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Yeah so Im still here doing these cards for the MCAT. Im washing clothes in the meantime and charging all these batteries. I think some of them are no good anymore. They just charged so fast that Im not sure... It says they are full... hm. Well whatever. I wonder when this mp3 player is going to break. Ive had it for over five years now. Its a Sony, so that must be why. I have a dream machine alarm clock made by sony that is 18 years old. It has no signs of death.
So on page 14 of the MCAT review, they want you to know about 1)extraction 2)distillation 3)three types of chromatography 4)recrystallization. So Im wondering what they want to know. Like, how to do them or what the point is or both? I guess both because that is the worst option. Im usually right when it comes to stuff like this.
I think the clothes are done. I also have to feed the snail...
Okay I guess its back to ochem, pfft.
:: Jane Dee 4:37:00 PM [+] ::
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Page 13 DONE!
Chugging along on this MCAT review syllabus! I just finished page 13 and have 4 pages of MCAT review left! THATS IT!
Of course, I have to take another semester of ochem first. But as it stands, I have about 80% of page 14, 25% od page 15, 10% od page 16, and 0% of page 17. Thats pretty good for just one semester!
I rule! Happy New Year!
:: Jane Dee 12:48:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 12.28.2010 ::
Just In Time For New Year's!
I hope everyone had a very merry Christmas! I know I did! Mostly.
This year, TJ and I went up to visit his parents and brother in Snowflake, AZ. It wasn't very cold and the sky was nice. Not as nice as I heard as it was in NY! My mother said they had a blizzard and I figured she was exaggerating. Nope! Looks like they got about 18 inches of snow or more. Well, I never thought there would be a white Christmas in NY, but ho ho ho, close enough!
The problem is that I am going to be heading over there soon! Hopefully, the streets will be clear in a week. If not, well, then I will be driving in low 4 wheel drive in New York, ha ha!
Anyway, I got my Chritmas wishes! I got my tow hitch for my Jeep, the cargo basket for the Jeep, and a new Christmas tree! I bought it half off at Walmart today. I was tempted to put it up, but I guess I will wait until next year. I was going to bring back the tree from my mother's house, but we will see. I still may. She said she doesn't use it anymore, so I guess I can use it. I also got my Belgium Biscuits at half off! Those Belgiques make the BEST chocolate biscuit thingies. I tried the Cadbury biscuits, but they were a waste of calories. I knew I should have bought the Belgium biscuits and I couldn't stop eating them when I came home.
So tomorrow, I buy the locks for the hitch and it should be good to go. Then I get started organizing my studies for the MCAT. Then I just wait for the spring semester to begin and hopefully it will go well. I can just see two more A's coming my way!!
:: Jane Dee 12:09:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 12.22.2010 ::
The New Nucoa Is Gross
The new Nucoa sucks! I am outraged. It tastes like rubber and looks like alien turds. And from what everyone says, it makes your recipies suck. I bought the new Nucoa and one taste was all I needed to throw it in the trash. Luckily I had bought shortening because of all the horrible rumors I heard, but they are true!! It doesn't melt and it tastes yucky. I was able to eat the real Nucoa this long because I had stockpiled the margarine a while back because I don't like having to go to one store just for a couple of things. Well, I guess I will never taste margarine again. No one makes it anymore. Sigh.
These past few days I have been beading like crazy. I made a couple of more things today. I must say that I like lobsters (as pets only! I don't like the way they taste! Gross!) but I am not a fan of the lobster claw clasp. It is very difficult to put on as a bracelet.
:: Jane Dee 5:45:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 12.21.2010 ::
No Jury Duty!
Hurray! I was released! Well, that's what the recording said! If not, I will have bounty hunters after me!
Anyway, it's been such an awesome week since my class ended. That ACS exam really gave me a LOT of confidence. I am so amazed I scored so high. Im also amazed that the average is so low. I mean, you can miss a lot of questions and still get average. Oh well, all I know is that I am WAY ABOVE average. Yay!
Right now, I am making more jewelry. I know I should be getting my flash cards together for the MCAT, but I feel like doing something fun for a change. Ive been meaning to make some stuff for quite some time now. Im finishing a bracelet for one of TJ's neices. I already finished his mother's bracelet. I hope it fits!
I also downloaded some new music: Kate Ryan from Belgium. I like the song "Ella, Ella, L A" I also like that outfit. I would have totally worn that when I was 17. Or even 21. Yes, I loved sequins. And leopard print! Oh that was the best!!
Im also waiting for the next silver sale at Michaels. I need some "stardust" beads. Sitting here with all my beads spread out, I see that I actually don't have that many beads, haha! I can always use more!!!
Okay back to crafts.
:: Jane Dee 1:56:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 12.20.2010 ::
Charity Onlookers
So look who's been looking at my webpage:
http://www.rnli.org.uk/ apparently, they are a volunteer lifeguard/coast guard. From their webpage: "Volunteers are the heart of the RNLI. We rely on more than 40,000 volunteers - on lifeboats, at stations, on beaches, and in fundraising."
In other news, my hitch for the Jeep went smoothly. I had to use my feet to get a screw loose, but it worked out allright. Now I am waiting for my wheeling-cart-hitch-thingamajig and I will be all set for my trip. Now all I need for my jeep is a winch, a new stereo, and a paint job, and Im good.
So far, I have not been studying for the MCAT, but I have been busy with Christmas stuff. TJ and I got lucky this year because he got a lot of overtime so we were able to buy gifts for everyone. Normally, we can't buy everyone gifts, but this year we could. I don't know if we will be able to next year on, so enjoy it while you can people!!!
Tomorrow I may have jury duty. I called to day to see if I was released (no, of course not) but was told to call tomorrow at 11am to see what's up. This better not cut into my vacation time! Damn lawbreakers. Ugh so annoying! Hopefully, I won't get picked for the jury. Or if I do, I hope it will be a fast trial. I bet its something stupid like a car accident. Plenty of those out here. Sigh.
So right now I am trying to finish up the necklaces and bracelets Im making for gifts. I am also finishing up some stuff for myself. Ive had lots of projects on hold. I know Im supposed to update my webpage, but I guess this Christmas stuff jumped to the top of the list. Oh well. Whats another couple of months to post some pictures no one is going to look at anyway?
:: Jane Dee 7:49:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 12.13.2010 ::
Bye Bye Ochem I!
Thats it! The ACS has come and went, and it wasn't too bad! The review book is WAY harder than the test actually is. I hope I do well on it. That'll show those committies how smart I am!
So now I just wait for the scores and start studying for the MCAT!
:: Jane Dee 10:27:00 PM [+] ::
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Looking Forward To Tomorrow!
When the ACS will nothing but a memory! Ha!
Tomorrow I had to do some MASSIVE grocery shopping! The cupboards are bare! Well, not really. There is some oats and ramen soup. I also have to try to send out the gifts tomorrow. And buy stamps for the cards. I also have make some jewelry gifts. So tomorrow will be fun! I may forgo the food shopping to get the gifts done. We do have some stuff left. This weekend I will put the hitch on the Jeep! I hope that goes well.
So anyway, I have a few hours before my stupid ACS test. I guess I will get something to eat then go over some final things. I hope I do well, I want a good LOR!!!
:: Jane Dee 12:38:00 PM [+] ::
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The Grades Are In...
The grades for lecture test 3 are in... Im scared to look...
OMG I GOT A 100!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This class is going better than I thought!!!
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAA
:: Jane Dee 12:09:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 12.12.2010 ::
Finished The ACS Manual
I just finished a 10 hour study session with this wretched ACS manual and boy are my arms tired. And my neck. Etc etc.
So out of 215 questions, I got 175 correct, even with random guessing because some things won't be covered anyways. That translates to about 81%. I hope I can answer 81% of the questions right tomorrow, because I will get an A and an awesome recommendation.
I CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS CLASS TO BE OVER!!!!! ONLY ONE MORE DAY!!
By this time tomorrow, I would be home celebrating. What a semester! Hooray!!
:: Jane Dee 10:44:00 PM [+] ::
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Only 100 More Pages To go!
Oh boy oh boy! This ACS review book is the best book I ever read! (NOT!!)
My only hope is that if I answer half of the questions correctly, I should still be able to get an A. So lets hope I answer 35 questions correctly!!
You may check out some ACS guidlines here. Its not from my class, but its helpful. The percentiles should be close, though not exactly year to year.
Okay! Break is over, back to this crap!
:: Jane Dee 4:41:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 12.11.2010 ::
ACS Review Time!
Not that it requires an exclamation point.
The answers to the last lecture test are posted, and it seems like I did pretty well, probably a 90+, but at least an 80, which is the minimum I need to get an A with a "bad" ACS score.
Only two days till the ACS! Im not excited to take it, but Im excited this torture class is almost over! And this class was torture. The most unpleseant A I ever had to strive for. And I better get an A! Holy crap, if I get a B, I will flip my lid. And some tables and chairs! And maybe a car!
Anyways, tomorrow is a good sale at Michaels, so Im going to go and buy the last of the Christmas gifts so I can send them off. Mostly for TJ's side. Im not sending anyone gifts on my side, they can wait until I come visit. I didn't spend too much this year either, so I hope no one complains!
Okay so lets start this ACS book...
:: Jane Dee 3:32:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 12.10.2010 ::
Who Reads My Abandoned Blogs?
Its funny that I have two other blogs that I do not post to, but yet someone out there keeps reading it. That is very strange. One blog says "testing!!" and another links to this blog. I have no idea what search parameters are used to find the other blog.
:: Jane Dee 5:46:00 PM [+] ::
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Is It Tuesday Yet?
UGH! So tired of boring 'ol ochem! Still on chapter 6, but almost done. Then it should go faster from here. I am not sure if I will be able to start on ACS book today. We'll see, sigh...
:: Jane Dee 5:36:00 PM [+] ::
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And there is still plenty more to go! At least I don't need that much practice... I think.
:: Jane Dee 8:09:00 PM [+] ::
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Almost Through Chapter 4
Only about 8 more to go! I hope I do well on Monday!
Yesterday I went to get my free lunch from SHC. When I got there, the cafeteria was closed and I had to wait an hour an twenty minutes. I just waited in the car and studied some ochem. Then I got turkey, mashed potatoes, veggies, and a huge slice of cake that I just finished today. It was tasty.
I also went to my last lecture yesterday. Not much going on, just some stuff. She didn't have our exam grades, so not worth that much. Im just glad its almost over!
