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Today I took my first test in anatomy and I soooo did not get an A. I mean, I probably managed in the 80s but I need As. What good is this all for if I don't? And tomorrow I have a psychology test that I know I won't ace either because I didn't study enough. What is wrong with me? I've been so unmotivated lately. It also doesn't help when your palm pilot is crazy. I have to take dates down on various sheets of paper that I have to rummage to find later on. It also doesn't help when the library isn't "as open" as it is in the spring. I needed this weekend at the library but noooo. They had to close. Sigh. I hope that optional paper can be used as a grade if I get in the 80s. Oh I'm so nervous!
Well, on a better note, I passed CPR with an A and got certified. Cool now all I need is hepatitis vaccination and I should be good to go.
I better get back to studying this. I'm going to flip out!
:: Jane Dee 5:41:00 PM [+] ::
:: 9.28.2003 ::
Hey this looks like my cat Chata, except Chata has more of a monkey face.
:: Jane Dee 10:55:00 AM [+] ::
So if I can imagine a hot geologist getting me a really cool engagement ring.... hehehehe!
:: Jane Dee 3:17:00 PM [+] ::
Forgot to mention that I took my first lab test and got a stinkin' 96. I will not have this crap! Good thing he drops the lowest grade. Whew.
And now I can't even study at the library because of Rosh Hashana. UUGgghhhh! I hate to study at home.
Well, on a good note, I lost a couple of more pounds. I'm only one away from the AF ideal. I do plan to lose more, but baby steps, baby steps. I want it to be a real loss not some crappy diet sheeyot. I've maintained my current weight for quite sometime now. This is great.
Oh yeah, I was looking through my old posts and realized I was supposed to post pictures of certain things. My visit to the Aerospace exhibit, the MS Tour and my summer vacation. Well scratch the exhibit, the pics are too boring for a general audience. The MS Tour maybe but only like one or two. The summer one can wait because I'm sure nobody is dying over it.
Okay I think it's time to study. I also think I took too many classes this semester. Well one of them will be over on monday so that ought to be a relief. Then I can be certified to give all the choking hotties rescue breaths... I would have said CPR, but no one looks good when they are almost dead.
I've always had strange dreams, usually violent in nature. Most of the times it resembles some battle situation... I have to defend myself against someone who has better weapons than me and most of the times, I don't even have a weapon! Sheesh. Anyway, this dream involved me warding off a stabber (who coincidently had a weapon that resembled that lancet we used in lab only about 700 times bigger... that lancet looked more like an ice pick by the way). I was with some Russian girl who I accidently pushed down the stairs (I didn't realize how skinny she was) and when I came to help her up, this guy appeared and was ready to stab her or me. So I got up and grabbed his arm with the blade. We struggled for a liitle and he knicked me with it but I eventually got it out of his hand. Then he started to run away and I chased him, I was signalling my friend in the car to follow him but I don't think he noticed. So I just ran and ran after him and was hoping to get him but I woke up.
Now the thing that interested me about this dream wasn't the dream itself but the way my heart was pounding! It was so LOUD. and it was like BUMP.....dum...........BUMP....dum..........BUMP.... etc. It was so weird. I thought it was going to break through my ribs. I think it's just weird when you can actually feel the blood flowing and hear it too. My brain is hearing this yet what the hell is my brain too? It's so complicated. And people don't belive in God, pffft.
:: Jane Dee 9:32:00 AM [+] ::
:: 9.26.2003 ::
Hear I say...
When all my troubles have boiled down to managable salts
And I can see the sun through the window...
When I wake up without the nagging stiffness of the damaging memories
And the pain in my head has dissappeared...
When I find that the man I love loves me back
And I have no reason to fear the darkness...
When I can finally say "I made it" over and over
And believe every word I say,
I'll be everything I was meant to be.
Well, I guess it's time to bid my friends good bye... Back to work!
:: Jane Dee 8:11:00 PM [+] ::
My site's total hits have really gone up lately... Mr Luis, there are other websites out there to visit too!
