:: The Headache Diaries (Retired) ::

:: The Headache Diaries (Retired) ::

:: 10.19.2006 ::

God Wants Me to Finish the CDL

Unfortunately, I did not get that coveted instructor position. It was given to some dude who has an employee number 300,000 people before me. That roughly translates to about 8 - 10 years with the company. Not only that, he worked at an airport already, most likely working the GSE equiptment. Sigh. I didnt have a chance.

So lets see. Ive been trying to use this bachelors degree to no avail. Ive had better luck with the Associates. Ugh!

Sometimes, I wish I'd had finished the math degree, but then, where would that take me anyway.

So now that there won't be any more instructor positions (around here anyway) in the next year or so, what the hell do I do? Do I get a CDL position and get a job on the side or so I try for an HR position and get a CDL job on the side? Should I inquire about the fellowship? Do I get training for something or go back to school?

I suppose I wont be doing much thinking on this topic this weekend since I will supposedly be having fun. I guess I can call my rejecting manager on Monday to find out what I can do to strengthen my application. Im sure he will say "well, working in the field sure helps." UGH!

Somedays are just no fun.

:: Jane Dee 1:16:00 PM [+] ::
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Still Waiting

So no word back yet on about the job. This is utter torture. I had a dream this morning that I was accepted for the position, but I think that is wishful thinking. The more time passes, the less I think I got the job. All I can think of is that someone else opened up their offer letter and is now sending it back, making the rest of us losers wait for our rejection letters. Sigh.

In other news, my computer is still broken because I have not sent it away yet. I am awaiting the answer first so I can better evaluate my monetary reserves. Getting accepted for this job will make fixing the computer a top priority, but being rejected will make it secondary to getting my CDL. I definatly need to move on and I need to do it soon. I just fear that I will have to get acrappier job in the meantime. We'll see, I guess.

Nothing else is new except that I am going to Niagara Falls this weekend with Lou. The forcast doesnt seem to look good for meteor viewing but it looks okay for the foliage. I have to take a different route to catch some better foliage. So I think what I will do is take a different route so we can see the foliage on the way there. Then that night, if the clouds disperse, we can see the meteor shower because the peak isnt too late at about 1 - 2am. Then we can wake up the next day and go sightseeing at the Falls and if that doesnt take all day then we can go to the outlet malls (lol) and other places of tourism. The next day we can do the same.

Hopefully, if I am to be rejected the letter comes on Friday when Im not there :)

:: Jane Dee 2:32:00 PM [+] ::
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Coo-Coo Cha-Cha

So now that my interview is over, I await the decision. I AM SO NERVOUS! No matter what people keep telling me about how they will pick me, I just feel like they won't. I don't think I did bad, I just think someone did better than me.

What makes me think this way? Well, when I walked in, the hiring manager asked me if I needed anything like powerpoint setup. All I could think was "SHIT! I KNEW I SHOULD HAVE DONE POWERPOINT!!!!!!!" BUt I just prepared packets for everyone that included my resume and a printout of my presentation. I hope that didnt turn them off too much. I am also worried that someone will be picked because they have more years in the company. He said that more senior people may apply but they may still not be the best fit. UGHHH!!!!

This is like waiting for a death sentence.

So now I am already planning for the worst and figuring out what to do when (NOT IF!!!) I am rejected. I am not sure. I am definately going to get the CDL-A but I am not sure if I would apply for a driving position or try to get the fellowship from the Board of Education. I am not particulary fond of working in South Shore high school, but I need to get the wheels turning here. I feel so useless at this point.

Well, I guess there is nothing I can do now but wait...

Im going to drink coffee.