So this weekend Im going over all the chapters and then going to work on the ACS book. I don't know if it will be helpful, but we'll see. Im sure its going to be a stupid test. Right now, I am finishing up chapter 4. I am skimming the chapters then doing the problems at the end of the chapter. When I am done with chapters 1 - 13, I will start on the ACS book. Hopefully, I can get through this textbook review by tomorrow and start the ACS book tomorrow. No guarentees though.
Sunday, Im going to finish up some holiday shopping. I also need to go food shopping. I went to buy some canned tomatoes and pasta today, but we are pretty much put of everything. I was so busy this semester that I couldn't keep up with the groceries. I plan on buying the groceries on Tuesday.
I also got my hitch receiver today! It came pretty fast, I just ordered it yesterday! Anyway, I don't know if it fits yet, so that I must do this weekend or after the test. If I can't get it on, I will take it to the mechanic. I will show pictures when it is on!
And then there is the webpage. Lord knows I had the best intentions to FINALLY update my webpage, but this class... well, when this class is over, I will finally order that picture organizer and clean up my webpage as I start to study for the MCAT (its on MARCH!!!).
So I guess its back to work on this last stuff. I am looking forward to Monday!
:: Jane Dee 4:09:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 12.08.2010 ::
How To Study For The ACS Exam
Well you got me! I was thinking Id just go through the practice booklet, but now that I look at it, I think I should read all my notes, then do all the end of chapter problems from chapters 1 - 13 and then go through the practice book. I say this because I don't want to waste the ACS sample questions when I hadn't reviewed everything first. I think that is a better plan.
So Id have today, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and part of Monday to do examples. I think that should be enough time. I think the first five chapters should go quickly then the rest will take a bit of time. I seriously am dreading this test. I want to do well, but who knows how I will do? I just have to hope that I get high enough to get an A in the class. I should at least do that. I do want to get higher, because she said she would write the percentile rank in her LOR. If I do as well as she thinks I will do, i.e., 90+, that will look great for med school. I honestly don't think I will do that good, but I hope so!
I guess I should go and get my free lunch, then go to the library to do my chapter problems? At least that way, I won;t be tempted to go online over and over, ha ha!
Okay, time for ACS practice!
:: Jane Dee 1:44:00 PM [+] ::
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The test I took yesterday was a lot easier than I thought it was going to be, so Im hoping that I didn't get everything wrong. When I think something was too easy, I assume I did bad.
But I definately got an A in ochem lab! Even if I get zero points on this last lab, I still have an A. Now I hope the same is true for lecture! I also have to do well on the ACS because the professor said she would include your percentile rank in her letter! Uh oh! I hope Im above average! Well, its just one more thing to worry about then on to the next semester!
I also get a free meal tomorrow from Scottsdale Healthcare! Whee! Volunteers rule! It says there is some special dessert too, so I hope its good. Ive been eating ice cream cake all week because of my birthday. I hope I don't gain too much weight. I guess it doen't matter, Im going to stick to 1400 calories on the regular days anyway. Ive been around 120 for over a month now. Its a little skinny for my taste, but whatever, I need to knock their freakin socks off when I get to an interview.
When this class is over, I am going to get the Christmas stuff together. I have to make some jewelry and send out cards. I am not spending tons of money on gifts this year because we are one income.
Right now, I am doing nothing ha! I needed a break because my head was hurting. I had studied all weekend and I guess I need one break. Tomorrow, it will be back to business. I guess I will start studying with the rest of the ACS manual. I did some of it already. What sucks is that most of the book looks like will be on this test. Well, we'll see. If I do bad, then my professor's tests are WAY OFF. Then maybe I'd complain. Hm. Well we'll see.
:: Jane Dee 8:42:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 12.06.2010 ::
Test In A Few Hours
I have one more lecture test, then the ACS. Only ONE MORE WEEK OF THIS TO GO!
Im worried about this test, because there is SO MUCH to remember I hope I can keep it all straight. All these reactions and mechanisms. We had to cram in FOUR CHAPTERS in less than three weeks and they were all big ones, especially the spectrsocopy. Right now, I am still going over my notes left and right. I hope I can get a good grade on this exam! I need to keep a high average so I can screw up the ACS if I have to. I think I can get as low as an 80 on this test and still be okay for an A, if I do at least average on the ACS.
So Im keeping my mental fingers crossed, and wish me luck!!!
:: Jane Dee 3:25:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 12.03.2010 ::
The Last Moments Of My Twenties
And Im spending it with organic chemistry??? SUCK! It's annoying that I have a test on Monday. Tomorrow I will spend half the day or so doing stuff with TJ (Indian food? Cookies?), then spend the other half studying stupid ochem some more. UGH! CANNOT WAIT till 8pm December 13!!!!! OVER!
Anyways, when my twenties began a decade ago, I was teaching math at that school in Washington Heights and working at CVS. I took a year off from school after graduating with my A.S. in mathematics and saved up some money. I also went on a cross country road trip by myself visiting different observatories across the nation. I also went to Mexico City and New Orleans with my sister that summer. I ended that first year by starting City College and getting dumped by my boyfriend who decided that his mommy is more important. Then changed his mind. 9-11 also happened that year. Everything sucked around that time, I remember. I remember thinking that I couldn't WAIT to be 30, because my life HAS to improve over this crap. And now that I am going to be 30, I would have to say that it was worth the wait. Im finally living my dream: I have a wonderful, handsome, supportive husband, a cute kitty (who I also go when I when I was 20!!), and I am FINALLY on my way to "finishing school" as my mother always likes to say. Yes, being 30 is going to be better than being 20.
Im actually very happy about where I am in life right now. I know Im a late bloomer, but I still have some life left!
Happy Birthday To Me!!
:: Jane Dee 6:54:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.30.2010 ::
Back To The Nonsense
So Im pretty sure I did well on my lab final. I was happy that there was a question on acid-base extractions and the chemical equations we had worked with this semester. We had to write a step by step procedure on extracting benzoic acid, p-nitroaniline, and naphthalene from a mixture using sodium hydroxide and hydrocloric acid. It was worth ten points and I am pretty sure I got the whole thing correct or at least 8, but most likely 9. I had thought this lab exam was easier than the last one she gave. Maybe Im just crazy?
Anyways, I just finished scanning in some IR spectrographs to study with. These next two weeks are going to be crazy! I have my lecture final on Monday, and then the Monday after that is the ACS exam! SHEESH! Im going to have to wake up early everyday and study everyday until the test begins to make sure I keep my A. The professor said that this time, spectroscopy is not an optional section on the test. So that means I have to study it all! What a bummer. I hate this class!
However, she is a slave driver and instead of studying right now, I have to complete a 10 page homework due tomorrow. I hope I can finish it! AND SHE BETTER NOT GIVE A STINKIN' QUIZ TOMORROW! I HATE THOSE QUIZZES!! Those quizzes are worthless to me. All they do is give me more chances to LOWER my grade, not raise it! UGHH!
So like I said, back to the nonsense!
:: Jane Dee 1:43:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.29.2010 ::
ARGH I HATE YOU ORGANIC CHEMISTRY!!
Ik haat je de organische chemie U bent niet welkom in mijn leven Je bent nog erger dan mijn vijand Want je hebt geen ziel
Thats right OCHEM! ga je naar de hel!!!!!
I cannot believe she is making us go through four chapters at once! In one week she wants us to read four chapters (200+ pages) and do a ten page lab, and do a 15 page homework. BY WEDNESDAY??? Why? Its just awful we are doing so much work at the last minute. I mean really! If you saw this coming then lets gloss over a few things that aren't such grand things for the stupid ACS test! OMG I CANT WAIT UNTIL THIS CRAP IS OVER! I BETTER GET AN A!!!!! DAMMIT!!!
Im going to bed, screw this sheeyot!
:: Jane Dee 1:19:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 11.27.2010 ::
I HATE YOU ACS!! You know, Im sitting here studying for this organic crap, and we have so much stuff to cover in such a short amount of time. I have to go over all this spectroscopy crap in a week or so and then have it on the class final and the ACS final. UGH!
The ACS final looks like crap. It looks like they want you to memorize every little thing. Oh screw them. YOU WONT THWART ME, ACS! GO TO HELL!
I am not sure how I will do on the exam. It looks hard, but that doesn't mean much. My professors tests are hard too. I hope she makes the next test easier since evryone scored so bad on this last test, ha ha! I wish! Not me, I got a 90 + 7 extra points, yeeow!! I hope to score at least "average" on the ACS, that way I will definately get an A in the class.
Oh yeah, and my lab final exam is Monday. I wonder what will be on it? I mean, we just had a test. I guess it will be longer? Maybe she will just look at our lab books? Who knows... oh wait I should check blackboard (another one of Satan's inventions!!!!).... nope no word.
well I guess I will just wake up early and get these chapters done. Sigh.
:: Jane Dee 9:40:00 PM [+] ::
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Not As Motivated
Ah HA! Royal Caribbean and Princess cruises both go to where I want to go in the Carribean. Take that TSA!
I just don't see how the "TSA butt search," as I like to call it, is going to stop terrorism. Spraying me with x-rays and MRI beams is not going to stop terrorism. You know what would have been better than these stupid machines? DOGS. Bomb sniffing dogs. Because if a terrorist has explosives up his bung-hole, the x-ray machine isn't going to pick it up. But a dog will. Imagine that, you are standing behind a guy who gets sniffed by the dog and the dog starts barking and pawing at his arse. How funny is that??? The dogs are very good at what they do and I would trust them more than some TSA agent who makes $10 an hour and could probably care less. What I also don't understand is why everyone is so willing to go along with this. I know there are not many other options, but the government shouldn't have this much power! When I become a doctor, I want TJ to take up flying again so he can fly us around. He will be my transportation expert. I will have none of this government nonsense.
Anyways, Ive not been motivated to study as what the title is referring to. Im trying to do my homework now. BORING. I know I should be studying harder but UGHHHHH!!! ENOUGH ALREADY!
December 15 cant come fast enough.
:: Jane Dee 7:05:00 PM [+] ::
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The next time I fly, Im either pilot or co-pilot. Or in a helicopter flying to the hospital. Or they stopped trying to pretend that putting their hands on my boobs (or crotch) is a security measure.
Hello cruising! Good bye a$$holes at the airport.
Now how will I get to the Caribbean...
