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Well folks, I don't know what to tell you. First, my block exams went TERRIBLY. Yes, I failed almost ALL of them. Not by much, but a fail is a fail is a fail. I have some options which is pretty much what this post is about.
First, I want to go home. I've actually wanted to go home the day I came here. If anyone is reading this blog and asks "should I go to Caribbean school?" read this: if you have someone you are attached to, and your whole day is always focused on them, i.e., you love them so very much, DO NOT COME TO CARIBBEAN SCHOOL WITHOUT THEM. I am warning you now. This has been the hardest THREE WEEKS(only three)of my life. Not because of school, but because I am here all alone in a strange place without the most important person in my life. Do NOT attempt to come here if this is similar to your situation. Why? Because you will start off poorly, as I am doing.
Now if I also have someone reading this and asks "They have invited me to start a semester early but that's in two weeks should I go?" The answer is NO FREAKIN' WAY. You will regret that too. I tried to get everything together in two weeks and that was a terrible idea. Awful. Stupid. Don't do it.
Apparently some people told me that I should keep my head up blah blah, and told me about all the people that cam here alone etc etc. Look, I don't know what your life situation is, but apparently they are not as attached to their spouse as I am. I've also been told that everyone here is really nice (Ive never heard of such a proportion of people being nice) and that I have to make friends and all will be better. Okay, yes friends are nice, but drinking buddies are not the same as spouse. I have no idea why people even get married if they do not see their spouse this way. What am I supposed to do? Make friends with dudes? Yeah right. I've been married almost three years now and I have a requirement of knowing what is going on with TJ. I can't do that because 1)I have no phone 2)the internet here is terrible and I can't always talk to TJ when I NEED to. Yeah, Ive been needy, but when I can't have my needs met, I cant go forward. I can keep my head up all I want to, but I won't do it for this price.
So I am withdrawing. I will just have to wait and see about American school. And then I will seriously consider DO school. There is two in Arizona within driving distance to my house. If I can't get in, I think I will do the MBA first, then I will see about AUC again. What I am thinking is that I can complete the MBA, TJ can retire and then we can go to Caribbean school together. Otherwise, no Carib school. It is just too ridiculous for me.
Today, I went to the Dean to withdraw and when I enetered, I said "Hi, I came from downstairs and I was sent up here to ask you about withdrawing." So he says, yes hi and shakes my hand, says his name and he goes "and you are?" and I say "Jane" and he tells me that I "have to introduce myself when I enter someone'd office as a Doctor. It improves the doctor client relationship." UHM IS THIS A DOCTOR'S OFFICE AND AM I A DOCTOR AND ARE YOU A PATIENT?? HELLO, DORK IT'S NOT. I gave him a "uhm okaaaay" face. As far as I am concerned, he should be introducing himself to me first, because I am the client. Slog. Anyway, I told him I am withdrawing and he gave me some paper I have to fill out. I also have to do an exit interview for financial aid, etc. Then he asks me how they failed. I told him that they shouldn't have all these activities during class week. The white coat thing should have been done before class starts. I also said not to make mandatory B.S. meetings during study hours. I gave him an example of the Kaplan course mandatory thing. Okay why is it mandatory? We dont use the Kaplan until fifth semester, AND I havent even gotten my email login yet! That was two weeks ago or so. So why did we have to go? Who cares? I didn't mention the mandatory meetings with your adviser, etc. What a freakin' waste of time! I assume they would say that I have to learn to manage my time. I would reply they would have to learn to stop wasting my time.
So this entry is for all of you out there apprehensive about Caribbean school. YES, It is a RISK. YES, you will be uncomfortable. BUT if you REALLY REALLY REALLY want to be a doctor AND have been rejected from ALL SCHOOLS INCLUDING DO SCHOOL, then take the risk. JUST DON'T RUSH! If they ask you to come early, DON'T. You will be rushed and you will not be happy. TAKE YOUR TIME. They will be there. They aren't going anywhere. Don't listen to others who say "well, you want to get a clinical blah blah blah." DON'T RUSH TO THE CARIBBEAN. And if you are like me, and apparently there are very few of my type, BRING YOUR SPOUSE. And if you are not used to living in a place that doesn't have many choices in school supplies, clothes, spices, etc., BRING ALL THE STUFF YOU CAN AFFORD. Shipping my stuff has prolonged my sanity here. I know I was lucky to get a discount, but IT WILL BE WORTH THE INVESTMENT. MAKE SURE YOU SHIP PAPER AND NOTEBOOKS AND PENS AND WHITE-OUT etc. They DO NOT have these things. Sometimes they do and mostly they don't. Unless you don't mind having ALL of your stuff being brands found in American 99c stores. Oh yeah, and the school is FREEZING. BRING A REAL SWEATER AND JEANS. Learned that the hard way.
Okay I am done with my update. I am STILL excited that I got an interview at Kansas. I have a good feeling about it! I am on the waitlist at Meharry still, so we will see how that turns out. Today I went to Philipsburg and bought some stuff. I got some souvenirs: a tank top, a license plate (probably stolen), a REALLY nice bikini (it was a little pricey, but it looks nice!), some cheap jewelry, a broken belt (which I can totally fix), and some other crap. I went to ACE and got some packing tape. They also sell the plastic film in case I need it for the bike box. I don't think I will though. I'm going to try to sell it. Maybe someone will want it? It has a flat though. If not, I will keep it. I'm also going to sell some other stuff so I can lighten my shipping load. If no one buys it, I will just keep it. I also have to eat up all of my food. I invited someone over, but I don't think she read it yet. We'll see.
So that's it for my adventure in the Antilles. Hopefully, the next time I am here will be because I am on Vacation.
P.S. Good luck too all you peeps waiting to hear back from American schools, and good luck to you peeps sticking it out in the Caribbean. I is out!