:: Jane Dee 2:54:00 PM [+] ::
A Tribute to Ezzie the Dog
Lou's dog Esmerleda died yesterday from euthanaisa initiated by severe lung cancer. She was going to suffocate soon. We all gathered with her at the vet and held her as she left us. It was sad, but happy in that Lou took her in when she was sure to be killed because she was a pitbull. Even though it was three little years, that dog brought Lou a happy heart and many happy memories.
So I woke up on a better note and have attributed my suffering (and back pain) to my monthly visitor. No, I did not use Stuart's equation because I did not have any initial complaints. I guess it doesnt always work, but I still like my equation.
I found an interesting site while I was searching for something I thought was called the abgar index. Then I found this site. Please note this is not for the faint of heart.
I don't want to get into it, but I am certainly not in the best of moods. I was feeling anxious all day and then got a stomach ache. Then I felt shitty. I went to CPR class and excelled at my first battery of tests, but that couldn't even make me feel better. Then I saw someone and wanted to punch someone in the face. But we can't have everything now can we?
Am I even making sense? Probably not.
How come we can only save ourselves? Why do I always have to do all the work? ugghhhhh
:: Jane Dee 5:43:00 PM [+] ::
:: 9.14.2003 ::
Let's Go Bikers! (clap clap cla cla clap)
The MS Tour went well today. It actually started on time and I was one of the first groups done. I should have rode slower because I know I will have to take the bus tomorrow (ow ow owwww)! Anyway, I have some pictures, but will post them later. There weren't as many women as men, and the few women that were there looked gay. In fact, a lot of people looked gay and I think the grossest thing was a pile of bloody stools in one of the port-a-potties I used. I think people should refrain from such damaging ass sex. ANYWAY, it was a bit rainy and it was foggy. I got totally soaked from the gross water on the road but it was okay. We started at Battery Park City at 7:30 and rode on the FDR all the way to the end and took the streets to the tip of Manhattan. There was a mandatory rest stop there and they were handing out snacks and water. We had to reorganize and then started the tour again. We then went on the Henry Hudson Drive to the West Side Highway. Some of the slopes on the FDR are murder... not to mention huge potholes filled with gross water splashing in my face and in my mouth (ugh). After a ride down the WSH, we got rerouted to 11th Ave I think and then back to the WSH, where the finish line for the 30 milers (ME) was. There were people cheering us and all that crap. I got a T-Shirt for turning in more than $100 before the tour and they had sandwiches from Subway which were totally gross (lord knows what I had... some "ham" and white cheese with pickles and relish and mayo and ugh!), UTZ chips which are totally gross and snapple water which I now like more than poland spring (has anyone else noticed the nasty flavor of poland spring nowadays?) Well, we also got a "goodie bag" which was filled with nothing good. So as a souvenier I took my MS Tour sash home.
The coordinator or president for the NY Chapter is not one of my favorite guys. I don't wish to discuss the matter but everyone I know knows what I'm talking about. Before the tour started he was on the mic and he introduced his girlfriend and asked her to marry him and she squeaked and did all the typical girlie hoo-ha you see on TV. That was the lamest thing I've ever witnessed in my life. I swear if some guy asks me that in front of everyone like that, I'd be so embarassed... then I'd have to punch him for being so dumb. Well, I guess that's just me. And I certainly wouldn't "squeak"
I would also like to mention that my bike is clearly a superior bike. You should have seen all the cheap ten speeds who had flats at the beginning! Mountain bikes rule, especially when its a Specialized.
I did have a good time sweating myself silly. I will see if I will do this again next year.
:: Jane Dee 9:36:00 AM [+] ::
:: 9.13.2003 ::
Back to talking about my school stuff
Anatomy lab was last Thursday and it involved us stabbing ourselves with a lancet and obtaining blood for a hematocrit. My values came out to about 45% which is great. We also used our blood to test for anemia using some color chart. Well, My blood was pretty dark and was in the 95% - 100% hemoglobin (to about 15 grams) range. Cool.
The funny thing about this lab was that the lancets we used we quite big and wide. They weren't thin and needle like. It was difficult to get people to stab themselves and for some reason, the men were the worst. I thought men were supposed to be tough. Pffft. Wimps. Please I had to stab myself over and over to fill up that capillary tube. Talk about threshold of pain. OUCH!