:: Jane Dee 9:23:00 PM [+] ::
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Black Friday Anyone?
I deleted my ranting post. No sense complaining about everything. I was dizzy all day anyways. I didn't cook or do anything because I didn't feel well.
I did wake up this morning to get black friday sales! I got a pair of New Balance sneakers, ugg knockoffs, and moccasins for $48! Then I went to ACE Hardware to get a Shop-Vac! I can't wait to use it! I want to see how it picks up bird feathers and seeds...
TJ and I will have Thanksgiving dinner on Sunday. Working for Fedex doesn't give you much time off, and I appreciate that he worked this holiday to earn more money since Im not working. We have had so many expenses this year, that we made a good dent in our savings. Hopefully, we can replenish it soon. After my class is over, I plan to get a part time job to help buildup the savings again. Maybe I can work at Whole Foods or someplace I can get a discount on the stuff I buy. That would be nice. Or, TJ may be able to get me a part-time gig at this truck place that hauls for the post office. They pay good but no benefits. Which is okay because Im already on TJs insurance. We'll see.
Im also very excited that I am going to be visiting NY soon! I haven't been there in over a year now, or something like that, so I am actually excited to go. Meux Meux is coming too!
So now that my dizzy spell is pretty much over, I have to get cracking at the ochem. This professor is such a slave driver! We have labs and homework and tests all due together! ARGH! I don't know how I'm going to do all this. Throw in how boring it is and I have a really annoying class. UGH! I can't wait 'till its over!!!!
Not bad. If I keep a 95 average in this class, I can get as low as a 72 on the ACS and still get an A. Hopefully, I will have a higher average than a 95 by the time the final rolls around. That way I can score even lower, haha! So if I keep a 98 average I can get a 68 on the ACS and still get an A. FUNNY!!
I am looking foward to next semester because I will have a new teacher and a new opportunity to get another LOR. One down, two to go!
Right now I am working on alkynes. This chapter is not as torturous, but is not great either. We have a quiz today. I am worried I will not do as well. I wish she would make the quizzes easier to balance out her hard tests. But that won't happen.
It seems like the rest of this semester will be pure memorization. From memorizing mechanisms and reagents to spectroscopy trends, there is a lot to remember. Its not fun. Nothing to help you memorize. I can't wait until this WHOLE class is over (including next semester!!!)
Okay back to work.
:: Jane Dee 2:00:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.23.2010 ::
Oh, I See
So ochem starts off looking innocent... then comes the enormous memorization of useless crap. So I finally finished chapter 8, just the notes, and we are already moving through chapter 9. The professor says its an "easy" chapter. Oh yeah? We have a quiz tomorrow on chapters 8 and 9. I seriously hate this class. Very boring and inane. It's so hard to get motivated!
Anyways, I started on my packet to send to my old professor at KCC. I guess I won't finish until this weekend. I hope he doesn't think I'm all slow and stuff. I have to write out what I want the letters to say etc etc. Well, They are not due until June anyway. I still haven't heard back from the one I contacted at CCNY. Bummer. Not even a peep. Not even a "no"! Not sure if I should keep persuing it or not. Now Im glad I listened to TJ and switched schools for next semester. At least I have another teacher!
Im also worried about this stupid ACS exam. It seems like there is going to be a lot of questions on it. I hope I do well! I need an A! Sigh.
Okay, I should try to start studying. I am so unexcited about ochem, pffft.
:: Jane Dee 4:05:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.20.2010 ::
No More Lab Reports!!
I finally finished my last report!! HURRAH!!
:: Jane Dee 11:06:00 PM [+] ::
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Back To Chapter 8
Back to work on chapter 8. I am not excited. I must have read this one passage ten times to understand what the hell is going on with this permanganate cleavage. This part is just not descriptive enough and then they give this one example that is not easy to see just with what they explained to you. Well, at least Im up to the last section, polymerization. Then I have the honor of working through all the problems in the chapter. That should bring me great joy.
Once I get this chapter's notes in order, I should start on my last post lab report. Let's see if the problems are posted yet.... hm not yet. I wonder if she will post questions? Maybe it doesn't matter because there is supposedly no lab next week. I don't know how that is going to work. Do we just go home? That would be awesome! Well, I guess I will do the lab report then wait and see if the questions will be up later. I am very excited this is the LAST FREAKIN' LAB REPORT!!!
Then I guess I will start on some kind of flash cards to memorize this stupid chapter. Once that is done, I guess I can start on spectroscopy? Or maybe my info packet for my professor? I dunno. I probably won't get to half of this stuff today ha!
Okay back to polymerization.
:: Jane Dee 4:04:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.19.2010 ::
Not Going As Planned
I fell asleep on my books, then I had to eat dinner because I was so hungry. Now I am not in the mood for ochem.
So I was looking at my first choice for residency. Here it is!
I think Im going to get my mug tomorrow, ha ha.
:: Jane Dee 9:05:00 PM [+] ::
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Yes!
Only a few more sections to go in the demon chapter!!
I hate you chapter 8!!
:: Jane Dee 5:35:00 PM [+] ::
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I Forgot My Coffee Mug!
I forgot my mug at SHC. I hope no one throws it away, that would be terrible. So far working there is pretty nice. I can wear my scrub pants and khakis too! Awesome. I don't have to wear my static-y wool pants.
Im kinda bummed that I got no response from the one professor I thought was a sure thing for a recommendation. Meanwhile, I get a lightning fast reasponse from the one I didn't think would give me one at all. What a world, ha ha!
I have a very busy weekend ahead of me! I have to finish this demon chapter 8 and then start on spectroscopy. Our next test is in a little over two weeks, so I have to start memorizing this stuff now. UGH! Then I have to get some kind of "packet" together for my professor to read. I want to ship that out Monday or Tuesday. I hope he doesn't change his mind!!!!!!! I would be so sad!!!!
Anyways, I found a Georgian radio station, White FM (Ha ha, no, Georgia the country! Not some KKK station in Georgia the state!!) Im trying to find the Euro-Dance station, but no luck, hmm. Seems like they mostly play American top 40 music, mixed with some Georgian tunes. I like the alphabet, its unique.
მე სიძულვილი თქვენ Bromine! (პოემა მრავალ ენაზე)
მე სიძულვილი თქვენ Bromine! Bromine არის ჩემი მტერი რადგან, როდესაც ვხედავ Bromine მინდა შესვენება თქვენ ნახევარი!
I think we all know what this poem says!!!!
:: Jane Dee 2:59:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.17.2010 ::
This Is The Worst Chapter Yet
I seriously hate this chapter. There is so much to memorize, it's ridiculous. And all the stuff is nothing exciting or connectable to the real world. Just boring boring boring...
This next test is going to be a nightmare.
:: Jane Dee 8:44:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.16.2010 ::
Now I Hate Bromine
You know, my enemy used to be sulfur, but for right now, my new enemy is bromine. What is the obsession with bromine? I guess on the one hand its good that we are sticking to one type of halogen but come on.
:: Jane Dee 9:19:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.15.2010 ::
I GOT ONE RECOMMENDER!!!
AND ITS MY MATH PROFESSOR!
I thought that sending him a request was such a crapshoot, but I made up my letters, and sent them out last night and he called me TODAY to say HE WOULD DO IT!!!!! OMG I AM BESIDES MYSELF!!!
Since he doesn't check his email, he said I could send him everything. I am going to see if I can meet with him in January. He has plenty of time to write the letters, they are not due until May - June next year. So I figure I can send him all the background info first like my resume, what has happened in the time since then, and what I would want the letter to say, etc and he can take his time to go over everything. Then in January, I can see how its going. I am not sure if the applications for 2012 will open by then but if they do, I can put the forms in his mailbox or hand them to him. Otherwise, come time to submit the application, I will send him the forms and he can send them to AMCAS and it will be done.
Now I have to see if the psychology professor gets back to me. I should have left a message in his voicemail but I figured he always checks his email. He should read it later today. I think his last class ends at 3pm ET. So I still have my fingers crossed. If he doesn't get back to me by the end of the week, I will call him and tell him I am going to email it again or send it by mail.
Now I just have to get an A in this organic class and the next one and I have TWO MORE LETTERS!!!! I could have FOUR! This may work out after all!
:: Jane Dee 12:29:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.13.2010 ::
Have Some Spectra!
Click here to see what kind of boring crap we are doing this week!
:: Jane Dee 6:58:00 PM [+] ::
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My Last PreLab!
And I am very happy! I hate these things!
It seems this last lab will be fast and easy. I don't know how we will get sunlight since it is a night lab, but I think we will use the UV lamps. In any case HURRAH!!!
However, we ARE studying three chapters at once. I just cannot make it through chapter 8! It is so incredibly boring and isolated. This is the kind of knowledge that when you start explaining to people who know nothing about this subject, they tune out, because it doesn't apply to anything they know of. At least when I was studying microbiology, I could explain it to anyone and anyone could understand because who isnt affected by bacterias and viruses? But alkoxymercuration? Come on, who cares? I don't even care! Just don't tell my professor! Shhh....
Okay this time I will make an earnest attempt at chapter 8. Only 30 more pages to go, yippee!!
:: Jane Dee 6:41:00 PM [+] ::
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Today was my first day at SHC. It was nice! Great hospital. It's a far, far, cry from CIH, but that's probably because SHC is a private hospital. Im going to try to volunteer there as long as I possibly can because when I get into medical school, I want them to know I worked there and that should help them favor me for a residency. I know it's years ahead, but some things need to be sowed way in advance. When I finally get the hang of all the areas of the hospital, I will mosey my way to where the offices of the residency people are and see what kind of information I can get from them. If I am lucky, I will get in at U of A and I can stay at SHC until I apply for residency, unless that is some kind of conflict of interest. We'll see, otherwise, Im in! And I got my SHC shirt today. Whoo hoo!
Other than that, I have a slight headache, and I am not interested in studying ochem. I would however, rather work on my emails to my professors asking them about the LORs. I plan to finish that by Monday and send them off by Monday or Tuesday. I can't remember if we need to do a pre-lab this week and that extra time would be great but I think I will do it anyway. It would be the last pre-lab!! There is a light at the end of the tunnel! A little over a monthe left of this class!!!!!
I just hope I havn't shot myself in the foot by taking biochemistry with organic next semester. If this next teacher is as hard as my professor, Im screwed!
:: Jane Dee 6:04:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.11.2010 ::
Not Interested
In studying today.
