that since he told me he works nights, I should give him a piece of my mind when I have to wake up at 5am again to do truck training. Like run back and forth and do jumping jacks. Eh. He probably wouldn't hear me cuz Im sure he's deaf at this point.

Anyway, Phoenix is pretty boring. Not that Brooklyn was so exciting, but I liked living in a house. With all my cats (even Diablo). I also miss the soft and tasty water. I have to buy bottled water now because the brita filter cant get that nasty taste out. Bleeeechhhh. I also dont have my bike, any instruments, and no crafts. When I come back I have to take some more stuff back here cuz I am BORED!!!

ARGGHH!!!! THIS PLACE IS BORING!!!

:: Jane Dee 10:26:00 PM [+] ::
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