Now I have to think about whether I want to join the Nursing Club or not. I guess it would be nice, but the thing is that all the ideas I have for fairs and stuff are taken by the community health club or whatnot. Well, at least they didn't steal my top secret idea to raise money. Heheheh.
Okay, I think it's time i finished cleaning my room, no?
:: Jane Dee 7:35:00 PM [+] ::
Since tomorrow is the MS Bike Tour, I'd like to take this opportunity to thank everyone for sponsoring me in this year's MS Bike Tour. As a special thank you, I will wear the names of all my sponsors on a special shirt that I will wear on my tour. Thank you all again, your kindness is greatly appreciated! Wish me luck!
Now that I saw him I want him! There are some Australian Blue Lobsters at a fish shop (pet fish) near me and they are so cute. I was thinking baout getting a crayfish, but these guys took my breath away. I don't know if I want one at $40, but I'll think about it.
:: Jane Dee 10:05:00 AM [+] ::
:: 9.09.2003 ::
I'm actually bored. I can't remeber the last time I was bored. Well, I will probably go to sleep. However, since I have one last bit of energy (that candy bar I had is about to be burned up), I can use it up by talking about my schedule and new general thoughts on my school.
My friend G raised a good point (as he usually does... he was the inspiration behind the glass proof) about KCC. Do I really want to work there? Well I have a pretty impressive list of people that I dont like or would rather not see:
1) The Muse: I know he may be a good source of entertainment but I'd rather not see he collection of sport jackets and poindexter shorts.
2) Fat Bracco: My new friend has inched her way into my heart with her words of wisdom (Im talking about the arts and crafts bitch)
3) Fat Security Guard: Follows me around for no apparent reason. What does he think he's "on to something"?
4) Old High School security guard: He used to annoy my friend Peter... we'll leave it at that
5) J the Security Guard: Oh brother, I don't even want to remember. (Why do guys always find some sneaky way to get me to touch their 'stuff'? If I want to I'll touch it! I know where it is. It's not like he's gonna say "oh please no". Geez!)
6) Old High School English teacher: Was a real bastard. His breath smelled too.
Okay maybe the list isn't that big but I think I may want to rethink where I would work.
Anyhoo, as my last calories are simmering, I was wondering what I was going to do with all my "free" time. Now that I had to rearrange me schedule, I had to replace my crafts classes with classes where you have to write stuff. Not that I would find it hard or anything, but it would be a nusiance. Ugh. How about I save my last ten calories for sleeping and call it a night.
That crazy bitch prof surprised me by being the prof the another class I had. The funny thing was that I waited on the program change line to drop her class and add stress management and ended up going to my arts and crafts class late... and she was teaching it! She said something but didn't look too happy. Well, after class I ran back to that line (and convinced them to let me back in) and dropped that class too. Thank god there was a different class available! So I now have a class on women's health issues as well as stress management. Well, thankfully, I was able to get a new class given how late it is. And I don't have to see her face again!
What else is there... hmm okay, I made my Inca Cola shirt and filled my fish tank... now all I need is filter fiber (aka pillow stuffing), fake plants, and ... FISH! I may also get an African dwarf frog but they are kind of boring. However, they are so cute when they eat. They just shove the brine shrimp thingies in their mouths with their little hands.
Geez Im so exhausted... I should eat a better breakfast.
Another day, another update. Check out the new card games here.
Im not so much in a foul mood anymore. I just wish I had someone to hug when I need to be. I bet that would make things get better faster. But in any case, read about scabies... don't worry about why... just do it!
Anyway I'm off to bed. Hopefully, I will not have another crappy day. But how can I? Anatomy is tomorrow! YAY!!
:: Jane Dee 9:22:00 PM [+] ::
I hate being pissed... what's worse is when other people make you feel this way and they think they were justified in doing so.
I just dont understand... a "nice" person wouldn't say that. So I would have to disagree with her half ass theory about how you act one way is the way you are. Hasn't she ever heard of facades? Liars? People like her?
Guess not... but I surely know.