I am also no interested in having to go back to "The Limited" to return a $17 belt that didn't go with my pants afterall. I hate how these department stores ask for your phone number and email address. I mean sometimes its good because you would want their coupons, but generally I don't care. I managed to find a belt that worked at Wal-Mart. For $8. Sheesh. You know they were both faux leather belts and I am sure they were made in the same factory in China.
Anyway, I used to love shopping, now I can't stand it. Nothing ever fits me right. My legs are a too long for petite, but a usually a little too short for regular so I always have to hem something. Then I can't wear tailored shirts because my boobs expand the buttons too much, but if I get a shirt that fits over my boobs, it's just too big and I look like Im wearing a man's shirt. So whenever I wear a tailored shirt, I have to close up all the gaps between the buttons with tiny pins. That takes at least ten minutes because I have to get the pin just right so the material doesn't bunch up. Ugh! You get it. And you know what else? Its not easy finding my bra size either. It's either EVERYONE has my size or they just don't make them in my size. I have to go to special stores to get the bra I want. And no, it's not Victoria's Secret. VS's bras make my boobs TOO big, I definately do NOT want to go out with such a huge rack. It's ridiculous that women try to make their boobs so freakin' large. Why the hell would they want that? When I used to work for Fedex, I would approach the receptionist or concierge, and they would usually have this huge rack sticking out of a very low cut shirt. It's hard to concentrate when you have to look down at someone to talk to them, but all you see is breast on the desk. With freckles. Because they tan too much. Sad.
So hurrah hurrah, I made it to 120 pounds. Now that none of my clothes fit me, I think I will have to buy a new suit and some interview clothes soon. At least pants. Luckily I saved one pair of size 6 pants, and I will have to wear those in the meantime. This weight is very light and I feel like anyone can grab me at anytime. At least when I was 140, I can put up a better fight. Or "give them a big surprise" as my mother would say. She did say I should quit Fedex because it was making me too big. No ma, its the steroids! Ha ha.
Now that its 8pm, I am not sure if I want to get started on studying any of this organic nonsense. I DO feel like I want to eat ice cream. Yeah tough choice, ice cream or organic chemistry, hmm. Well I do have to make another loaf of bread so I will see what I can eat then I guess I should get back to organic.
:: Jane Dee 7:42:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.09.2010 ::
Excessive Bromine
I didn't know ochem had an ongoing love affair with bromine. Seems like every reaction I do involves bromine. Im going to name my first born Bromine.
And this pink dry erase marker is giving me a headache. And it has a weird bleached streak in the tip. It kinda writes orange-y. What a piece of crap.
:: Jane Dee 9:51:00 PM [+] ::
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Life Lessons
Here are the three most important things in life, as taught by my father:
1)Guys only want one thing 2)If you are alone and need help, do not approach a man, unless he is in uniform 3)Shoot first, then ask questions
:: Jane Dee 6:50:00 PM [+] ::
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Hello Russian Audience:
Can any of you out there tell me what the origin of the name "Chaveninsky" or something similar to that name is from? Best guess is Belarus. Would appreciate any helps. Thanks.
:: Jane Dee 6:18:00 PM [+] ::
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I Got a 90!
Thank goodness! I was scared I'd get in the 80s. The only problem is that I didn't get the high score. I know I'm happy that I got an A, but I still want to be the best! Oh well. I guess as long as I get an A, I should be okay, right? Ha ha ha! Sometimes, I just can't help being competitive. Especially when I have an opportunity to be the best.
I did well on my lab exam too! I got a 48/50. Thats an A as well. I was worried Id do worse on that test than the lecture exam. I hate lab. I think I said that about a million times already.
I cannot wait until this class is OVER! UGHH!!
Right now, we basically have to study three chapters at once. This is terrible. I also found out the schedules of the professors I want to ask recommendations from. And they have no schedule! They won't be teaching when I will come to NY! So now I have to ask for the letters over the phone and emails. What sucks about that is that it will be easier to reject my request when I am not standing in front of them. I will have to ask them if I can meet them in their office anyways. Maybe they will? I think the one from CCNY will do it, but I am not sure about the one from KCC. I would really want one from him because he would be a perfect recommender for the dual degree. I just have to hope he will find my request convincing and compelling. He wrote me a recommendation before, so I hope that helps...
Then on Fridays I get up early to do my volunteer stuff. I have to remember to log my miles so I can deduct them from my taxes. I hope this volunteer position doesn't suck like the one I did at Coney Island Hospital. SHC is really nice, and I will want to apply for a residency there "when" I graduate from med school! (hahaha)
So now I have to correct my test (she will give us half points back!) and study chapter 8 for tomorrow's quiz (booo! hiss!!) Then conjure up some way to write some very convincing emails and phone messages.
And you know, I have to schedule time to study for MCAT soon... Im scheduled in March, that's practically around the corner! I guess that will be on the agenda this weekend too.
This ACS book has been nothing but a jerk to me as I study until I get to the section on substitutions and eliminations and I got ALL but ONE correct!! Hurray!
Now I have to hope they are heavy on this chapter for the test ha!
:: Jane Dee 9:45:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.05.2010 ::
Hooray! Im at SHC!
I start next week! I will be shuttling people/objects around. Sounds like my old job. I took the transport position because I get to go to all different departments and meet different people. This should be helpful.
And I have a nice headache today. I am not interested in reading the chapter of spectroscopy. Or making a new study schedule for the ACS and MCAT. And Im hungry. I still have one pound to go. Thank heavens there is no post-lab and pre-lab due this week! Hallelujah!
I started looking at the GMAT books yesterday. I think I need to study well for that exam. I know it looks simple, but I finally started to do some of the sentence correction stuff and I get about 50% because I don't know the English rules to well. My goal is to start studying for that test AS SOON AS THE MCAT IS DONE. So then end of March about. I have to take it next year because they are going to change the test in 2012 and I don't want to buy all new study books. So next year will be the year of the tests!
Man, I can really go for some oatmeal now...
There are at least three things to do this weekend: (1)Read chapter on spectroscopy (2)Read chapter 8 (3)Complete chapter 5 in ACS.
UGHHHHH!!! NOT fun. Only a little more than a month left, I hope I can last without pulling my hair out. I just can't find anything interesting about this subject. I guess I wouldn't have made a good pharmacist after all, haha.
Okay I need some oatmeal then Im off to read this boring stuff.
:: Jane Dee 2:23:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.04.2010 ::
Test 2 Done
I don't think I got a 99 like last test, but Im hoping for an 80+.
There were so many questions! We have an hour and fifteen minutes to answer 20 questions with 5 - 10 PARTS!!! The girl next to me was just staring at the questions for like 10 minutes. I don't think she answered everything. I did, but that doesn't mean I got them all correct, ha! But an answer is better than no answer, for no answer is definately wrong. I think I screwed up the configuration questions because I was going so fast, I didn't even check if the molecules were even the same. Oh brother. Well, it's done with now.
Now I have another test and the ACS final to look forward too. Oh joy!
:: Jane Dee 3:09:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.03.2010 ::
Test Is Imminent
...It's almost here! IEEEE!
:: Jane Dee 10:58:00 AM [+] ::
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Test Strategy
Im going to take some test strategy advice from Cascada if I get stuck on my test:
Hold on, what's going on?? 'Cuz your stuck just a little, MOVE ALONG!!!
Okay that should help me! Back to work!
:: Jane Dee 8:27:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 11.02.2010 ::
Still On Chapter 7
Wow, I am not sure my plans will work out tonight...
Well, I must try!
:: Jane Dee 11:10:00 PM [+] ::
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Oh Yeah
My Hi-Liter is done.
:: Jane Dee 9:21:00 PM [+] ::
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Only A Day Away
I am not finished with chapter 7. Lucky me. I am going to stay up as long as I can to do problems once I am finished with this chapter. Then I will wake up early tomorrow, like 0500 and just do as many problems as I can in the book. It will be a long day, just like the last test.
Well, by this time tomorrow, I will be back home and depressed, ha!
I miss truck driving...
:: Jane Dee 9:17:00 PM [+] ::
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Thank You Sir, May I Have Another?
Quite frankly, I am getting tired of these studying posts. So maybe I will talk about something else.
Since I couldn't sleep last night, I was up looking up more info on med schools I actually have a chance of getting into. There aren't many. Especially if I can't secure recommendations, i.e., I get a C in this g-d-forsaken class! Im assuming I won't, but thinking of the worst motivates me. Does that make me odd? Even if there is almost a zero chance I will get a C in this class, I will assume there will be a catastrophe and I will get a C. I don't want a B either, but an A in this class is VERY hard to get, but I still have an A so I am hoping to keep it that way.
Anyway, the school list is this (and I will update my sidebar appropriately later): University of Arizona (MD/MBA), University of Arizona (MD), Hofstra University (MD), Uniformed Services (MD), Morehouse (MD), George Washington University (MD), University of Pittsburg (MD), American University of the Carribean (MD), Ross University (MD), A.T. Sill Mesa (DO), A.T. Still Kirksville (DO).
This is the tentative list. If I can secure more recomendations, know my grades and MCAT score, I can make a much better list. I will apply to the rest of the DO schools the next year because I don't have any DO recommendations. The two I listed don't require a DO recommendation.
Sometimes, I look at this list and my chances and I am like "geez, what a stupid endeavor" because I am not the type to take chances with my money like this. But the difference this time is that I have been working for years already and I am getting nowhere anyway. Might as well try something to see if something good happens. Truck driving will always be there! Well, I assume it will...
I guess it's time for more studying! Hurrah! Pfft.
:: Jane Dee 12:53:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 11.01.2010 ::
First Post From My PDA!
Im in class... this class is... just... not my thing.
I got my hw checked and I STILL get stuff wrong! Jeeeezzz!
Just have to do my best and hope for the best Wednesday.
:: Jane Dee 5:43:00 PM [+] ::
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More Studying
I am not sure if I should go earlier and see the professor during office hours to go over the homework or if we are going to go over the homework after the lab test? I don't have too many questions but I also don't know what she is going to throw at us during the exam so I am wondering if she will give us some clues to the test?
I think I will do okay on this lab test, but I am still scared of the lecture test. If its anything like the "Practice Problems" she gave us to do, one hour to do all that is not enough!!! ARGH! Very nervous.....
I guess I will finish up going over lab stuff and then we'll see how I feel about leaving early.