:: Jane Dee 2:25:00 PM [+] ::
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Holy Fizz

Can you believe that I actually got an interview for a real job on Wednesday? I can't! Im so excited! I have an interview for a travelling instructor position! How cool is that? Looks like my stint with teaching paid off somehow! For this interview, I have to go to Newark and give a five minute presentation in front of some managers. I have to call an HR rep tomorrow to get some tips, but that is basically it. They will then ask me questions and then I will have a writing assignment, probably to see if I am literate in English. So I decided that my presentation will be on my job and what you need to have to do the job and what is required on the job. Blah blah you know?

Im sure if I dont get it I will be very bummed. A job like this will not rollaround again for maybe a couple years. I just hope that I get it.

I even went out and bought a new crisp white shirt from Bannana Republic (is it just me or is that store name totally dumb?). I have everything set... I had recently bought a new suit (yeah one that fits finally... hard to believe Im a size 6) and shoes (naturalizers of course) so Im all good in that department. I have a nice lightweight wool 3/4 length coat I wore to my visit to Yale (lol) and I have plenty of new make-up to wear in case dark circles appear under my eyes from all the non-sleeping mayhem.

WOOOOOO!

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day. I have to get to work early to sort out my presentation. I am currently using a loaner laptop which didn't come with MS Word so I installed one of my old copies and it will only work 50 more times until I have to register it. Yeah well, Im sure I'll be done by then.

Some bad news: I apparently threw out my old iPhoto Plus 1.2 program! Dang! That was the best photo editor Ive ever encountered. So now, when my HD is erased, I can't use iPhoto Plus anymore, I'll have to use Photo Explosion or whatever silly name they give to it now. I installed it on the loaner and it works allright but I can't stand the "easy to use visual interface" because everything has a damn picture. Some companies expect their customers to be very stupid indeed. My old program was great. They didn't waste space with stupid pictures... how much more straightfoward can you be with "Rotate left, Rotate right, and 90, 180 degrees???? SHHEEEEEESH

Well, I guess thats all for now. I just figured I'd recap my life before I dissappear for another week or so. Hopefully, my interview will go well and I can give you some good news about it later on.

Now, Im going to sleep. Gotta buy folders and stuff tomorrow!

:: Jane Dee 12:24:00 AM [+] ::
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Too Lazy to Fiz Anything

No people, I have not fixed the VAIO yet. I don't know when I will, but I assume by next week. I hope they can fix it without charging me too much. Maybe I should have traded it in when I thought... nah, I like my computer too much.

Anyway, tomorrow I have to call up a manager that Ive been in contact with about a position Ive applied for. It was crazy these past couple of days because I got rejected from one in Memphis because I hadn't included the ENTIRE "performance review" so since I didn't care much for that job, I took that opportubity to call up the ither bid I put in and explain how my package may not be complete... well, several phone calls later, I was qualified, disqualified, then qualified again... IF he gets the rest of the review which I had sent to him overnight. He said that if he got that, I would be able to come for an interview and that he would email me... today. Well, today has come and gone and Ive no email. I guess the only thing I have left to do is call him tomorrow and ask if he got the review. Then maybe he can throw in whether or not Im still qualified or now disqualified and if I am qualified, when to come in for that interview. If I get an interview, I would have to pay a visit to some woman who works in HR on Long Island to sorta prep me for the interview. I have no clue as to what goes on and my doubt grows everyday that I am even qualified at all. I just hope this guy is in tomorrow and I hope he got my package and I hope he gives me an appointment.

AARRRGGHH!!!!

This has been a stressful week. Among other things.

Right now I am very tired. I was up early today to go "on the road" so I can have SOME idea as to what goes on in Courier world. It certainly helped me become more doubtful as to how well I can score this job or even do it. Maybe I am too ambitious. I mean, should I wait to have more experience in the company? I mean, whats the diff anyway? Staying longer certainly won't help make me any more knowledgable especially if I have no choice but to stay in my present job. Eh. We'll see. It cant hurt at this point.

Im going to bed. My eyes are so tired. I hope he picks up tomorrow. Im dying to know what the verdict is. :S

:: Jane Dee 11:00:00 PM [+] ::
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