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:: 11.13.2009 ::

Getting Tired of My Job

I better not say that too loud because someone may try to take it from me!

So Ive been working at Fedex for five years already. How crazy is that? I would have never have thought that I would have a job that long nor did I think that I would be working at Fedex this long. The problem is that combined with the slumpin market and managers not "seeing" me (that means they think I dont look the part) as manager or trainer material, and my nagging customers, Im definately ready to make a change. Unfortunately, I am not going to be able to persue my piloting apsirations, at least commercially anyways. I would still like to get an MBA, but with the prices some schools want to charge, Im not sure its worth it. I was thinking about other plans and careers.

I guess its inevitable that I will leave Fedex. Ive pretty much moved up as far as I could. I don't see myself landing a manager job anytime soon and I know there will not be anymore trainer positions. Sometimes, I wish I worked one day a week so I can focus on other things.

Well, till next time.

:: Jane Dee 12:43:00 PM [+] ::
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Bad Dreams, Sad Realities

This past month has been good and bad. The good part was that I went on my first cruise and it was wonderful! I was surprised at how awesome my cruise was. I wont post pictures here because I try to post them on my webpage. However I will say that I gained 10 pounds in one week and about a month later it finally came off. I will definately go on more cruises. Its a lot more enjoyable than flying.

The bad news is that I had found a small lump on my cat and I was nervous about it because it was in the dager zone of being a mammary tumor which from what I read is very aggressive and deaadly in cats. So I brought her in to see the vet and the vet wasnt too concerned because it didnt seem like a mammary tumor. The vet explained what the surgery would entail and I was upset because they would have to cut out so much tissue and she is an older cat. I was worried about the surgery but also about the tumor being the bad type. After much deliberation, I took her back a week later and went ahead with the surgery. She recovered well and I will have to get her stiches out finally in a couple of days. The extra bad part is that the biopsy showed that the tumor WAS the malignant mammary kind and the vet commended me on finding it so early. This was the smallest mammry tumor she had ever removed from a cat. Well, either way, there is still a chance that it metastasized but statistically, her life span should be about 21 MONTHS. I was pretty upset by this because although Ive read that if you remove these tumors early you get and average of three YEARS, the vet said this is the newest statistic.

Obviously Ive been upset about my kitty and I had a horrible dream that she died in my arms. I woke up panting and crying. That had never happenedd to me in all my life. I don't expect this to be my only dream like this . I feel as though Meux Meux has an hourglass attached to her and from here on its only a matter of time. Even though she is going to be 10 in March and she may have had only three years left, I don't want an otherwise healthy kitty to be taken away from me just from some dumb tumor.

Hopefully, her stitches will come out with ease and she can get back to being herself again. Right now she is wearing a baby shirt and she isnt fond of it.

:: Jane Dee 12:41:00 PM [+] ::
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