:: Jane Dee 2:02:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 10.31.2010 ::
More Studying
Im studying for my awesome lab test tomorrow. TJ said he would mow the lawn AND thatch it in the spring. I told him he better keep his promise because I won't have time to do it in the spring. We'll see.
This has been such an annoying week. Everyday I have been getting up early just to study for these tests and of course, today, when I can sleep in a bit, my neighbor has the lawn crew come in and wake me up with their gas powered tools. No, they couldnt have come yesterday when I was up already at that hour. They usually come when I am able to sleep in a bit. They don't have a set schedule, it could be Saturday or Sunday.
It's Halloween and I was reluctant to buy any candy because last year some bratty kids come by to get candy, don't say "trick or treat" and are texting while they hold out their bag to get free stuff. Are you kidding me? So Im not giving anything out, TJ has to do it. Screw them. If you want free candy you better show some work.
Anyways, I need to get back to this lab crap.
:: Jane Dee 3:19:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 10.30.2010 ::
More Work
Another four hours of my life spent on labs. And I havent started studying for the test yet. I have no idea what will be on the test besides everything. I am not sure if it is cumulative. I sure hope its not. I sure hope we don't have to memorize every equation like the last test. UGHHH!!
I have no idea how I am going to do well on the ACS exam. ??
Sigh I guess its time to start this nonsense...
:: Jane Dee 8:05:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 10.29.2010 ::
Only 8 Hours Later...
Well, I did ALL the freakin problems in chapter 6. I only got a few wrong, I hope that means I will do good. I am going to get dinner started, then try to do the post lab. Then tomorrow, if Im not done with the lab, finish that, then make study notes for lab, then FINALLY do her practice problems for the test. Then study for lab some more...
UGHHHH!!! Do NOT like this class.
:: Jane Dee 9:04:00 PM [+] ::
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Lawn Mowers, Biochemistry, Tests
My new lawn mower arrived yesternight and I am very happy I will be able to take of the yard again! All winter, I am going to dethatch in parcels. I won't have time (or the energy probably) to dethatch in one weekend, so I am going to do it in pieces. I will mow maybe a quarter and detatch a quarter. The yard is almost 50'x50' so you see its not an easy task. There is a TON of thatch. The goal is to get it ready for spring and it should look awesome!
And now for the less fun part, school. I have two tests next week, one lab, one lecture. So I finished the examples in all but chapter 6, which I am going to do today. I hope it doesn't take forever, because I have a post lab to do, and no prelab thankfully!!!!!!!!! But I have to study for that too. And I have to wash my hair, and buy some groceries. UGH. This class is like a time-eating monster!
So anyways, I am REGISTERED (!!) for the BIOCHEMISTRY class! I got the permission! I am supposed to have a whole year of organic, but oh well. I hope its not too crazy. There is no lab, and its a fundamentals course, but another science class can't hurt. Especially if I get an A. Or two, ha!
I also went to the DMV today to get my medical certificate updated. I got my DOT Physical done at minute clinic at CVS, and it was only $84 bucks! I am going to see if they can write my prescription for my allergy medication. If they can that's perfect since our medical coverage next year will be watered down.
Now it's lunch time and then hours of school work, sigh.
:: Jane Dee 1:44:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 10.27.2010 ::
Oh Yeah...
Just thought you'd like to know that its almost midway through the course and I have gone through two packs of looseleaf paper (college ruled, 150 sheets), three Expo markers, two RSVP pens, and had to get two different colored highlighters in addition to my yellow, because one color apparently isnt enough for ochem.
I also use three colored pencils to make my notes, use two sizes of index cards to make flash cards, and use two kinds of black markers to make those cards, one thin, one extra thin.
Did I mention I don't like this class??
:: Jane Dee 9:35:00 PM [+] ::
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UGH
I am definately being redundant when I say I can't stand this class!!! It is so unenjoyable, it has no meaning to me, and it is full of crap to memorize. I know the professor says "You can't memorize this stuff" but OF COURSE you have to memorize stuff. It's ALL memorizing. And because this topic is so boring and way out from the real world, it is so hard to connect the concepts to everyday things and objects to help you remember. To me, this is all rote memorization, then application.
I cannot emphasize how much I despise this class. I don't think I am going to get a 99 on this next test. It worries me! If I don't get an A, my chances of med school just dropped to 0.00000000000000004. ESPECIALLY because its at a community college! Good grief!
So this whole weekend all I will be doing is studying for Lab midterms and the Lecture midterms. I HATE LAB TOO. Don't even get me started on the labs. Alas, there is no escape. I must complete this class and take PART II. I am not looking forward to it.
Next semester I will be taking my very first online class. I will be taking an introductory course of biochemistry. Hopefully, I can do better in that class and salvage any stupid grade I get in organic. (Stupid grade is anything below an A)
I know how many people despise organic. With good reason. I wonder how much of it will be used in med school. Besides biochemsitry, what else does it apply to? Don't know. I don't think much. Didn't need it in anatomy and physiology, nor microbiology. I guess I will see.
So I am trying my darndest to get a good grade on this next test because I certainly didn't do my best on these last two quizzes. I will have a horrible weekend, with non-stop studying. I am saving the end of chapter problems for when I finish the chapter. Hopefully tonight, I will finish the chapter then tomorrow, work my way backwards through the chapters do each and every problem until I know the answers to all of them, kinda like I did for the first test. I hope thats the charm and it works again. I do hope I can do all the problems in one day. I have to study for LAB too AND finish the lab report!! Ugh this class is awful!
Oh wait, I have to get my DOT Physical tomorrow. You know, minute clinic does them for $85 bucks here in AZ! Cool! I was originally goingto go at 10am but I think I need to do that at 730am and then get right to studying/answering problems. I want to spend at least 12 hours doing as many problems as I can. This chapter has SO MANY problems, I am not even sure that would be enough time to do all of them. And of course because we started on chapter 7, it will be on the test. Very annoying.
So enough of this blogging... I have to finish the chapter and then get ready for a totally awesome day tomorrow!!! (NOT!!!!)
:: Jane Dee 8:37:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 10.23.2010 ::
Not As Happy Anymore
So im about halfway through with organic 1 and I was doing awesome (like 100 in everything) but now I got 6/10 on my last two quizzes. I was so upset because my next test is coming in about a week and some and I am worried that I will get a mediocre grade, thus bringing down my A. Ive lost my appetite for a few days and I finally got some back today, but as I study for the ACS final and see how I keep getting the acids and bases wrong, I start feeling queasy again. I am not enjoying this class at all.
I especially don't like lab. Next semester I am taking the accelrated lab which will start a couple of months into the regular semester. That way, I can study for the mcat and not have to worry about stupid lab. Especially this professors' lab. They take me hours to complete because she wants them a certain way and I need every point I can get so I try to be 100% complete. So hoepfully taking it later into the semester will alleviate some of the burden because I take the MCAT right when labs start so I wont have to do any labs until the last minute.
I feel upset and anxious that I won't get an A. I think Id even settle for a B, but Im not sure how this class will work out. The author of my textbook even admits he got a D on his second exam! So what chance do I have?? I just don't want to diminish my chances of at least being able to apply to U of A because if I get a C, she will not write me a recommendation. Even Carribean school needs a science professor. I don't know if I have to courage to ask my old physics professor! I wish my other biology professors didnt hit on me, then I would have had them as references like I wanted to in the first place. But this is what my life is. The only other option I would have is take ANOTHER science class, do well, and get a recommendation from them. Maybe biochemistry? I shudder to think. I just want to do well in this class and have it done with. I guess we'll see.
In some good news, I think Im in at Scottsdale Healthcare! I went to orientation today and the hospital is very nice! I used to pick up from there when I worked at Fedex, but I only got to see the dock. Now I get to see inside! I hope I can meet all kind sof people there. I hope to find some doctors (especially a DO) to shadow and meet the people who are in charge of residencies. I would LOVE to do my residency there!!!! OMG that would be totally awesome. I wonder if they do pre-match. If they did, I can just tell them when Im ready to come and they can hire me. Oh who am I kidding, I am getting ahead of myself. How about we pass ochem first huh?
My bread is ready. Then back to anxiety class work.
:: Jane Dee 5:03:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 10.13.2010 ::
16 Hours Later...
I shouldn't have done it like this, but I just spent 16 hours over the last two days doing my ochm homework. I know I should have started earlier, but that stupid storm that blew the shingles off the house took center stage. I actually replaced the shingles Monday finally and hopefully that will stop the leaking. There was a huge hole in the roof!
Anyway, Im glad this homework is over! I am going to start studying for the next test soon.
Yesterday was my lab midterm and it wasn't too bad. I think I got a couple wrong though. However, in class, she is steamrolling through the chapters and I am now just getting scared enough to start studying like before. We have another quiz tomorrow on stuff I havent read so I can't dissappoint my professor and make my self look stupid!! Lucky me though, she asked a question in class and apparently called on the two people who scored an A on the first exam (me and someone else) and I was theone who got it right! HAHAHA! I rule! So now I see that she will probably call on me for stuff so I have to stay ahead so I don't get any worng answers!!! That would be very bad.
So I am trying to finish up this chapter tonight then I will wake up early to start the next chapter because it will be on the quiz. I need every point possible in case I totally bomb the ACS final. I shouldnt but I cant predict.
Okay back to work! I will have to start dinner soon...
:: Jane Dee 7:39:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 9.27.2010 ::
Laff Riot!
Of course, when the printer knows its imminent doom, it decides to print in black!
Well, I tried one last attempt to fix it and it worked this time! But now its late and I want to go to bed. I guess I should study in the morning. This test shouldn't be too hard, the labs are pretty straight forward, I think. I got the hard part memorized which is the formulas for the extractions, so what else could there be that is so hard? I dunno, but I hope I don't have to find out!
:: Jane Dee 12:33:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 9.26.2010 ::
The End Of The Line
For my printer of 4+ years. It started to print stupid a while ago but only a month or so ago it stopped printing in black. I thought I could manage just printingin grey but I can't really print anything off the internet (including my assignments) because everyone posts their stuff in pdf format and I cant load it into word to change the font color to grey. So this has gone on long enough. I decided that I will setup my new printer and try to extract the ink from my old printers into the new cartridges when they get empty. I figured that is better than trying to sell them on Amazon for $5 when they are worth much more.
So here goes! (as you can see Im not studying feverishly)...