:: Jane Dee 2:36:00 PM [+] ::
Bad Things Happen I Guess
I went to my first day and all was going well. Until I got to my recreation class. To make a long story short, the "professor" winds up saying "...well i hope you never take care of me... you really should be more proactive with your life." referring to a) I will be a horrible nurse and b) I have no clue as to what I'm doing with my life. Not to mention she says all this in front of the class who then starts laughing at me. So I wait until the break and I tell her she is rude and unprofessional. Well, she will stick to what she thinks and claim that I came in with an attitude? What attitude? She asked me what my major was and scoffed at the fact that I, of all people could be in the nursing program. Then she asked me why I am taking this class and I said to fill up my schedule but apparently that made her mad. Stupid bitch. Thank god the class is once a week. I think I am going to tell the chairman about her unprofessional behavior. Who the hell does she think she is anyway?
:: Jane Dee 2:25:00 PM [+] ::
WEPA! ... and to all a good night.
:: Jane Dee 10:55:00 PM [+] ::
It's 1am and classes start today! Hooray for the fall semester. I am currently working on the fun and games page for I have updated the Astronomy Update and the monthly calendar. I was thinking I wolud actually put important dates on my calendars but I figured it would be more fun if you did it! Right. I also added a new side link to view my guestbook because apparently, I had some people write in it, but they cant see it. Well, I fixed that! So if anyone wants to raise hell in my guestbook, feel free... Louis. Or you can raise hell (or just continue it already in progress) on this rab message board hehehehe.
Today was an interesting day. I rode my bike a moderate 18 miles. My top speed was a record breaking (well my records anyway) 27.5 mph thanks to a boost from the rotten drawbridge on the Shore Parkway path! I actually kept that speed up for a good minute and some seconds till I got that warm fuzzy "your overdoing it" sensation in my chest. So I tried it on the next boosting slope, but I was apparently out of the resources I had before and could only get to 25. The third slope was even slower, reaching only 20. Well besides that, I also had a delicious beef patty from the guy who runs the food van at the rest stop. I like him, he gives me free gum. Well, I'm sure he gives all the cyclists free gum. My face got a bit burned but I don't care I only got to go to the beach twice this year, one of which was in San Diego.
There are plenty more pages waiting to be updated, so make sure you check back here for the direct links or look around my website for new pages.
So wish me luck... and I hope I dont have to buy a new graphing calculator! oh lord...
:: Jane Dee 10:22:00 PM [+] ::
:: 9.05.2003 ::
I got a new one!
I did it, I posted another page here. Don't you just LOVE rocks? hehehe
And why the hell do I keep getting logged into that blasted Crow's Nest blog.. IT SUCKS. Anyway, more to come.
:: Jane Dee 2:42:00 PM [+] ::
Blogger somehow signed me on someone else's blog and I wrote about it here. Hehehe
I am working on my other pages and will be dying my hair soon. Ooh I can't wait. It'll look smashing.
Now it's "bedtime"... until I come back online.
:: Jane Dee 3:16:00 AM [+] ::
:: 9.04.2003 ::
Hmm... this is quite the conundrum.
I gathered all the pictures I want to use for display on my webpage. Apparently the count is about 500. Do you think that is too much? Do you know how many pictures I took on this trip? about 1400. Thank God for digital because that would be about 54 rolls and at $6 a roll to develop... well let's just say I'd rather not give CVS all that dough. I would like to know how to develop my own pictures but that class will have to wait.
Hmm. I don't even think I have enough room left for all these pictures even if I made them all small. Well, I guess im going to have to choose the best ones. And then wind up buying more space for my webpage. It seems inevitable because there are so many other things I will want to post not to mention how I'd like to upload my computer art. Maybe during the winter, when I will assume I have some time, I can delete some pictures? Maybe I can use someone else for space? (heheh) Oh whatever. I'm sure I'm over thinking it.