:: Jane Dee 11:54:00 PM [+] ::
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Jane Dee Genius Is BACK!!
Thats right! I got a 99 on my first OCHM test! WOW!
Let's hope it stays that way because tomorrow I have my lab midterm!
In other news, I am still setting up my new computer with all new gadgets and software. This should end soon and then, the real webpage updating shall begin. I purchased an HP iPAQ (yes I know, I hate HP but other than DELL, no one else makes pocket PCs anymore and I am not going to spend $$$$$$$$$$+++++ on a stupid blackberry... or a stupid DELL) to replace my Palm m500 from 2001 or whatnot. Seems like nothing is compatable with windows 7. I am also going to buy a new Wacom Craft tablet and that comes with PSE 7 and Painter 4, so I don't have to buy that. Then I am going to buy MS Office 10 and Sound Forge 10 using my student discount! Hurray school!
Our new fridge is working good. Now it seems like the washer is going out too! I think someone out there cursed my appliances! Dammit! I will return the favor! So we may have to spend another $$$ on a washer. Sigh. By the time the year is up, we will have no cash...
So its less than two months until I register for that MCAT in March! Ooh scary isnt it?
Still havent got the jeep fixed. I supposed I shouldnt wait too much longer. I don't want to get stuck without a car!
And Maricopa FINALLY got back to me about the volunteer position BUT they gave me a time that would conflict next semester with my class! So now I have to refuse. I didnt know when the next class would be so when I checked, I saw that my professor is only going to teach Tuesday Thursday during the day! Oh no! Oh well. I do have an interview lined up at Scottsdale health and you know what, I just found out that they have family medicine residencies AND that those residents are from Ross, St. Matthews and AUC. Im impressed. So I would much rather volunteer there because they would be a top choice to choose a residency from. I think that would be awesome. But of course, getting a family medicine residency at Alaska would be real cool too! We'll see. Im not even applying yet, hahaha!
I guess I should be getting back to my studies... I am reviewing for tomorrows test and reading up on the next chapter. Should be funsies!
:: Jane Dee 8:47:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 9.20.2010 ::
3 x 6 = 11?
So this stupid calculator I got from TJ DOESNT WORK!! Dammit, I knew I should have brought my backup calculators. Ughhhh, and watch we will have percent composition on the test and now I have to do all this math on paper!!!
Im getting there. I will be at school extra early so I can study all day. I think next time I should tell her to make our exams Wednesday so that it doesnt conflict with all the lab crap we have to do.
So tomorrow is my first real organic chemistry test! Im also going to get my id tomorrow so I can get student discounts, hehehe. So I hope all goes well.
Time seems to be moving well. I still havent heard back from any volunteer places. Oh well. I guess I will try to shadow some doctors or something. Or volunteer at the library. What sucks is that I may get a position at one of the hospitals and then it will conflict with nest semesters class. Part two of this class is not offered on Monday and Wednesday with the prof I have now so I will have to take the Tuesday Thursday class! I guess we'll see what happens!
Okay back to work. I have to make dinner soon...
:: Jane Dee 6:18:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 9.18.2010 ::
Bored!
Is there any way to make organic chemistry interesting?
Im studying for my test on Monday. I just can't focus because its not interesting. Oh well, too bad for me. I better do well!!
:: Jane Dee 5:19:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 9.17.2010 ::
FINALLY DONE WITH STUPID LAB!!
It only took 5-6 hours... for the pre-lab. Im not counting the three for the post lab yesterday!!!!!!!!
ARGHH!!! LAB YOU WILL DIE!!
:: Jane Dee 7:11:00 PM [+] ::
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I Score Higher In Tetris When "Yakety Sax" Plays In The Background
Ive been playing Chemist Tetris although I thought the tetris pieces would be blocks from the periodic table. Anyway, I noticed I score much higher when "Yakety Sax" plays in the background. I guess its spatial thinking music?
Anyway, I HATE LABS!
Ive been working for hours on this crap. UGHHHH. I didnt even get to study for the test on Monday yet!
And I still havent got a response from Maricopa. What's taking so long? Oh well, who knows.
Now back to tetris...
:: Jane Dee 3:35:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 9.16.2010 ::
We Have Refridgeration!
Finally, I am back in the modern era. The fridge came today and it is very nice. They even took away my old fridge. Even nicer!
So TJ is going to bid on a new route at work. I say go for it! I know he is tired of his route and I don't blame him. I never liked that route when I covered it. I feel bad that he has to work so hard and get sore just to make extra money. I know that thankfully he has been getting the extra money because we had just spent a ton on the vacaction, weed wacker, computer, printer, software, the fridge and pretty soon the fixing the jeep, and getting a lawn mower, a new shelf and probably new tires for the acura. It just all seems to be coming at once! ARGH! Well, after this month, I hope all the spending will cease. I am just keeping my fingers crossed that nothing else breaks...
My first ochm exam is on Monday! I havent got cracking at it yet, but it should be easy because its only on chapters 1 - 3. These are the chapters I have studied anyway. So far, Ive been doing well on my quizzes so I should be okay. I have to do my lab report too. I hate lab! I know I said that before... Anyway, I think this first test should go well which is good because it should be the easiest. I need every point I can get!!!
Right now, I was checking my inbox for word about the volunteer position at Maricopa. She had said youd know by Friday, but I assumed that if youwaited until Friday then you werent going to get an acceptance. Well, whatever. If I don't get any volunteer positions, maybe I will get a small part time job? TJ was mentioning that you can get discounts and I was like, hm yeah! I can work at whole foods or something? Just to get discounts on food? Or walmart! ooh that would be interesting... maybe. We'll see.
But I definately need to shower. I was up at 5:30 and need to refresh before I study!
:: Jane Dee 1:07:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 9.14.2010 ::
What A Stupid Weekend!
Our refridgerator broke! I noticed a funny noise from the fridge and thought something was wrong but figured it was nothing. After a few hours I went to get an ice cream and it was all melted! So at 1am, I was hoping there would be one freezer left to buy from walmart (they had sold out of them at the one by my house) so I drove to the one in Mesa and WOW! there was ONE left. So we bought it and salvaged most of the food. The next day We bought bags of ice and used our coolers (three of them) to store the milk and such. I ordered a new fridge, reluctantly, and spent almost $800 (!!!) on a Maytag. Now apparently that is a good deal. Whatever! I have no choice do I? I cant live out of ice boxes!
Then I saw the credit card bill from out Alaska trip = HOLY CRAP. Well, it was supposed to be our last big trip before I go to medical school. Hopefully, that is the case. I will goto medical school, even if it is in the Caribbean.
On Saturday I went to the scool library to use their bandwidth to upload all my pictures to my webpage. I left at the last minute and still didnt finish! When I came home, I started to work with another webpage gallery program I downloaded and I think I am going to buy this one because it actually works. They also offer a service where they will make a custome template that matches your webpage for about $20. Neat! This is them here, Easy Website Photo Gallery. I even figured out how to link my videos to my pictures! Hooray!!
The problem is that now that I decided I want to use this program, all those picrures I uploaded are not useful because this program creates its own folders and thumbnails.... ugh!!! So Id have to create each page and upload them separately anyway! What a waste of time... or is it a learning experience?
Speaking of learning experiences, I hate lab! I (we) are always the last to leave. If Im not spilling crap on myself, then we are not boiling our stuff fast enough. Todays lab apparently was that we didnt crank the heat all the way up and that set up back long enough to be last again! Im just not fond of lab. And the lab books are torture, Ive never done labs like this so I am not as fast with them. Of course, on some things we have to be very explicit and then on others they don't care. Well which one is it? Ughh. My labs always turn out to be 10 pages long too. I just dont know how to shorten it. Well, we'll see how she grades this one. She said she would be lienient on the first two then screw all of you after that. Sigh. And I don't know if the lab is a separate grade or not. I hope its not, but I have a feeling it is. Hmm.
Then today everyone was sick in the lab. I feel like my throat is sore but only a little and I hope it doesnt get any worse. Tomorrow I have an "info session" at Scottsdale health, but its not an interview, Id have to come back for that. Phooey! Now I have to wait and wait to see if anyone wants to take me. If no one wants to give me a volunteer position then I will just go to the horse ranch or something. I cant waste all this time for nothing.
Otherwise, I can get a job! If I can secure anything by the end of this month, I cant apply to anymore because I cant give six months. I will be going to NY for two weeks in January and I will be applying to schools. Not that its going to be "too much" for mr to handle, its just that if I were to get a recommendation without completeing my six months, would it be harder? Maybe. Maybe I should just volunteer at the library or something. Well, we'll see. Maricopa hasnt gotten back to me yet. They will get to everyone by Friday. I assume that if it takes that long then they don't really want you. Hm.
I guess its time for bed!
:: Jane Dee 12:39:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 9.10.2010 ::
UGH!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME??
I wasted hours uploading these photos only to find I didnt need to use FTP because I STILL have to publish which uploads each file anyway!!
Crrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaapppp.
:: Jane Dee 3:53:00 PM [+] ::
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Still Searching
Slowly but surely, I am getting my webpage updated after a million years!! I am uploading pictures as we speak! However, I am still searching for a good gallery script/program. Ive come across this whilst looking through the webpages of an old classmate who also likes to take lots of pictures (many of which are quite good). So I checked out his sources and this was the best so far. I will download the trial when I am done uploading this folder. I am keeping my fingers crossed.
In other news, I had one interview yesterday at Maricopa Health and it wasn't the tops. It was a group interview and I don't think the interviewer was that interested in my answers, especially since I had to constantly use Fedex examples. But I could be wrong and maybe its because I was the only female in the room wearing a black suit? I hope so. Anyway, I have an interview at Scottsdale next week and hopefully I will get both positions but one would be good. I am thinking that I should have volunteered at the horse therapy place after all.
Which makes me wonder something: why am I volunteering at all? I think I have enough experiences to draw on considering I have been working for 13 years which is almost half of my life and Im not even 30!!!! Oh well, its an unwritten law of sorts that you have to volunteer. I am worried that I will not get any volunteer positions and I will look even more "non-traditional" every day that passes by. This makes Ross U. more and more the likely place. Well, if it is, Im ready!
And so much for volunteering at the Salt River place. I called them and asked about opportunities and she told me that Id have to go through the main hospital etc etc and then apply to this place. So I went online to find any forms and whatnot and there are none to be found. What a bummer! So now Im down to Maricopa, Scottsdale, maybe a couple more hospitals and then on to cold-calling doctors or mailing out my resume. What an annoying process. And I wrote this elaborate cover page for the Salt River place and everything. Sheesh. Well, hopefully I will find something.
In the meantime, I am making my first loaf of bread in my very own bread machine! I will post the final product when its finished (soon!!) I had to add some water to their recipe, so hopefully it will turn out okay. I can kinda smell it now...
:: Jane Dee 2:25:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 9.08.2010 ::
A Short Day
After my very long weekend, I only have class for an hour today! Our homework is due and its the same homework from the summer that I already completed. So I have a couple hours before class and I will recopy it and submit it.
This class is going well enough. She gives a lot of work but thats okay. We should be finishing chapter 2 and starting chapter 3 today. I had started chapter four, so this weekend I will finally start studying again. Our first test is in a couple of weeks and that should go well. I need to do the best I can on it so I have some kind of buffer in case I need it for another test.
Tomorrow I have an interview at Maricopa for a volunteer position. I just need to print out some stuff an I am set. My printer finally started to break down. The black doesnt work anymore. It only started this after I opened up a fresh new pack of ink. So now, I will use up my color and print in grey and I will extract the black ink from the new cartridge and fill an old blue one I have. That way I can at least use up all my ink before throwing it out. I already bought a new printer, but I will use every drop of ink I can before I get rid of it. It may take a while. I have two more canisters to go through!!!
Lou emailed me about hearing an ad for Ross on the radio. Im glad places like Ross exist because it gives me hope for medical school. I don't care what the naysayers say about it. If it didnt exist, Id have almost a zero percent chance of getting to med school. I will try for Arizona, but I have no shame about going to Ross either.
So all weekend I was trying to find a way to make posting the pictures of my past trips easier. I found none. So it will just have to come down to many hours uploading and moving and cropping manually. It makes no difference if I edit them on some html script, I would still have to edit them and make thumbnails then create tags for each and every picture. I have hundreds. So either way, its not going to be fun and it will take much time. But I plan on doing it. But I will do it with the editor Ive been using because it makes no difference.
Its 3pm! Better get moving on that homework.
:: Jane Dee 2:49:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 9.05.2010 ::
It's September Already!
And its Labor Day weekend. Luckily, I have Monday off and don't have a lab this week and don't have class until Wednesday. Hurrah!!
Anyway, I worked all day yesterday and today but I finally finished my new resume, my new cover letter and answered all the questions for the volunteer position and printed out the LORs for the volunteer stuff.
Yesterday was a nightmare trying to get my printer to work. Ive had it for about four years now, and the black is not printing at all. So I changed the cartridge and that didnt work. I tried to clean it, to pump air in, pump air out, but its not working. So, after about five hours of getting nowhere, I decided to print all my documents in "grey" and print out my new resume and cover letters with the other printer and get a new multifunction printer this weekend because of all the sales. Of course, none of the new printers use my old style cartridges, so I have to use up all the color cartridges I have and scrap the brand new black one I have, unless I can get it to fit into one of the color slots...? We'll see.
So I havent been studying super hard with organic trying to get all thsi volunteer nonsense organized. But its okay because I had made my way to chapter four from the summer and I have been doing well on my quizzes. This week I will start to get busy on reviewing that stuff because I finished this resume and all that. I do plan to drive to the Salt River place and ask about me shadowing there. I prepared a cover letter just for them too. I don't know what to wear though. It has to be something friendly, but serious. I don't want to wear my suit. I will think of something. All my clothes should fit me a bit looser because of all the weight I lost (28 POUNDS so far!!) so I have more options to choose from.
I guess tomorrow I will buy the printer. I went today but it was closed (at 6pm) when I got there (at 618pm). Oh well. If I cant get it then, maybe I will buy it online. Or wait. Who knows.
Then tomorrow when I come back I will cook some hotdogs and do my lab report and homework. I think its the same exact homework she gave to us when she was covering Silberman. I will see. I hope she doesnt mind it being printed out in "grey" or "navy." Ha!
Other than that everything else seems to be going well. I found a script to post pictures on my webpage more efficiently than I have been doing this whole time. I also want to get rid of some pictures on there. As I look at them, they are not as interesting anymore. I would definately like to change some things on that webpage. I should get started on that when I finish trying to go around to get some shadowing gigs or perhaps earlier. Maybe even this weekend! I won't get my hopes up.
Hm I wonder if we will have a quiz Wednesday. Well, I should prepare as if we were.
I guess Im off to bed. Im pretty tired and had a headache all day.
:: Jane Dee 11:19:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 9.02.2010 ::
Bought Some Stuff
And not everything is great! I just bought the new Sharpie Liquid Pencil, and boy am I disappointed. It kinda writes like a crappy 99 cent store pen. It erases really well though. You can erase it with your fingers before it dries. However, it doesn't look like pencil, so Im not sure how this is equivalent to #2 lead, but okay. I was hoping for a better product. I think I was expecting the "ink" to be shiny like graphite, and more grey, not black. It looks just like ink and it doesn't blend like pencil. You cant write soft or heavy, just one setting like a ballpoint pen. I mean it IS a ballpoint pen, just a weird one. The ink globs up too, like a cheap pen. You also have to hold the pen 100% vertical to get the best ink flow. I guess that is good for me because I hold my pen almost 100% vertical. However, I think most normal people hold their pens at an angle, and if you do, the ink will not flow correctly. Im going to give it a shot in class next week, but if it doesn't work out, I will send some very negative comments over to Sanford about making such a crappy product.
In other news, week two of my new organic class is over and I think I did well on this last quiz. I saw my Professor today about how to do the lab reports. Ive never done lab reports like how she wants it, so I am lost. She explained it pretty well, so the next lab report should be good. Im glad Im in her class, she is a MUCH better professor than you-know-who.
I also have to work on my LOR for my volunteer positions and finish up my resume. I hope things work out for me or hello Ross U!
Ive also been trying to work on my webpage, but the program Yahoo uses doesn't work too well on Windows 7. I have to see if my old frontpage works. Im not too sure how Im going to do all this, but I at least I've picked photoshop and now its a toos up between getting a new tablet or just buying painter essentials and using my old tablet. Decisions decisions.
Right now, I think Im going to finish up my Resume and LORs since there is no school on Monday!
:: Jane Dee 12:41:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 8.31.2010 ::
And I Don't like Phosphorus Either
It can have 4 double bonds! What EVER.
Im sure this is why I like math and physics better...
:: Jane Dee 7:19:00 PM [+] ::
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I Hate Sulphur
You know why? Cuz its a favorite on tests because it doesnt obey the stupid "octect rule" which is hardly a rule since it applies to about 10 atoms. So after trying to figure out what sulphur's problem is, I see that I will just have to calculate formal charges each and every time. There is just no pattern with sukphur (appropriate typo). Maybe next time it will be sulkphur. Hm. Except for all but 5 atoms I will have to calculate formal charge. BOOO!
Well, at least I figured out what to do. On to the next thing.
:: Jane Dee 6:48:00 PM [+] ::
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And So It Begins
Ive already been through one wekk and some of my ochem class and it hasnt been too bad. I got a perfect score on my first quiz, and we have nother one tomorrow. I think I totally screwed up my first lab and prelab, but she said she wouldnt grade it harshly so you can get used to it. I did have my first accident in the lab ever yesternight by spilling the sample we were working with all over the place including my lab coat (good thing I was wearing it!!) I felt stupid but shit happens.
The other funny thing that happened in lab was that someone tried to steal my lab bench! I was like, uh where is your drawer? and she was like over there but some other guy stole her bench. Im like well, Im not going to go across the room to use a bench, tell him to move back where he belongs. So eventually, it all worked out. I hate being bossy but oh well.
So I havent worked on my web pages but I hope to this weekend. I should be studying right now, so I will get to that when this post is over. I do plan to get that webpage finished by the end of the year. I think I would like to buy a program that can help organize my photos etc or some kind of scrapbooking program so I dont have to just post the pictures on a page. We'll see.
So far, my VAIO has been working well. I does take a while to boot up now so Im not sure what that means but we will see. I have been trying out different programs to buy for this computer. I am not sure if I will buy a new drawing tablet, but a new tablet comes with Painter Essentials and so far, I really like that program. I cant install Painter Classic on my newer computers so I need a new drawing program. I also have to buy a new Photoshop. I downloaded the trail and so far it seems to work well. This weekend I will test drive these programs with the pictures I plan to post online and see if it can handle the workload. If all goes well, I will either buy a new tablet with Painter Essentials and Photoshop or just Painter Essentials and Photoshop. I also have to wait until there is a Windows 7 compatible version of SoundForge. I really like that program too. Then I will see what kind of webpage software is out there. I have some now, but I dont know if it will install on my computer. I will try all this on the weekend.
As far as my labs are concerned I HATE LABS! Always have hated labs. I just think that for a one credit class, its a lot of meaningless work. Especially the keeping of the lab books. In this class I am to get some kind of carbon paper and make copies and submit all this nonsense... ugh! I typed up my report but that is not what she wanted. I hate writing things by hand but oh well. I will do what she says. Need the A, right?
So next week I start my first interview for a volunteer position. I have to get my recommendation letters together and see what happens. I have another interview the week after that. I hope to get two positions at two different places. Yesterday, I was working on my resume to submit to physicians when I go around and try to convince them to let me shadow them. That will definately be an undertaking. I hope to get with the clinic at the Salt River Community, but I dont know how these places work. Then I have to try to find a DO if I want to apply to DO school.
I guess I will be busy. Right now I think I should go over my notes for chapter 1, do all the problems and then do some of chapter 2. I don't know how far into chapter two we are supposed to go but she said it would be on the quiz tomorrow. So I will just do what I assume will be enough, which is usually more, ha!
:: Jane Dee 3:16:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 8.26.2010 ::
Im Back!
Its been a while since I last wrote anything because I went on my trip to Alaska and then started my ochem class this week.
I hope to post the pictures online, but knowing that I havent posted any pics for years, Im not sure how far I will go with that. Anyway, I do have a lot to say about my trip and class, just not right now. I want to see the pictures I took first.
Yes I am very behind.
Oh yeah, and I am typing the first blog entry on my new VAIO. So far so good... after I fixed it of course.
:: Jane Dee 2:18:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 8.06.2010 ::
Its 1236, Do You Know Where Your Biology Is?