I ordered my lovely rolling bookbag on Tuesday afternoon and got it today, Thursday, at about 10:30am thanks to FedEx and the quick service at LL Bean. I am truely impressed by the speed! And to think I was going to wait at least until next week. Pfft! This is why I prefer FedEx to UPS: two days means two days. When I order from Amazon, lets say, my stuff takes so long to get here because they use UPS. Once I ordered Mozart's Symphony No. 30 from them and asked for the two day shipping because I needed it ASAP but didnt want to pay for overnight. Well, I waited and waited and it took FOUR days to reach me and I was so nervous because I really needed that symphony for a report for music class. It took three days to even get to my door to which those annoying yellow stickers were left saying how sorry they were that they missed me. You know something? My mother said that once she was waiting for a package from UPS and the guy didnt even ring the bell; she caught him simply writing out that blasted sticker without even checking if we were there! What an outrage! Well, I wrote a letter to Amazon saying how upset I was that I needed two day shipment and it didnt come in two days and I was just so distressed... well, they refunded my shipping costs and all was well with the world. I got an A on that report too.
My CBAC (corned beef and cabbage) is totally awesome! Now that I have almost perfected one of my most favorite dishes, I can officially move CBAC Night (previously at the pub) from Thursday to any day I choose! Hmm... Maybe Friday? Maybe Sunday? I love delicious decisions!
:: Jane Dee 1:52:00 AM [+] ::
UGH! stupid online crap
So here I am uploading, editing and just plain workin hard and boom! yahoo decides not to work. Well, I should get to sleep anyway. Maybe I should take this as a sign.
Being as cheap as I am, I squeezed an extra meg out of my current webspace by lowering the bit rates of the music on my page (very space hungry) and deleting somethings I figure I will never post anyway. So now there will be plenty of room for my latest pile of photos and the updated writings. However, I'm not sure about next time. I can't make the music any smaller without really losing the sound.
Oh looky here, the server works! Yay!
Okay I am uploading a new song for my yawnfactory page. I thought it fit well (snicker..)
Wow, I have a lot of work left to do before Monday... see how much work I do to keep that damn page looking good? Two months of no work means a hell of a lot more later. Don't worry, I'm getting there.
Check it out! I'm finally updating my page! I have a few new and newer pages to keep you satisfied in the meantime. Hopefully, I will be able to mega multi-task and update and cook and get ready for classes in record time! Currently, I am cropping and adjusting the many, MANY pics from the trip and noticing that my allocated memory is running low... is it time to buy more space for maduniverse.com? Perhaps I should call it mad photo universe.com? Well, we'll see just how fat these files are.
In other news, I finally decided to buy the LL Bean rolling bookbag. It was a tough decision and apparently took too long (all summer - no joke) because the lunchbox I wanted is out of stock until December. Well, it's ok because I was able to get the lunchbox that matches my bookbag. I didn't opt to get the monogram though. I thought it would just be a waste of money. Like anyone is going to have this bookbag? Please. Who the hell shops at LL Bean at my school (well, besides me)? Land's End also had a decent rolling bookbag, but I think the "double L" bag was "cooler". Yes, bookbags are a hot topic for me, you got a problem with that, pal?
School starts on Monday and I will be taking CPR! I was originally going to take drawing II (lol), but I dropped it and decided to take some arts and crafts, a class on how to spend your leisure time to benefit your health, and CPR. Isn't this great? I get to take CPR and get certified (I need that for my major anyway) and still have enough credits to get on the dean's list again. Just for this, I deserve to buy myself that snazzy green jacket I saw at Wilson's Leather... it's on sale too. Well, I'll think about it (but not as long as I did with the bookbag). They also offer matching mittens and bag... hey its buy one get one half off... will I be able to resist?
Now on a more serious note, I had a weird dream involving The Muse . Now I know it was a dream because he was actually smiling and being NICE to me. I was worried about what it could mean: do I actually like him and have been supressing it? do I secretly yearn for his "touch" (guffaw!!!!) I thought long and hard and My conclusion was NO WAY! Yes, it is true I would LOVE to hear an apology from that man for all the ridiculous things he did or said to me. It would be great to know that he has a bit of compassion. However, even if he apologized a thousand apologies, I wouldn't be compelled to date him or anything along those lines. My dream was to remind me that I must forget and move on and that I do know the sad truth despite what challenges are presented before me. The only way I would even consider opening my arms to that man again is if God himself came down from heaven and told me he is a changed man. Until then, he is not allowed to haunt me in my dreams so BE GONE. (well, it works for ghosts)
Now where was I? Oh right updates, updates...
:: Jane Dee 1:44:00 AM [+] ::