IN THE BOX!
(Cue music "Hallelujah")
I FINISHED BIOLOGY!!!
Now I am going to go and buy myself a reward and then at 2pm, I will take my MCAT practice test!
I am now on my 200th index card for biology. I am not done yet... still a bit to go. I hope I can finish this half of the section now. We'll see...
:: Jane Dee 12:49:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 8.05.2010 ::
OMG One Topic Left...
I can do it, I can do it...
:: Jane Dee 5:44:00 PM [+] ::
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ONE MORE PAGE!
Yippee! I have one more page to go! Just Medelian genetics and that stuff and I AM FINISHED!!!!!!!!!!!
I stayed up late last night finishing up my notes for evolution, I just finished the flashcards and I am GTG for this last page!
Tomorrow I take my second practice MCAT test. I hope I do a little better! I didnt do too bad on the first test, but I hope going over the biology will at least raise my score in that area. Well, we'll see.
Five 'till noon, and I am ready to go!
See ya on my next break!
:: Jane Dee 11:51:00 AM [+] ::
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Okay...
I can finish the flash cards for evolution tomorrow. I am sleepy!
:: Jane Dee 1:21:00 AM [+] ::
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Must... Finish... Evolution...
I will finish... I just keep telling myself that... pfft. Don't know if I will, but I will still take the practice test on Friday.
I am going to work into the night until Saturday if I have to! I WILL finish!
In other good news, I finally got my Sony evaluated and I am going to get it traded in for $52! Hurray. I already ordered a new one and I hope that one lasts another eight years! Im going to buy a bread maker with the money.
Im now down to 130 pounds. Ive lost 20 pounds! Holy cow! I am not sure if I will want to get to 120, but we will see. I dont want to look too skinny, then you look old.
Im also starting to get worried about the volunteer stuff. No one has got back to me about orientation dates. I do have an appointment at SHC, but Maricopa hasn't got back to me and neither did Chandler. When I get back from my trip, I will launch an all out assault on hospitals and clinics to get something! I also need to find a DO. If I don't, I may not be able to apply to any DO schools! UGH!
So its back to work. I think I can do this section, embryogenesis, without watching the video.
Work, work, work....
:: Jane Dee 1:50:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 8.01.2010 ::
Two And A Half Pages Left!
I will be done before I go on vacation, hurrah!
I just finished "Skin System" and am starting on "Reproductive System." Then I will have to watch the last four videos and finish up this crap. Whoo!
Now I just need to get some volunteer stuff in...
:: Jane Dee 5:26:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 7.28.2010 ::
Exactly Five Pages To Go!
And three pages are just systems! This should go faster because I don't have to watch videos for these.
Hopefully I can get a lot done today. Ive been thinking about the LORs a lot and I am starting to get worried because I may NEED the profs LOR because I still haven't heard anything from the volunteer places. Sigh...
And I lost 18 pounds holy crap! I will see if I can stand to go down to 120 but I don't know if I can maintain that for a whole year! I may also have to get a new suit if I get that low, which I may not feel like doing since I won't stay at that weight when I get into school.
So Ive definately decided that Carribean school will be my last choice. After much research and fact checking, I will apply for MD and DO at the same time, then if I get absolutely nothing, I MAY apply to Carribean school. Maybe. The outlook at those schools are not very good for getting a decent residency. Descent meaning not at a crappy hospital in some crappy area (think Bushwick or Coney Island hospital, yuck).
Ive also decided that if I have to go to a school that is more than $40K a year, then I will seriously consider the NAVY program to help pay for school. I may also consider the military medical school in Bethesda, MD. But Im leaning towards the Navy program because the commitment time is less because I go to a civilian school. Of course, I can't consider the military school unless I get those LORs!!!
Sigh... Back to the LORs. I guess I need to ponder that a bit more. And I think it's back to thee digestive system!
:: Jane Dee 9:33:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 7.27.2010 ::
I Am Trying To Move Fast
With August approaching, I am coming up fast on my vacation and I am determined to finish these biology notes before I go!!! I woke up at 7am today and I will wake up early everyday until my vacation to get this done.
So I havent had any responses regarding volunteer positions. I wonder whats up with that? Im still waiting to hear back from Chandler and Phoenix, and I won't set up an appointment with Banner until I hear back from one of these. Im going to call SHC today and set a place for a SEPTEMBER orientation (because the August one coincides with my vacation) and I hope I can get something set up by October! Sheesh! There is also the chance I may get to volunteer/shadow at various clinics around here at at the Salt River place, so I guess I can see what to do about that when I get back from my trip.
So Im going to Alaska! And Im taking Meux Meux! It will be fun! I can't wait. My Jeep is almost ready to go (last minute stuff like air in tires and check spare) and I have all the food and stuff like that ready. I just have to buy some paper towels and we are good to go! The last time I went to Alaska, I was 7. Ha!
So you see why I want to be done with the biology. I would like to focus on taking pictures! Anyway, this may be my last big vacation for a long time, in case I get into medical school. I don't know if I'd have the time or money for a vacation once I get in. I guess we'll see. There is always Mexican cruise if I end up in AZ and Carribean cruise if I end up in NY or east coast.
So today I am much happier and Lou is heading off to Germany as I type. No, I think she is still at the airport. Anyways, its great she is going to go somewhere neat. I wish I could go, but Im here in Arizona studying for MCAT. Not bad, I guess.
Okay so its back to work... Immune system!
:: Jane Dee 1:22:00 PM [+] ::
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:: 7.23.2010 ::
Feelin' Better Today
Im not as annoyed as I was yesterday. I am dreading the biology though. Its so tedious. Im going to try to study as much as I can before my trip. Im deciding if I should try to finish it up ON the trip. I really, really want it finished before class starts because I want to devote as much brain power into getting an A in organic as possible. Plus I need to start working on my essays, which I plan to post on here. I need at least a day a week to do that.
So my plan is still good for taking the MCAT in March. The enrollment period for March is in November. I also got the ball rolling on my volunteer stuff. I hope to volunteer at Maricopa health systems (because its close to the airport where TJ works), Scottsdale health (near the school), and a place on the Salt-River community. Im going to try to find a DO to shadow as well.
My next large and embarrassing step is to try and secure recommendations from some old professors. I have three specific professors in mind, two of which have written recommendations for me before. I would have had a better pool to work with if those two Im thinking about werent trying to get me into bed or touch my boobs. But, I have to work with what I got. Think I can get the recommendation from the professor at CCNY, but Im still not sure about KCC. Im not even sure how to approach the situation. I want to let them know I am coming so they dont retire, but I think in this bad economy, no one is going to retire just yet. Well, I will be there in six months. I am thinking I can contact the one at CCNY by email because he likes computers but I am not sure if he will remember me in person let alone on the computer. I have to think about this some more...
At least I am now about halfway through the biology. I am trying to finish up this section, but it took me SIX HOURS just to clarify one small section I thought was going to be easy. Im not sure if I am going to watch the videos for the organ systems because I think I can get it done faster if I read through the chapter myself. I will watch it for reproduction and some other stuff, but for things like heart system, lymph, hepatic, I think I will read it myself. It seems I always have to read almost everything anyways, might as well skip the stuff that is not necessary.
Its almost 10! I have to get started on this crap...
:: Jane Dee 9:40:00 AM [+] ::
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:: 7.22.2010 ::
Not Happy Today
Many things are annoying me today. First off, I havent heard back from "gazelle" about my Sony. I think they said they may take up to ten days to process, I think its only been eight.
Then Im annoyed because I havent heard back from CHW about my volunteer application. They don't have a phone number so the only way to contact them is to go there. Whatever. I submitted three applications to other places yesterday. I am thinking about calling the one in Phoneix today because I want to see if they would take me sooner. It would be better if I went there so I can drop off TJ at work then go to the places, then if Im done early, I can study somewhere and then go pick up TJ from work. It would save a bit of money.
Then Im annoyed because I feel like I am taking on such a stupid task. Apparently, it almost seems like its uncool to be a doctor. Well, I guess I am used to being uncool. Doesnt mean I like it, just used to it. Im trying to stay motivated but it seems like Im losing a bit of steam. I think my vacation coming up will do me some good.
Then the other thing annoying me is that I really don't understand my family. I don't even know how I am related to these people. Most of the time I feel alone, like I was adopted or was taken care of by this family, but Im really not theirs. I guess I feel this way because my sister's birthday is coming up and I always feel stupid sending her a gift since she always "forgets" my birthday. She remembered here and there, but never consistently. I feel like I shouldnt be obligated to someone like that, but I sent her one anyway. Ive decided that I won't (and can't more like it) send people gifts anymore. This will be a very lean Christmas. Everyone can expect cards and nothing else. Funny though, only Lou sends me Christmas gifts.
I guess Im done caring about a lot of things, trying to make everything right. My family doesnt listen to me anyway. I think my sister expects me to talk to her more, but Im not in the mood to send text messages, especially when she doesnt answer. She doesnt have a real email address, just some made up name. Shes always been like that, always has to hide and make up stories and lie and dance around the situation. A relationship needs to be nurtured whether Im related to you or not. It seems like she talks to our father (my estranged father, apparently her allowance every now and then) more than she talks to me. I told her a long time ago why I lost faith in her, and told her again before my wedding. Yes I forgive and forget but that doesnt mean I will be your best friend. Building trust takes time and commitment. Not answering texts and calls, never calling me or emailing me isnt going to instantly make everything better. I don't think people understand how to be friends with anyone anymore. Maybe that is why I don't really have many friends. I guess I demand too much from people. I guess I value my time too much.
Whats funnier is that I can probably write whatever I want about anybody on here and they will never read it, even though most people I know, know I have this blog and a website. I know this is so because when I was dating The Captain, it was months before he finally read my blog and realized I never wrote anything about him. He was offended. He said "it's like you write about a life where I don't exist." Uh, yeah asshole! You don't include me in your life, what the hell makes you think Im going to include you in my world? Boy, some people are really dumb and think the whole world revolves around them.
Boy, all this complaining and its only 10am. Im not sure when would be a good time to call the volunteer place in Phoenix, but I will call today. I also might raise enough courage to ask about volunteering/shadowing at a few of the public health service places this weekend. I should be busy this weekend. I have some house repairs and letters and resumes to fix up to send out, and buy some stuff for my trip.
Other than that, I still feel crappy.
:: Jane Dee 9:42:00 AM [+] ::
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